hey guys welcome to a wednesday weigh-in video
so in this video i will be answering three weight related questions talking about my daily weigh-ins
for this week if i reached my november first goal how much weight i lost in october how much weight
i lost in the last week and what is my new weight loss goal so first things first i do want to do
the three questions from you guys the first one is what is your ultimate goal weight i just know that
i want to obviously lose a few hundred pounds for sure i know the more weight i lose the more i'm
gonna understand my body a bit better and figure out what is the healthy overall goal weight for
myself i know at my height i'm supposed to be like 110 pounds and i know that's not realistic and i
know that's never gonna happen i think sometimes you have to be very realistic in your weight loss
journey everyone's journey is different so i'm actually currently just doing small goals i notice
it's making it to where i don't have to look at the bigger picture because the bigger picture
makes me overwhelmed that's when i fall off track because i'm just like oh my god how is this even
possible to lose this much weight so by focusing on many goals i'm able to celebrate more and like
award myself with things and it makes me feel more accomplished to be honest by setting these goals
succeeding and reaching these goals it makes me excited to create more next question is why do you
think losing the weight is the answer i have had quite a few health issues in my life and all of
them really have boiled down to my weight i think honestly the biggest one for me is being diagnosed
with uterine cancer last year obviously there's more than just that you know it's like the stamina
it's not being able to just do regular things like everyday people like walking in a mall is
super hard for me because of the size and i know it's kind of like a cycle when it comes to like
my mental health and stuff it's like being bigger makes my mental health worse and then my mental
health makes me gain weight so it's always been like this weird vicious cycle and i know that was
just like positive changes positive reinforcement determination i can lose the weight while slowly
it is making my mental health better i just feel like there's so many things in my life that could
be better just by losing weight like i think of my future and i just see so many good things and it's
like i know i can't do any of those things example traveling especially to different countries
i can't do those things at this week so losing the weight is literally right now the answer to
everything so the last question is would you date someone the same size as you so my answer is no
simply no not because of shallow reasons or because of like how they look physically because
obviously i'm not gonna lie i have a few questions on some plus size females it's just the fact that
to get to the size obviously there's some sort of issue or addiction that creates this to be in a
relationship with someone else that has the same problems a lot of people would think maybe that'd
be a good thing because you could support each other but honestly i think it would be detrimental
to both of us we would enable each other and it's just i feel like if i was in a relationship with
someone my size i would never get better okay jason's wait jason we're breaking the diet no
the only time i
just question two what if it was someone your size that is currently on a weight
loss journey weight loss journeys are not linear i feel like they're very like
up and down like a roller coaster they're very rocky and i would be terrified
that during one of those times where either they were off track or i was off track that we would
start to no longer support each other but instead following each other's footsteps and then
i noticed for me like i spiral out of control once i'm off track and it's like if i saw my
partner do that i would want to do that the best example that i could come up with is like say
you're in a relationship with someone who does drugs you also do drugs you're trying to stay
clean but your partner isn't that's very hard so i personally would not want to put myself in that
position okay so now let's get to the weigh-in so last wednesday october 27th i weighed 506.2
october 28th i weighed 505.00 which was a 1.2 loss october 29 i weighed 504.4 which was a 0.6 loss
october 30th i weighed 503.8 which was another 0.6 loss on october 31st i weighed in at 504.00
which was a 0.2 gain so that weigh-in was really hard for me because the day before i was on track
i was feeling good i did my exercises i ate right and the fact that i gained 0.2 for some reason it
really messed with my head and i went back to my old habits i've always had a very hard time
with accepting certain weigh-ins and when they didn't go my way i would self-destruct so on
that day i said eff it and i ended up having a cheat day i ordered seafood boil which is like
one of my most favorite meals but it's very high in sodium has tons of butter there's a lot of
calories because throughout the whole day i do end up eating the whole thing so the next day on
november 1st i weighed in at 505.2 which was a 1.2 gain remember second i weighed in at 504.6
which was a 0.6 loss so this was actually the day i decided okay we need to figure out how many
calories am i really eating in a day i noticed that days where i'm on track i'm only losing like
point something or i gain 0.2 so i was like i need to figure out what's really going on at this size
with how little i felt like i was eating you think that i'd be losing weight a little bit quicker for
a normal person to lose 0.6 a day that's actually amazing but for someone my size i honestly feel
like i need to be losing weight a little quicker than that so i said hey let's count calories let's
figure it all out so i set my calorie limit to 1600 i feel like that's pretty doable to be honest
especially because a lot of the foods i am eating is very low calorie so i actually weighed in today
after counting calories yesterday i ate 1400 so i was below 1600 by 200 which is fine so yeah today
november 3rd i weighed in at 504.0 which was a 0.6 loss so even with counting calories and eating at
such a low amount i'm still losing only like point something which i actually today for the
first time accepted all progress is good progress and that's honestly what i need to stick to so
this week i only lost 2.2 but in total that means i've lost 68.4 which means i'm 1.6 pounds
from losing 70. and in the month of october i lost 18.2 pounds which is incredible so as you guys can
see i did not get into the 400s i did not reach my goal i was doing super amazing at the beginning of
the week and when i noticed i'm not losing weight fast enough i said hey it's time to self sabotage
it was a bad idea a bad choice i'm not perfect and i will continue to learn from these mistakes
and learn from the unhealthy patterns and habits that i do have so my new mini weight loss goal
is december 1st i would love to weigh 484.6 just a goal if i don't reach it it's okay but every
single day i want to try to obviously reach it i feel just like super motivated determined
inspired like i'm literally inspiring myself i never in millionaires thought that would even
be a thing so i do hope that you guys enjoyed the swinging video and i will see you next time
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