I like to believe that I'm Muslim, but it's very hard.
What do you believe in then?
You say like to believe in it?
Like, I believe in more idolism innit.
Because obviously I'm originally from Haiti
My Mum's Turkish and my dad's form Haiti innit.
Yeah.
Something happened here.
I was living over there for a little bit, and I had to do some rituals and it saved
my life.
The rituals saved your life?
Yeah.
When you say rituals, what rituals?
I don't want to get into too much detail, but something happened and I done a ceremony
and I come back to the ends.
Did you slaughter any animals.
Yeah a goat.
A goat yeah.
So if I asked you, do you.. sorry whats your name?
Mehmet Faisel, nice to meet you, Noaman.
Do you believe in God?
I would like to think so but...
Do you believe that there's a God?
I believe there's a higher being.
There's a high being, a creator.
You know, the only reason I actually believe in God is because if I've seen this benefit
from the dark side, there has to be a good side.
Why do you call it the dark side if it's something you're
saying that saved your life?
Mehmet look, is it God that saved your life or is it these dark arts that saved your life?
That's what I'm getting at.
To be honest, I've done a lot of praying to God and I've seen very very very very little.
But the thing is I'm sorry, but.
You say you seen very little.
You know how much God has given you already?
Of course, from the jump but when I really need it.
No, but if you look at even what God has given us look, bruv you're talking, you're seeing,
you're smelling, you're breathing.
I mean, these are the hidden benefits that God has given us, right?
Like, you really, really needed the oxygen that you just breathed in right now.
Off course.
It's kind of a lot of things that what we do.
The shaytaan of the devil.
The devil will make you think God ain't doing much for you.
God ain't giving you.
But when you sit back and think, the fact that you can breathe,
the fact that you can see, the fact that you two legs
your walking, we're here.
See what I'm saying?
There is so many things that we are ungrateful to the favours that our Lord has given us.
As in Surah Rahmaan, which are the favors of your Lord will you deny.
There's so many favours that he's bestowed upon us.
The fact that when you go to sleep, the body rest, you wake up in the morning.
This is all from the higher power, isn't it, bruv?
Well, one thing I see is I'm 23 now.
I've done a lot of bad things in the past,
and one thing that Allah don't forgive is obviously the murder in it.
And who says that?
I've heard from imams
You know, there's a story yeah,
Interesting you said murder.
There is a story.
The Prophet (peace be upon him) he told us about the man
who had killed 99 people.
Stay with me.
This is really important.
There was a man who killed 99 and he went to the Islamic one.
He went to somebody who thought he thought had knowledge.
And he said, Is there any forgiveness for me?
And the man said, no.
So he killed him as well.
Made him 100.
The man went on on his journey I'm
paraphrasing it very quickly because you're short on time,
but he went on on his journey and he went to somebody of knowledge.
He went to a scholar.
He went to somebody who studied the religion.
And this man said to the scholar, he said, I have killed 100 people.
Is there any forgiveness for me?
Hello?
I'm going to come to you right now.
I'm so sorry.
Let me finish what I'm going to say to you.
Literally 30 seconds.
He went to the first one.
He told him, no, there's no 100.
He said, the thing you have to do is if you want forgiveness,
leave the thing that you're seeking forgiveness for and leave that land.
Leave the place where you were doing your things and move away from it.
The man the story goes,
the man went away and halfway when he got to where he was going, he died.
And the angels, they came and debated this line.
Was he that side of this side?
The point being, mahmes, brother, don't care about the mercy of your Lord.
He created you.
He gave you, he raised you, he provided for you.
He done everything for you.
Yeah, he done everything for you.
You think that Lord can't forgive you?
You think that Lord wants you to go to hellfire?
You think that Lord wants you to be punished?
It doesn't matter what you've done, brother.
Our Lord is Ar-Rahman.
He's the most forgiving.
He's Ar-Rahim.
He's the one who is specifically kind.
He's merciful.
My brother, don't despair from the mercy of your Lord.
Take a minute.
I just heard one of my gyms in my head.
Yeah.
I always.
Keep my distance.
That's completely up to you, brother.
That's the shape on in your head.
Brother.
Can I recite?
What honour?
Thank you very much.