so tell us what is your name and where are you from
I'm Lizeth and I'm from Arizona what are you doing here I'm an intern amen internship program amen
good support okay so tell us a little bit about your journey so um I grew up knowing the lord in
a Christian family and I noticed that at an early age I began to struggle with intrusive thoughts
of self-harm and just depression and instead of telling someone I kind of just hit it away and
I started meditating on those things and it's funny because the word says meditate on
the word day and night but instead I would meditate on those things and throughout the day
I would notice how it would begin to affect my day and as time went on those thoughts
became actions and I began to hurt myself and just different ways that I could think of it was like
this like oppression that I would feel that would come in an instant and I would
just feel overwhelmed and it was like I had to act upon those thoughts and um after that
process of like two or three years I was in high school and I had a well I was sexually abused
by a guy in my school and I didn't know how to process it because all I felt was
just shame and I just hated myself I remember that I would look into the mirror and I would
I would just cry and I would hate the way that i looked and I would blame God for everything that
he allowed to happen to me and that created just a resentment in my heart towards him but
outwardly I was fine and I was coming to church and I was a pastor's kid so everything was great
um but it really wasn't and I was dying on the inside for someone to notice
and it didn't matter how many times I would walk in nobody would and
as time went on things got worse within and on the outside as well I ended up having several
suicide attempts and ended up in psych hospitals and um I wouldn't let go of that resentment
to the lord and it was just one day where I was sitting in the back and I remember we had a guest
preacher and I don't really recall what it was that she was talking about but I remember
that I just began to cry and I made myself up I made my way to the front of the altar and i
just kneeled down she didn't pray for me nothing supernatural happened that I could see anyway
I just remember that it was like I was being disarmed of every argument of every false
um lie that I was believing about myself and about everything and just his love began to
just conquer me um and it was it was awesome but i got up and it was as if nothing had happened
on the outside, anyway and I remember going home wake up waking up the next morning and
everything had changed in my life my life was not the same there was a peace
and a joy that I could not explain to this day with words
I just wanted to hug everyone and the sky was like so much bluer and everything was just
everything was gone that I struggled with and Jesus became real to me amen amen
let's take a moment just to praise god thank him for your freedom because I'm sure it may
not look exactly like this but you have a moment of freedom that came to you too and if you haven't
had one you're gonna have one amen so now tell us you have actually a new desire of your heart can
you tell us about a little bit about that yeah um for a long time, I questioned in my heart the why
why did I have to go through this why did you allow this to happen to me
but I now think the lord that every time that he gives me an opportunity to share
what has happened to me the why gets answered if it means that someone can be encouraged
someone can know wow if he did it in her he can do it in me too yeah amen amen so now
tell us a little bit you don't want this to just stay with you tell us a little bit about just
your desire to share this and how you're going to do that and with who
um so back home I the lord is just bringing young people who are struggling with the same issues
and my desire is that the people around me would not go unnoticed and i encourage those
that are here today and watching on live stream to notice the people around you because everyone has
something that they're dealing with and we have the life of Jesus the power and the love
that disarms it and sets people free and if you would just let yourself be used by him
we could impact the world amen amen come on let's give a round of applause for Jesus thank you
so something that's so her whole testimony is so power-packed but something that I want to point
out to you especially toward the end of that you know there's people in this life that will never
find their freedom they'll stay in their prison and then there's another type of person that
they'll get free from their prison but they'll forget about who was in that prison with them
and then there's the third type of person and this is who Jesus has called us to be it's the type of
person that gets free remembers the people that were in that prison with them and go back for them
we are called to be impactors of this world we are called to be the kingdom carriers and that looks
like love that looks like conquering love amen so I just pray that over each and every one of you
that you will not just stay free but you will go back and get other people free in Jesus name amen