so trust me I know I know that you are tired of hearing about the BS and trust
me when I say this I am tired of talking about the BS and I wish I could tell you
this is the last time the last time ever that I will have to talk about this but
I don't know we'll see where the future goes all right I just put out a Twitter
thread and I wanted to put this on the record on my youtube channel so if any
of you have been following this platform for a while something that's come up a
lot lately is youtuber burnout youtuber depression right a lot of talk about
mental health and something I try to do with my channel is try to see what we
can learn from these things how do we how do we learn from this so I've
watched so many of my peers so many youtubers be burnt out become depressed
all sorts of stuff right hell if I'm being honest we even saw recently the
tragedy that just happened to edit calm right and I watched this I'm like what
can I learn from this and there's always commonalities you'll always hear the
same thing when you watch these videos about burnout depression right people
focusing on the numbers people not making content that they want to make
right all of those things and people attach so much of their self-worth to
these numbers and if I'm going to do that I am setting myself up for failure
and whatever I talk about on this channel what I'm trying to get everybody
to do is no matter what content you're consuming I don't care if it's my videos
I don't care if it's another youtuber I don't care if it's the news I don't care
if it's a movie a TV show whatever it is I want you to look at it and say what
can I learn from it right ask yourself do I want to be like this person or do I
not want to be like this person whatever it is always look always walks that's
something that has helped me exponentially in my life but the purpose
of this video is much like I said on Twitter like I would much rather I would
much rather lose tens of more thousands of
scribers then have people here who don't believe in me who don't believe in my
mission who don't believe what I have to say alright if they want to take the
words of people who don't know me and assume I'm an awful person that's fine
like something I learned in my addiction recovery right is that it does not
matter if you are the most popular person on earth if you keep a bunch of
crappy people in your life you are going to be miserable today rather than having
a million friends I have a very small group of friends but let me tell you
this they are ride-or-die all right they they
know that I'm a human being they know that I'm gonna screw up they love me for
who I am and when it comes to us being youtubers like that's what we need in
our lives in these channels in these communities as well okay like this is a
boundary that I'm setting up and like it's it's interesting too because you
see people talk about the numbers all the time like when you watch other
commentary channels of drama channels something that's always being brought up
is social blade numbers social blade numbers social blade numbers like why
are we basing someone's value or worth on social blade numbers like think about
that for a second if we attach our happiness to that thing to that number
it's no different than people who try to attach their self-worth their value to
money or things right that's something I learned a long time ago that I hope a
lot of you learn as well is this is something that will not make you happy
in the long run alright but one of the reasons I'm
making this is because trust me like a lot of you realize this I go through the
comments I read a lot of them and the massive amount of hypocrisy and double
standards again like I don't need people like that in this community all right
and I hate to bring her up again but the fact the fact that so many fans of
Creepshow art came to my channel right to talk about how I discuss
Tayler Nicole Dean if you don't see the hypocrisy in that like I don't know what
to tell you Creepshow are literally made of video saying Holly Conrad a woman who
went to a mental health hospital who was having ideation of self-harm
right this woman literally went to a mental health hospital and Creepshow art
made an entire video talking about how this woman was using her mental health
as a manipulation but I make a video about Taylor Nicole Dean saying that
dating and early recovery is a bad idea but that's a problem like there is such
a massive amount of hypocrisy and a lot of you watching this you're subscribed
to drama channels you're subscribed to commentary channels I want you to think
about that hypocrisy I want you to think about that double standard all right
when taki Westbrook and Jeffrey star made all those allegations against James
Charles a Jeffrey star accused James Charles of things that are illegal
disgusting and can stick with you for life and every channel was doing that do
you think that affected James Charles in any way shape or form of course it did
he talked about that same thing with Jacqueline Hill everybody being upset
about her lipsticks which rightfully so right but do you think she wants people
talking about that as people who talk about commentary drama whatever it is we
are taking things from the public spotlight we are not breaking into
people's houses and taking their files these are all things that are public
record and we're having conversations about it and here's the thing I would
never tell people to not make videos about me I think that is the most
ridiculous thing like the audacity the audacity that we can have as creators
saying we want the public spotlight we want to make money we want to be popular
we want all of these things we want all the good but do not be critical of my
behaviors like can you like I can't imagine
okay and I'm gonna end with this like if you want to stick around awesome because
here's the thing I'm gonna talk about drama I'm gonna talk about news I'm
gonna talk about movies and TV shows I'm gonna do my thing and see what lessons
we can learn from them things that are in the public spotlight all right and
I'm gonna be real I'm gonna be honest with it and I'm gonna make mistakes I'm
gonna screw up I'm gonna continue to try to learn and grow and I get it
sometimes I can come off harsh sometimes my tough love is a little too much and I
miss the mark all right but I'm telling you this right now I'm always gonna be
real and honest with you guys and yes like I said I'm gonna talk about drama
I'm gonna talk about other youtubers just like every other commentary channel
out there and I'm telling you this - I also have bills to pay so yes I'm going
to monetize videos like other youtubers and yes I'm going to have merchandise
like other youtubers yes I'm going to do something extra that a lot of youtubers
don't do which is write books that I feel can help people all right these are
all the things that I'm going to continue to do and if you don't stand
behind that if you don't stand behind my opinions my ideas the things that I
believe will help us improve our lives that's fine we all have different
opinions like here's here's the other thing - like there's there's different
people for everybody like when I found a sponsor I needed
somebody who was tough on me I needed somebody who would keep me accountable
I needed somebody who would tell me what I didn't want to hear right some people
on the other hand need someone who's gonna hold their hand be their best
friend and coddle them okay we all need different things the thing that I want
from you is to be very self aware and know what you need do you need somebody
who's going to beat around the bush and be very soft and light with you is that
what you need or do you need someone who's gonna come out here and be real
call you out on your BS also try to hold myself accountable and realize when I
have some BS and do this thing together all right
figure out what you want follow the creator's who you like who you agree
with but I just wanted to get this on the right
they're like I want people who want to stay here who want to improve who want
to be held accountable who want to take what they're consuming things that are
in the public and learn from them if you don't want to learn from what's
happening in the YouTube community that's fine watch the drama channels
watch the other commentary channels this isn't a knock on them I respect them I
have many friends in the commentary community not so much in the drama
community but what I try to do differently than anybody else is when
you leave one of my videos I want you to take a step back and look at your own
life and say huh maybe I'm doing some of those same things and maybe there's
something I can learn and something I can prove upon so that's the point of my
channel that's what I'm gonna continue to do here so if you're down with that
stick around with me but if not that's totally fine if you want to believe what
others have to say about me without knowing me that's cool all right no no
bad feelings between you and me okay but I hope if anything if anything that
you take away from this video is start doing this in your own life all right
it's not about the quantity of the friends you have it's the quality of the
people that you keep in your life all right that's what I'm trying to do so I
hope you could do the same thanks for watching