what I first think I become aware of as soon as I'm awake in the morning is okay my identity
in my issues problems my agenda for the day the identity is there immediately so it's like that
gap between the question of are you aware and the answer seems like that moment of realizing that
you're awake in the morning before the identity catches up and takes over can you offer some
something maybe to do with that moment to try to stretch it a little and yeah yeah that seems like
an opportune moment every day to practice yes you see every time you say to yourself am i aware the
mind goes silent because in order to go to the place of being aware we go out of the mind we go
to the experience of being aware so the question am i aware we may think about it a bit the mind
make around the subject for a little bit but at some stage in order to find the answer to
that question the mind must come to an end and it's in that ending of the mind that there is
this non objective realization yes I am aware and the yes is the mind then rises again and
formulates the answer so the mind formulates the question it thinks about it it goes quiet
then there is the experience of being aware and then the mind rises again to formulate the answer
yes so in that timeless timeless because the mind is not present in that timeless pause in between
the question on the answer there is the living experience of being aware and that is that is
like falling asleep while remaining awake it's like going into deep sleep in the waking State
and you can do that anytime you can just you can be walking down the street the circumstances
don't require your mind to be focused on an object or a situation and your mind can just
pose the question am i aware and then the mind goes on this little journey certain point the
mind has to come to an end in order to answer that question in that timeless moment we drop
out of time and space we visit eternity in that moment we drop out of the mind in the body we go
to the same place we go to in deep sleep and you can we can go there anytime we want it's totally
available it's available 24/7 to everybody so just get in the habit of punctuated in your
day whenever there is own a moment of when your attention is available that is when circumstances
don't require your attention to be focused on an object or a situation just get in the habit
of pausing and asking yourself the question am i aware allowing that question to take you to
the experience of being aware the experience of being aware of being aware and stay then rest
there until the phone goes or then your possible through the door or whatever it is and then you
have to start paying attention again so but you can do this just make a habit of doing this when
you fall asleep at night as you're lying there in bed just ask yourself the question am i aware
this time it's not necessary for the mind to formulate the answer you just go to the
experience of being aware when I say go to you understand what I mean you you be the knowing
of being aware and just stay there for the sleep like that so it seems like in asking
that question you evoke a process that takes you there it starts as a process the process
is only in the mind right but so the mind when we ask the question am i aware the mind and I
think this is probably not the case for most of us here but a lot of people who are not so
familiar with this terminology if you ask them are you aware they would start thinking about
it to begin with they might have to go round the subject matter for a while with their thoughts
but sooner or later if they were clear about the question am i aware their thoughts would have to
arrive at the doorway with I am aware written above it the mind would have to go through that
doorway to find out am i aware and as it goes through that doorway it ceases to be mind it's
like the butter from the moth that longs for the flame the moment it touches the flame for which
it longs it ceases to be a moth it becomes the flame that is the moths way of knowing the flame
by becoming it so the mind that wants to know am i aware circles around the house it comes to the
door with I am aware written as it goes through the door it ceases to be mind and becomes or
rather is realized to be pure awareness now but for those of us here for most if not all
of us here when we ask the question am i aware I don't think any of us have to go on a very long
journey because we're familiar with this we've all been asking ourselves these kind of questions for
for some time so we asked ourselves the question am i aware we don't go to the sensation of the
soles of our feet and deduce from that that I am aware we don't go to our thoughts we go to the
experience of being aware it's so accessible it's the most accessible experience there is and it's
just it's just there what wide open the doorway the door is wide open 24/7 to just just become
accustomed to going through the doorway and use as an aide this question am i aware which is a
which is a kind of modern version of Who am I and I think a more effective and more direct version
I don't mean by that - I don't mean to by that to disparage the question Who am I it is also a very
potent question but it's it's a question that has been overused and has been misunderstood by for
so long that that we need a fresh approach to the same question and this question am i
aware it's so direct that this there can be no misunderstanding about it it's so clean it's so
clear it's so straight it just takes us straight there just just whenever you feel inclined to just
ask yourself this question and go there go there be that just get used to being that and begin to
just begin to set up camp there until your mind is required by either for practical purposes or
celebratory purposes to rise out of its source and take form and go outwards towards an object that's
fine you let it do that and then just become accustomed to allowing the mind to sink into
the heart over and over and over again until the minds natural place to rest is not on an
object but in its source in the heart that doesn't mean that it can't easily rise and leave home and
prepare to leave home and go out and attend to objects but it the place it likes to be is home
it it's like it's like someone who you know they move into a lovely apartment and and their friends
ask them out all the time and this person says no I I like staying at home I don't want to come
out every evening of the week I have this lovely home now I'm just you know I just like living at
home with my partner quietly I don't want to go out all the time it's like that we just just we
get used the mind gets used to staying home it's peaceful there it's comfortable there for the mind
it's so it's so busy it's so agitated that the minds always entertaining objects it's it's so
its life the mind leads of seeking and resisting in relationship to objects it's so exhausting for
the mind and when it discovers that it has a home a place where it can rest it's free it doesn't get
charged it's easy it's it's always available it just get used to it just get used to staying home
thank you