what's up everybody it's Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the
problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is
all about mental health so if you're into improving your mental and emotional
well-being make sure you subscribe and bring that notification bell alright and
for all of you loyal rewired soldiers out there you're like hey background
looks a little bit different yes my beautiful girlfriend Tristan my son and
I we are out of town for the holiday week
alright so switching things out brought my camera so I could still provide you
guys with some content but anyways let me jump into this I don't know how long
this video be so let's see so anyways um this started out I noticed
I was getting an influent influx of Primack audience members
coming over leaving me some hate comments and I was like huh that's weird
so usually that means one of a few things one is a premium add a new video
about me to the algorithm is pushing his video out so a bunch of people are
seeing it or three somebody else made a video about me and yeah just a bunch of
people are starting to come over but anyways it ended up I think it's I think
it's number two maybe the YouTube algorithm is showing him some love
pushing his content out but anyways usually when this happens I'm just like
curious and I I search I'm like did anybody make a new video on the rewired
soul let me see and even though I try not to watch him I just like to see
what's going on and I saw that leafy greens made a video three or four days
ago and I was like oh what is this right but I forgot the exact title but I said
like an update about the rewired soul drama and something about an apology on
my okay I'll check it out us about 30 minutes long I'll link her video down in
the description below if you want to talk about it um the long short of it
she discussed being off her medications being pregnant just a lot of different
factors and like it's it's such a great video and I highly recommend everybody
go check it out I'm actually gonna go check out some of her other recent
content and see it by anyways want to share some of my own personal
experience with this talk a little bit about what's going on between her and I
and the mental health community and the channel and everything like that but
anyways the first thing is first things first like I never ever ever ever hated
leafy greens there's not really anybody I hate at all but anyways I appreciate I
appreciate her video I appreciate her you know her humility being willing and
open to discuss you know what a lot of us are like when we're off our meds and
you know this is one of the reasons you know I never hated her like I've made
videos about this recently where you know when other people are affecting us
you know to remember that we're dealing with sick people right like I'm sick I'm
a very sick person which I'll talk about in a second but but yeah like working in
addiction treatment I worked with thousands of people who were you know
suffering from the same or different sicknesses as me and some people you
know it's a spiritual sickness whatever it is right so I do my best to try to
empathize and understand that but obviously you know leafy greens has been
very open and she has a channel about her own mental health journey and
everything like that so like I'm like oh where I'm like okay this isn't this
doesn't mean she's a bad person right she has stuff going on like me Mike and
watching her video it just reminds me of my my own issues right so something
that's tricky for all of us in this mental health community mental health
with Chandra here on YouTube is not just even YouTube's mental health bloggers
writers everything like that there's so many of us who are not licensed
professionals talking about this and how does pros and cons right like one of the
reasons I was good at my job at the rehab center was because I've been
through it right not only have I had my own struggles with mental health issues
and trauma and my addiction all that stuff but it gave me the ability to
connect with people you know in the treatment
center and now you guys my audience on that level of like listen I've been
there and I get it right so that's one of the benefits but one of the drawbacks
is we're not you know licensed professionals and that's something I'm
currently pursuing and everything you know like I'm almost done with my
certified alcohol and drug counselor training my overall goal is to get a PhD
in psychology but that's not the whole financial issue with uh y'all know how
expensive college is Bay anyways so all of us who are mental health channels
like we get into this conundrum right because we're showing from our own
personal experience we show about a lot of stuff that we go through and we're
not all the way well and like first off when it comes to medications some of you
have seen my videos you know I've made videos about being all my medication
getting off my medication the process I go through with talking to my doctors
and everything like that and I'm currently back on my medications I have
been for a few months now but yeah when I'm off my medications I can act like a
crazy person right like whenever I'm working with my doctor to wean off my
medications one of the first things I do is I tell Tristan my girlfriend I say
hey if I start acting different let me know all right because leafy
greens did a great job talking about this in her video too like we're
struggling with a problem up here so like when we're acting up
it's hard for us to be self-aware about it right because our mind is convincing
us that everything is justified so you know leafy greens being back on her meds
and even she talks about missing her meds the other day
it gave her some without awareness why and we're able to sit back and be like
whoa so I you know I was on my medications the whole time but like for
me it's a combination of different things like yes I can act really
different when I'm off my medications oh I'm not really gonna be editing much so
sorry about that that's siren but even though I wasn't
off my medications that whole time like like leafy greens like any other mental
health channel out there like I'm just another guy like I'm another guy going
through my own struggles I have you know some more experience in my recovery than
some people are just working in a treatment center I'm a big nerd when it
comes to mental health and psychology and philosophy and all these other
things and I try to you know discuss the things I've learned on this channel and
I try to learn from others I'll touch a touch on that again in a second too
anyways like one of the one of my biggest issues is my ego like in in
recovery and a lot of 12-step programs some of you who are familiar with
12-step programs you know this like they talked about how when you're you're in
the meeting outside you know your addiction is out there doing push-ups
right so we always got to be where whenever I hear that what I think of as
my own ego my ego is my number one enemy my ego will lead me to a relapse my ego
will lead me to being crazy on my own mental health Channel all these things
like my ego is my biggest problem and it's something that I'm constantly
working on so I made that video a few weeks ago about like how I wasted the
last six months of my life and a lot of it was just purely ego driven right like
when when I'm getting attacked I get really defensive and I I I get
obsessive right and that's where I was the last six months and like when I talk
about obsessive like I'm not talking about just ruminating thoughts I'm
talking like I wanted to understand I started
reading books on like crowd psychology mob mentality all sorts of like I wanted
to understand why this happened what we could do to fix all these other things
like that's how obsessive I get but I had this clarity and it wasn't from you
know getting back on medications cuz I was taking those it was this kind of
spiritual clarity like for me rather than getting off my medications I've
discussed this many times before it's getting off of my my mental health
journey track where I do all the things I'm supposed to do being the person I
want to be acting the way I want to act or you know need to act you know not
only for myself but to be an example for others and I completely botched that for
six months and I've apologized to you guys the audience for a while so I can
definitely relate to leafy greens and what she went through and I absolutely
1,000% empathize with that so towards the end of her videos she she apologizes
to me and leafy greens if you watch this I left a comment on your video like
reach out I'd love to talk in private but yeah like I apologize as well like
the stuff that went on between her and I turned into this massive thing and like
it was completely the opposite of why any of us do this like I didn't hop on
YouTube and make a mental health channel to have all this drama and divide this
mental health community you know what I mean but anyways in leafy greens video
she she discusses how she's still stands by you know some things she said in her
original videos about me and everything like that she doesn't believe in it
epically and all that stuff and that's totally fine and like the way she said
it too I can see this this change and growth in her that I'm I'm trying to
pursue myself where it's kind of this awareness of we're not always gonna
agree on things right so like for example right now I'm reading this
excellent book it's called saving normal and it's written by the author not the
author but he headed the team that created dsm-4 right and I'm
learning a lot about that divides within even the psychiatric community and
everything like that right and what I try to think about is our overall goal
is to help people right and we all have we don't all have but a lot of us have
different ways that we're going about it so like leafy greens and I or me and you
know other people we might not agree on the methods right so when I got into my
obsessive kind of trying to learn about everything and some of you know this
like I really don't know else I ecology and moral philosophy I wanted to learn
more about ethics and everything like that and I wanted to understand it now
my motives with it if I'm just being completely honest there's a pretty
honest video I wanted to learn more about it so I could prove people wrong
right I wanted to make videos talking about the subjectivity you know because
a lot of times when morality and ethics are brought up a lot of it is presented
as black and white a lot of it is gray you know what I mean and instead I'm
just taking that in as my own personal knowledge
I'll make content when I find it relevant to mental health but I'll you
know I just realized that other people are gonna have different views different
opinions and this thing isn't as black and white and I think you know the best
thing all of us can do is just sit down and have conversations about it you know
and try to see both sides like this is something that I'm really really trying
to do and I'm trying to figure out the best way to go about it because I I
wouldn't be sitting here alive today if I wasn't open to criticism or
suggestions like that's the only reason I'm alive today because I had to do that
in my early sobriety so I have some things that I'm working on and just oh
let you guys know about them soon but yeah I'm pretty much gonna put myself
through the wringer and find a bunch of people who tell me things that I might
not necessarily like to hear but you know I want to have conversations and
just figure out how I can you know make videos the best way I can how to write
you know my mental health blogs the best way I can and you know be empathetic and
try to see all sides of the situation and everything
like that so if leafy greens and I talk you know maybe we'll discuss you know
these things but you know just real quick like one of the ways that I've
learned I mentioned this in a video the other day but one of the best ways that
I've learned is learning from others both mistakes and successes right like
when I was in 12-step programs I learned from people's mistakes like their
relapses as well as other people's successes like their years of sobriety
or months of sobriety whatever it is I learn from others right I'm like how can
I learn from this so one of the reasons I started to kind
of switch my channel was like hey here's an example of some contacts maybe you
relate to this youtuber let's see what we can learn from them right and you
know I never tried to be malicious or hurt anybody you know in my content
sometimes you know that does happen though and I try to minimize that
happening unless I'm just completely off my rocker which I have been and I've
mentioned this before too and I talked about in my book I've reached out to any
youtuber who has been hurt or offended by anything I've ever done or said you
know to try to have a conversation but yeah that's never my intention
alright but anyways my guys said like leafy greens and I might disagree on
certain ways that we tackle mental health subjects a great example is you
know the the controversial diagnosis of borderline personality disorder
I love educating myself about that as seeing all the different angles the
sides of it and everything you know and this is something that she's made some
great videos about you know and that's one of the ways I ate myself more as by
hearing other people who have been diagnosed and you know choose to not
accept it or choose to get another opinion and everything like that I also
read a lot of books on it everything but at the end of the day we're all just
trying to get on here I think our main goal is to educate people and to help
people write to educate people help them understand what these mental health
issues are like you know what's going on in the world how did and
the other thing is to help to help write how to deal with it how to cope with it
how to deal with a loved one who has mental health issues all these other
things so those are our two goals at least those are my two goals right and
I'm really trying to focus on those two things because the last six months a lot
of it was very self selfish self-centered egotistical gearing my
channel towards different things I go and you know screw cancel culture and
all that stuff like that's not what my channel is about my channel is about
helping all of you guys and I am trying to just connect dots and say what's the
best way to teach people these days how do I combine education and entertainment
because those are my favorite types of teachers right people who could teach me
by taking situations that I could relate to people who can teach me things by you
know being a little entertaining and slipping in some humor and you know all
that kind of stuff and we all have different teaching styles we all have
different ways that we learn and everything like that like some people
like for example dr. Todd grande a very smart well-educated man you know
obviously you know not only is he more educated than me but him and I have very
different styles then you have somebody like Kati Morton right she has her own
specific style right she's very bubbly and everything like that that's her
style and there's a whole bunch of different people out there who are going
to watch the content that resonates with them but I do you know I do hope that we
can all you know just come together and try to help people as much as possible
anyways again I appreciate leafy greens video and seeing and hearing about an
awesome journey and leafy greens if you're watching this
congratulations on your beautiful beautiful little baby and yeah hopefully
we could talk in in private sometime but anyways everybody yeah stay tuned even
though I'm out of town I will be obviously making some content and
everything but yeah also follow me on Instagram and Twitter
stay tuned I've been posting to my Instagram stories and tweeting and all
that other stuff you want stay in touch and you guys are always more than
welcome to DM me if you have criticisms or you want to chat about something
I've been answering a lot of my DMS lately I just talked to a a social
worker student the other day we had a good conversation on Instagram and all
that stuff so feel free to DM me anytime all right anyways I talked way way way
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