Hey what is good everyone, it's me Motoki.
Real quick, my voice probably sounds a little weird, that's because I'm a bit sick, sick
of these bitches, ugheahfasf
nah but for real I'm really sick, so sorry about this.
Anyways, you guys probably know that I've been single for ah. . quite some time now.
I mean it's been like a year since my last girlfriend so not that bad.
And since my last relationship, I've gone on only, one date?
yeah.. one date
To be honest I haven't felt like I've wanted to date any girls since then.
But hold up hold up, because I know what some of you fuckers are thinking
"ahh you don't have a girlfriend cause you like boys, cause you're fucking gay dude"
Okay, first off, ah go fuck yourself.
Secondly, who cares what sexuality I am.
I hate when people try to put you down for not putting yourself out there.
Why can't I just not date anyone and that be okay for everyone you know?
Like whenever I see my extended family, they always ask if I'm dating someone.
"Ahyeah Motoki, you got yourself a girlfriend yet?"
Uhm no actually, I haven't.
"Oh that's okay, how's school?"
It's good, yeah.
"Are there any cute girls in your classes?"
It gets pretty repetitive after awhile.
I was in an Uber last week, and the guy would not stop talking about how I need to go out and date.
Hey how’s it going?
"Hey hey, let me just get the directions here for you" Mhm yeah yeah "So you in college?"
hm, oh yeah just right there.
"Oh, those were the days, I bet you get a lot of girls huh?”
No not really.
“No? you don’t get a little...?"
I’m sorry what?
“Oh are you gay, that’s okay, gay is okay”
Can we fucking go now?
If I’m being real with you guys, relationships and dating in general are just scary to think
about for me.
And maybe some of that has to do with the fact that my last relationship didn't go too well.
Cause my last girlfriend was...
Listen, I’m a nice guy alright, I’m not going to be that person that
talks about their ex, and how awful they were or whatever, but my ex girlfriend was
fucking awful.
No but I've been doing my own thing since then, and I've been happier.
It's not like I avoid girls or anything.
Women are great it's just I don't feel like I wanna get serious with anyone.
I'm young I don't want to feel tied down, why settle for just one girlfriend, when you can have like
5 you know what I mean?
No but for real I think that it's just not really my thing right now.
Don't get me wrong, I'm not completely against it.
I try to keep my options open.
I definitely have to think about it whenever there are times that girls flirt with me.
it doesn’t happen very often, but it happens, I promise.
For example, I might be at a party or something and a girl will be flirting with me from across
the room, and at first, I’m super down for it right I flirt back like ay baby what's
good? But each time I stop myself real quick because I am a very self conscious person.
Every single fucking time, my mind tries to convince me of all the reasons as to why I
shouldn't talk to the girl.
I start thinking, was she was even looking at me, is my hair is messed up, does my breath
smell, do my pants make it look like I have a boner when I actually don’t?
Guys, I know you know what I’m talking about, don't even act like you don't do that shit.
It's a rough time for me, I worry about a lot of things and I’m just a nervous wreck.
I know that to you guys, I seem confident, but that’s because I’m able to edit out
all the parts I fuck up.
But let's go back and say that I were to go up to this a girl at the party..
So I walk over to talk to her, but that's the problem.
I’m awkward as hell.
I never know what to say.
So ah, the weather am I right?
So as you can see, meeting potential girlfriends in real life does not go so well for me.
And yes, I've used tinder before, but that shits scary because those people could be
90 year olds or murderers, they could be fucking 90 year old murderers I don't know,
I'm not really down for that.
No matter what, even if I were to somehow meet a great girl and hit it off, I would
still be worried as fuck because the next thing I know l could be married with a kid
and I’m way too young for that shit guys.
I'm 19 right now, I'm just living life, doing me you know.
A lot of people think that you need someone else to make life better and give it more
meaning.
And I think that's sad as fuck.
Yes, relationships are great, you know you get to have sex all the time and...
like other stuff.
But right now, I'm chilling.
Maybe one day I'll stop being a pussy and go on some dates, or maybe I won't.
But, that's all I have to say about that, I hope you enjoyed watching.
If you did, please give this video a big ol' thumbs up to boost my ego.
And tell me in the comments what you guys think about relationships and dating.
But anyways, don't forget to subscribe if you're not already, but otherwise, I'll catch
you guys next, Motoki Monday.
Is your name Daniel, because Daammn
Hey, you're almost as hot as my mom.