what's up everybody since you follow me over on Instagram and Twitter you know
that I got me some Shane Dawson x jeffree star conspiracy palette and you know what I'm gonna do
I'm gonna give one away right now what am i doing what are you doing
okay okay enough of that what do you what do you mean what am i doing don't
just give it away you got to tell them to like or subscribe or something like
that oh yeah yeah you're right okay okay so like and subscribe what else I don't
know man built the suspense or something
I just I just can't stop thinking about the problem you're right focus on the
solution focus on the solution okay so how about this doing how about this how
about we have them watch a little bit of the vlog from when I went to the most
shame thing and then we come back that would give me some time to figure this
out what do you think all right roll the intro
what's up everybody good morning so yeah it's 6:00 a.m. and I decided to
get up super early and head down to here in Las Vegas
the miracle mile shop with a Morpheus story is cuz I got this this idea I'm
like you know what I'm gonna get my beautiful girlfriend Trista and she's
she's in there right now just still sleeping her beautiful self away I was
like I'm gonna go get in line and get her this Shane Dawson and jeffree star palette and I was
like you know what I'm gonna do a giveaway too right but what am I going
so early so I don't know we're gonna see what the experience is like because I
was talking to a friend who used to work at the shops down there and yes I know I
looked beautiful but she was telling me that people like would start lining up
down there I like midnight for like certain
releases like New Jordans and things like that because we're like we're in
Las Vegas so this is this place is 24/7 - so you just go wherever wait in line
wherever and yeah so so yeah so I'm like okay you know I'll do this and maybe
I'll vlog the experience so there might be a million people there I might be the
only one but I don't know I'll keep you posted wish me luck as you can see I'm
looking beautiful I would do a quick update because I need my car heater to
warm up because it's 45 degrees here in Las Vegas like a lot of people like here
Las Vegas and you think desert hot and don't get me wrong
it gets hot as a mug right but it also gets cold as hell so yeah and by the way
so I tweeted something out the other day about like I don't think enough people
give credit to Shane Dawson and Andrew especially as a creator as a creator who
does like very minimal editing like those two
like when you watch their series and you realize that it's just two dudes like
that is mind-blowing like what they do and the production
quality and everything like I I just like the other day like I would love
just like a series of just like Andrew and Shane just showing us how they go
through their process because they have so many clips and so much footage and
everything like that and the way they intertwine it especially from different
times and everything like I do they storyboard it like I don't even know I
had my morning coffee and I decided to watch a little bit of YouTube before I
went in and yeah I just watched an awesome mental health video from a
channel called supreme banana I don't know if any of you know of her anyways I
was introduced to her earlier this year in like January because some people were
asking me about you know watching and reviewing her series on going and doing
ayahuasca for her anxiety and I have opinions about like ayahuasca and like
ibogaine and stuff like that some people in addiction recovery have tried that
and I have some opinions about it by anyways I never ended up making those
videos but I saw supreme banana pop up today because she has a posting in a
while and she did like a mental health update so as I'm sipping on my coffee I
decided to watch it and yeah she opened up about how you know just some things
going on in her life and how depression has hit her again and I could definitely
relate to what she was talking about like when things are going really well
for you and then you get depressed like it's it's weird man it is so weird
and like things have been going really well for me and I've been meaning to do
like an update because there's like some stuff going on behind the scenes that
are amazing that I haven't told any of you about it because I wanted to kind of
like chill and just see where it went but I might do that soon but anyways
like yeah I was talking to my therapist the other day because depression hit me
the real funky way but anyways supreme banana she also talks about like
depersonalization and learning these coping skills and one of
my favorite takeaways from her video was just realizing that life in your mental
state is not this kind of linear path and I think that's a point for all of us
to remember because sometimes like I get in my head and they call it shooting all
over yourself like I'm like I should be here in my mental health journey I
should be able to feel this way when I want to I shouldn't ever be depressed or
anxious or whatever and like life circumstances happen things change and
whatever and the most we can do is turn to our coping skills turn to our
resources like our therapists or support group told step meetings whatever the
hell it is and try to get back on track but life wouldn't be life if there
weren't ups and downs you know what I mean but anyways my car heater is
finally going so uh I'll see you guys at the miracle mile shop oh right everybody
I just got to Planet Hollywood Miracle Mile shot how beautiful is Las Vegas in
the morning and that there's so many hungover and crazy people from last
night on Halloween like Vegas Halloween gets crazy but yeah I haven't been down
here to the strip and forever like my anxiety is pretty under control these
days but something that still gives me really just like crazy is like big
crowds and like congested areas and that is what the Las Vegas Strip is so
anyways I'm about to head in I'm thinking there's either no line or a
gigantic line I have two hours until morphe opens up anyways I was driving
over and I told you guys I'm like you know what I'm gonna try to get more
vulnerable on my channel and talk a little bit more and my goal is that I
hope I hope it helps all of you open up like if I can do this on YouTube and
have people come in and talk trash or whatever like open up talk to somebody
you know anyways whenever I go to something like this
like I went to VidCon I went to
vid summit this is different it's not a YouTube event but a lot of people who
watch YouTube were gonna be there and I get nervous all right and let me just
walk you through my process of my crazy brain so like a lot of people a lot of
people who are here like they might have found my channel from when I was
covering Shane Dawson's stuff or I still do you know what I mean and I get
nervous all right because what if I run into people who absolutely hate me and
they come up to my face and tell me they hate me so I gotta like psychologically
prepare for that right and then and then what I tell myself is Chris you're not
that important nobody knows who the hell you are you're a small youtuber right
and then and then the next voice comes in it's like wait but it's not like
talking down to yourself Chris you know what I mean so it's just weird like kind
of balancing act but anyways I'm hoping if anybody does notice me that they're
nice and they say hi and maybe we'll get some pictures to put up on the gram you
know what I'm saying but anyways again I live in an amazing amazing City Las
Vegas so yeah I'm gonna head in there now wish me luck
as I'm walking through the Miracle Mile shops at Planet Hollywood I have no clue
where I'm going but I just start walking I'm like you know what Chris just look
for the line look for the line of people who are trying to get themselves a
pallet and I come around the corner and I start seeing people lined up I'm like
oh no cuz I got there like two hours early
alright but I get there and it wasn't too long of a line I was pleasantly
surprised so I jumped in the line and I thought I was like maybe like number 20
in line but that wasn't case you'll find out more about that later anyways I was
like oh man you know cuz I was I was like hoping that there'd be an insane
amount of people it was one of those weird things where I wanted there to be
like an insane amount of people just for like the pure spectacle of it but I also
didn't want an insane amount of people because I don't want to wait in line
forever and I felt like I was showing up like insanely late by getting in line at
8 o'clock I was like oh you know what is Vegas I guess not that many people are
gonna show up anyways it was cool standing in line like it was so just
awesome just seeing a bunch of Shane Dawson fans like talking about like his
video some people were like watching his videos in the line and everything I was
just like chilling and then look at this baby
look at this baby rocking Shane Dawson merch how adorable is that well as time
went on the line started getting bigger and bigger and bigger and then all of a
sudden like I kind of realize like yo they were not ready for this so they
started to move us a little bit and they like moved us around to this like weird
side like whether it was like a pulley like a 50-foot gap and I was like I
better not lose my place in line cuz if you have those little like the fighter
things like you know like at the bank or like at the movies when you're waiting
in line didn't have those so I was like worried we're gonna lose our spots but
like me and the people in front of me were like nah we ain't losing our spots
so we were good so one of my biggest concerns going into this was I announced
that I was doing a giveaway right I'm gonna try to get more to do a
giveaway and I'm like sitting there like oh my god like am I gonna be able to get
any extras so all of a sudden I heard this screaming like I heard a bunch of
people in line screaming not like panic scream but it's like yay
right I was like oh snap did like Shane Dawson so this kid showed up I don't
know if I have any footage of him there's this kid in makeup I'm like it's
James Charles here but it was just like a little morphe employee and he did his
makeup very well but anyways they were like filming for their own social media
and like getting everybody in line hyped but they came over and they let us know
that you can get two of each product alright so I'm like okay cool thank God
cause if I could only get one sorry that only one was going to my baby girl
Tristan alright so I was pretty stoked I found out I can get more than one so
like I said earlier I thought it was only like maybe 20 people in front of me
and I actually tweeted out I was like oh this is crazy there's like over a
hundred people here because as it got closer the line kept getting bigger and
just kind of eyeballing it and maybe this because I don't go outside that
much it's like there's like a hundred people here you know what I mean but
anyways I see the little mini James Charles coming through and like counting
off people right and he gets to me and he counts number 47 and then it's like
48 49 50 and he tells the security people like alright we're letting 50
people in at the time these are the first 50 people
saul's I do that's pretty sweet I mean the first batch of folks to go in here
and by the way I forgot to mention but here's some footage like how beautiful
was this setup like I'm not a dude he usually ghost-like makeup stores but it
was like nuts it was so not seeing you know what Shane and Jeffrey were like
working on and then seeing all these big screens and everything inside the morphe
store but anyways so once I found out I was 47 and the people right behind me
were 50 then I started scanning the line even more I'm like my counting was way
off I'm like there's gotta be at least three four hundred people here right
because the lines started getting even bigger
and stretching down the mall um but anyways finally doors open and we got to
go when I got in that that first bunch and I really I really wanted to get
Tristan the black pig mirror I forget to tell her when I got home that I couldn't
get it anyways you guys are gonna learn about it right now so like everybody
went in there and they had like you know the little bags and everything like that
and then they had the mirrors right and I saw a bunch of people grab mirrors and
then all the mirrors were gone and then this lady this employee who worked there
she comes up and she sets down a mirror and nobody was around I'm like so good
and I got I'm like I got my girl a mirror right but then I noticed on it
that a set tester and I'm like oh a wonderful let me buy this and then when
I finally got up to the counter they didn't let me buy it
so anyways guess we'll have to do that on the restart
but anyways like it was it was crazy like something I love like something
that's awesome about 2019 or just the time we're living in like when people
like cool the Internet's bad for you and everything like that like I remember
growing up and feeling so alone around like you know the things I was into or
you know whatever it was like when I was growing up and I was like a gamer and a
computer never like it wasn't cool yet right like ninja wasn't out here making
millions you know but it was hard to find people who were into that same
thing so like I'm 34 years old now and whenever I see something that everybody
can get behind and is into whether it's makeup or whatever it is I'm like that
is awesome right and it's so cool just like seeing all the young women and man
like and it's David just young right there were people of all ages up in that
line but it's so cool seeing everybody get together so by the way quick mental
health tip like find people who are into the same stuff that you are because a
lot of us are socially awkward it's hard to start conversations but if you find
somebody who's into the same thing that you are such as makeup right start
having that conversation or you notice like I know people in mind obviously
everybody in in the line was like Shane Dawson fan or jeffree star fan or
both or whatever like it was easy for people to just start talking and having
conversations right but I want you to kind of think about that because social
connections are the best way to improve your mental all right so first piece of
good news is nobody came up to me and tried to punch me in the face and that's
always good anyways yeah I don't know I don't know if anybody recognized me
nobody came up to me so that's good bad I don't know so I I do think it's
important to realize sometimes especially for those of us who have
social anxiety we are not nearly as important as we
think we are anyways the better news is guess what's in yeah yeah yeah it was
crazy I was in line I had to drop elbows and all these little girls trying to get
their their palates I'm just kidding alright alright thank you for watching
my vlog of my experience first time going to a makeup launch and I was so
glad that was ashamed awesome but you're all waiting like yo Chris when you're
gonna give away some pallets alright so check this out what do you got to do to
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