- I was leaving a bar, and I was backing up,
and I backed into a police officer.
And politely asked him to move so I can make it
to the liquor store in time.
- Ah!
(orchestral music)
- [Interviewer] Hello there.
- Hello. - Hello.
- Who are you?
- My name is Genevieve.
- I'm Sharnay.
- I'm Deonte.
- I'm Jaime.
- [Interviewer] First of all, you're both sober people.
Is that correct?
- Yes. - Yes. I'm in recovery.
- Recovery as well.
- Staying clean, staying dry.
Is it a only alcohol thing or...
- [Interviewer] We'll find out.
- I guess we'll see. - All right.
- [Interviewer] We are doing Truth or Drink sober,
which means that...
- No drinking.
- [Interviewer] Nothing left to do here but tell the truth.
- There it is.
- [Interviewer] Okay. Who wants to go first?
- I can go first. - All yours.
- Okay, number one.
How many times did you try sobriety before it clicked?
(breathes deeply)
- Too many.
- Yeah.
- I actually only did it once. Never went back.
I had 10 years, two days ago.
- Wow. Good for you. - Yeah.
- That's crazy.
- I would stop doing harder drugs,
and then I would just drink, right?
So it'd be like, oh, I'm sober, but...
"I'm completely sober, y'all, I'm not doing the meth."
- Well, I've never tried getting sober before.
So I'm coming up on three years,
which is absolutely insane to me.
- I am sober today, one month and four days.
- Hey, congratulations.
- Thank you.
- Yes. I just celebrated a year about a week ago.
- Hell yeah.
I love to hear it. Cheers to that.
- Yeah, thank you.
- 134 days.
- That's amazing.
- What about you? How long have you been sober?
- A year and, like, eight months or something like that.
- Okay. Yeah. (both laugh)
- Thank you.
And it's funny 'cause my choice of drug was also meth.
- Oh, meth in the house!
- Okay. What is the root of your addiction?
Mm.
- I would say that I grew up with it.
- Mm-hmm.
- I grew up with my mom drinking, my dad drinking, all six
of my mom's ex-husbands drinking.
- Mm-hmm.
- I've always said genetics, right?
But to be honest, there's childhood trauma, just trying
to fill voids.
- Mental health.
I was depressed most of my life,
and apparently, I was self-medicating.
I didn't know that.
- Everything just fucking fell apart.
- Mm-hmm.
- And so I was like, drugs, drugs will help. And they did!
And they did help for a long time, which is a shitty thing
to say.
(breathes deeply)
- What was your rock bottom?
- Mm.
- I need a drink.
- Right. (both chuckle)
- Probably the day that I went into rehab was my rock bottom
because my husband called and he's like,
"I'm gonna divorce you if you don't go to rehab."
I was like, "Oh yeah, for sure,"
while I'm, like, doing cocaine on my center console.
Like, crying, 'cause he's gonna divorce me,
but I have to- - You can't stop.
- Yeah. Couldn't stop. - Yeah.
- I pulled over to the side of the road.
I remember just seeing things.
I remember getting out my car and walking
for an hour back and forth.
And that next day I said, "Oh, bitch, you gotta go
into treatment."
- My daughter, she kept trying to tell me that I was 26.
And I was like, "No, baby, Mommy's 27."
And I kept arguing with her, and I'm like,
"What the hell are you doing?"
Just the way that I was talking to her.
I wouldn't want to be talked to like that.
And I don't ever talk to my daughter like...
(sniffles)
I don't ever talk sideways to my daughter.
Like, if I didn't wanna be spoken
to like that, I would never talk to her like that.
- Well, I mean, like, the good part, like you said,
she's pretty young, so she won't remember that.
You know what I mean? - Yeah.
- And it's cool that you're getting sober for her.
Well, you're a good mom for doing that.
- Thank you. - For sure.
- Are you into AA? Why or why not?
- My first, like. five years, I definitely went
to AA every day.
- Yeah.
- Then now I go on my yearly birthday.
- You know, it's no different from dating.
Like, as you're going through this process
of recovery, finding your people is gonna be hard.
- Yeah, same.
I think I found my tribe in CMA,
and that's the program that I work in.
- [Interviewer] Can you tell me what that is?
- Crystal Meth Anonymous.
- They got a Crystal Meth Anonymous?!
- Uh-huh. Yeah.
- Ain't nobody told me nothing!
(both laugh)
- What are your fears about being sober?
- You know, I think in the beginning, I was worried.
- Early sobriety, I really thought that, like,
"I'm gonna give up all my fun."
- Before I met my partner, my biggest fear was being able
to find somebody who would understand my sobriety.
- I don't have any fears now, 'cause there's nothing
that I can't do sober.
- I just sit in gratitude, 'cause I have to.
I have to sit in the gratitude
and what my life looks like today than when I was shooting
up meth.
- Yeah. - You know what I mean?
- Oh, you were shooting it, too?
- I did it every way. - Okay.
(breathes deeply)
- Have you ever driven while under the influence?
- Ooh. Yeah.
- Yes.
- [Interviewer] How does that feel
to, like, say that out loud?
- It is triggering for me.
- I was leaving a bar, and I was backing up,
and I backed into a police officer.
- Nice. (laughs)
- And politely asked him to move so I can make it
to the liquor store in time.
- Ah!
- You're not only putting yourself, like, in this situation.
It's like, you are taking a big chance
and, like, putting other people's lives at risk, you know?
Not just you.
Like, it could be, like anybody, you know?
I've done it multiple times. I'm not even gonna lie.
Like, I've done it. I've done it a lot.
- I've done it too many times.
- Yeah. It happens.
And you try to make, like, light of it.
- Because everybody does it, right?
- Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah.
But it's not, it's not-
- No, that shit is not cool. - You have no...
Anything could happen, like, anything.
- I've wrecked too many cars. - Yeah.
- Oh my God. Next question, please?
Oof. Sheesh. - Right, yeah yeah. For sure.
- Do you smoke weed? What do you think of California sober?
- What is California sober?
- California sober is, like, people that smoke weed
but don't drink.
- I'm literally like, sober-sober.
- Yeah.
- Okay. I'm gonna-
I tend to judge folks that, like, say, like,
"Oh, yeah, like, I'm sober, but I still smoke weed.
I'm sober, but I still drink or do..."
It's not for me. It's not my journey.
- I'm all for it. Shoot. - Yeah.
Yeah, I'm not gonna lie, I smoke weed.
- I just want to clarify that I believe in harm reduction,
and if you need to pick up a joint
to get off the heroin or whatever, I support it 110%.
- What is your vice now?
- Rockstar. Good old Rockstar.
- Boys. K-pop, music, my cats.
- Weed. Smoking weed.
- I would say the same thing. - Yeah.
- So I was big on the vape.
I was hard on that.
It was bad.
My husband was like, "You look like an addict."
(both laughing)
And I was like, (gibberish)
- Best part of sobriety?
- Knowing my kids will have great memories of their mom,
because they're still young enough
to where those memories will, you know, start fading out.
- Yeah.
- Great thing in sobriety.
I mean, my family trust me today.
- Sobriety allows me to understand that life also feels good
without substances, right?
- Yeah. But I think the best part
about sobriety is showing up as my whole self.
- [Interviewer] How was that for you?
Sitting down with someone you don't know.
- It was great. I loved it.
- To talk to a girl is kind of nice.
To know that I'm not the only fucked up one.
- Yeah. Oh, for sure. (both laugh)
- Well, and I just want to say
that the most important part of fucking recovery is laughing
and enjoying yourself and not taking life so seriously.
So I super fucking appreciate-
- I appreciate you, too.
- Yeah, because that's really it.
The key is to life is laughing.
- But if you can drink like a normal person, fuck you.
(both laughing) How about that?
How about that?
You fucking assholes.