What is your favorite memory of us and why is it important to you?
We were going out for like 5 months
and...
you just made the softball team, JV
and...
you came home and you were, you told me how terrified you were to slide.
[Laughing]
And I remember it was raining as it always does in Portland, Oregon.
And...
I told you to get on your
shittiest clothes that you could find and I got mine on and
We walked up to the middle school and
We slid
We went on to the baseball diamond and you slid to the first base
And I watched you slide to the first base and than I followed you
I remember that day because ...
I saw you conquer your fears
You were not scared anymore
What would make you...
leave me ?
Um...
If you, um...
brought drugs around Charlotte and
put her in an environment that you used to put yourself in
Or put her in any kind of danger
Because...
I can...
I can handle stuff but I would never want to put her through anything
You know I am not going to
I know
Just let it be known
[Laughing]
You put the fear of God in me
Yeah
[Laughing]
Are you worried our child may battle with addictions like we did?
Fuck yeah
[Laughing]
Hell yeah, It's...
As they say, addiction is genetic
You know, it just passed down
I deal with it every day
Yeah
And
I know you deal with some stuff every day
Not as much as me but
But I ...
Cause yours is more recent
T: Mine yeah, mine is more recent S: I did mine years ago
Um so it's just
[Breathing]
Yesterday was a bad day for me. I had a really really bad day
And
I came home and I ...
All I really wanted was just to come home and see you two
You know, my family is never really been around
Um...
Your parents took me in
when I was fifteen
And ...
Just knowing that you are there
Coming home and see that
really
It keeps me from not loosing it
I think it's your turn
[Laughing]
Well this is a silly question
Am I the best sex you've ever had ?
Well yes you are
[Laughing]
I am the only sex you've ever had
[Laughing]
And the best sex I've ever had
[Laughing]
I guess this is one pros to not have anything to compare it to, right ?
Yeah
You know what I like
[Laughing]
I know what you like
oh, grose
What do you think is the most important lesson at this stage in life ?
Right now...
My most important lesson has been Charlotte
Um...
I want to take care of her
I want to be the father figure that I never had
So...
It's interesting to see how I have been reacting towards her
And...
How I treat her
Cause I'm always scared one day that
I'm scared one day I'm not going to be there
And I don't know why
I know I am but I have this fear that like lingers like into my ... my stomach
I feel like I won't be there
And I am scared to see that because
Cause I don't want to miss anything
I know how much it's affected me not having my
my dad around or
Sometimes not even my mom around
Yeah
And I
I want to provide something that I never had
It terrifies me
When did you feel the closest to me ?
When we were going through the whole labor experience and delivering Charlotte and
I thought I ...
loved you before and than
When she was born
This whole other love for you I did not know I had
[Crying]
Like watching you hold her for the first time
[Crying]
That whole experience was the best experience
That's definitely changed our lives
[Laughing]
Yeah