- What's up, guys?
It's Jordyn Jones and today I'm going to be reading
some entries I wrote in my diary.
I probably wrote in this five, six, seven years ago.
So wish me some luck.
(upbeat music)
March 19th, 2012.
So I had just turned 12 in this.
Today I'm really sad.
(laughs)
The popular girls at school just won't leave me alone.
They're always mean to me about something.
My height, my Instagram, me being a tomboy.
I hate it, I hate it, I hate it.
Today I was standing at my locker minding my own business
and they came to me and started teasing me
about what I was wearing which is so dumb.
I looked so much cuter than they all did.
(laughing)
Sometimes I think I should just wear boring clothes
and blend in, but no, I can't let them get to me.
There's so much I wanna say to their face.
(laughs)
They're such beyotches.
I cannot believe I swear, that's so funny.
I'm gonna write it here instead.
Sarah, your hair is so not cute today or any day.
Lindsey, you're just jealous 'cause me and Max
play kickball together
and you can't even tie your own laces.
So Max over here, we played everyday,
his girlfriend didn't really like it
but it's like, girl, I'm not tryna steal your mans, okay?
I'm just tryna play kickball.
So, if you got a problem with it,
why don't you just play with us?
It sounds like they were bullying me,
but even though I was super sad about it for five seconds,
I was super confident and I still am.
I did wanna be the friend, I did wanna be a popular girl,
but I stayed who I am, I stayed true to myself,
and I'm glad I did that
because if I would've moved to L.A.
and had that feeling of being better than everybody else,
then I would not have gotten far.
We're not gonna name names,
but I've seen one or two of these girls down here
and let me just say now they want to be
on my Instagram story, they want to be my best friend.
Aye, now they wanna be on my side of the table.
August the 28th, 2014.
Since we've moved to L.A.,
there's been so much going on with my dancing and singing,
I just love it all,
but no matter how busy I am
I just can't stop thinking about Nick.
(laughs)
I just exposed myself.
He is so, so, so, so, multiplied by a million hot.
It was definitely love at first sight for me,
especially I was like 13 or 14 years old
and I had never seen a guy that I liked ever before.
So it was so weird for me
that I just didn't know what to do with myself,
but Lily is my best friend so nothing can happen,
but if it did, me and Lily would be sisters.
Haha, imagine that.
When I first met Nick I did not think
that it was her brother
and all I was saying to myself was
the guy in the hot tub is so hot
and I can't remember his name
'cause I was just staring at him.
This is so embarrassing.
January 31st, 2015.
Dear diary, the other day I was at Lily's house
and Nick kept walking
by her bedroom and looking in.
I pretended I didn't notice
'cause he can't know I like him.
Gotta make sure I play hard to get.
But I know he wants to hang out with us when I'm there.
He's being so chicken.
(balks)
And yesterday, guess what?
He came to my show.
I know Lily's one of my backup dancers,
but he was totally there to see me.
Nick plus Jordan equals goals.
Hahaha, cringe, oh my gosh, okay gotta go.
XOXO Jordan.
Heart Nick four E.
I remember this day exactly, okay?
This was definitely the day
that he fell for me because he wanted
to come to my show just to see me
and everyone else was saying that, even his mom,
and I'm glad he came 'cause I killed it.
So then when I started dating Nick,
it was weird, it was awkward,
but it was definitely super fun
to be able to hang out with both of them
and Lily loved being our third wheel.
She was always just there, it was just great.
Best friend and boyfriend.
So then two months after this,
I remember he was wearing a hat and he tried to kiss me
and then it didn't work out very well,
so it was kind of awkward
and then he took the hat off and then we kissed
and it was the little peck and then from there on,
it was like a fairytale.
It's kind of a trip to read what I wrote
because some of it's sad, some of it's super happy.
It's first love, mean girls,
and just what I was going through then
and I'm glad that I have this to look back at
because it's the beginning of me.