so what are we doing today today we're
doing a Q&A I had a really good intro
and I was practicing it no I forgot
today we're gonna do a Q&A and thank you
everybody for asking we got so many
questions we might do this like a
two-part video because there's so many
of them and there's some really good
questions and I don't want to just skip
them really fast
I really gotta like go deep into that
deep yeah okay so you read them already
I have no idea what the question I read
them yesterday so I don't remember yeah
hi Sadie NP since the two of you weren't
engaged anymore though still in a
relationship as friends or girlfriend
but if in time one of you will find the
love of her life and another person how
would one of you react to it should I
answer she'll go first
yeah let's just start talking about mmm
okay well the thing is that okay we're
not engaged but we're actually together
I mean we live together and we are like
back together like a couple we are a
couple and I think we confused a lot of
people yeah but I think we're all so
confused ourselves no I think that we
needed that moment of confusion to
figure things out and and then go back
to what makes us feel more comfortable
which is being a couple without being
labeled or without like going through
that thing that I don't know why there
have to be faces in being a couple I
don't know why okay you are getting to
know each other then you go into the
engagement phase and now it's time to
get married and I was trying to get her
to have a house I have you know all the
kids and all of that
okay there are all these faces no I
don't I don't know yes no no no it's
just that for me I don't understand the
faces I feel like as soon as you connect
with a person that connection is so
immediate that feeling of connection is
so immediate okay but that's I think the
pure
this thing that people should focus on
that's all nothing nothing else matters
really so why did we get engaged well I
feel that it was more important for you
than for me and I went along with what
would make you happier what would make
you safer in the relationship you know
what that doesn't sound great it doesn't
but I didn't even know at that point I
didn't know that I was doing that
actually it's more because for me it
doesn't have that meaning that it has
for you but when we actually got engaged
I felt that it was actually weighing on
me so it has a meaning that I don't
agree with you know and then literally I
felt why am I not feeling comfortable
with this so I had to do some soul
search if you want to call it like that
and find out that look you know so in
fact that's why we are confusing people
it's because we're putting our
relationship out there and because we
are actually questioning our actions
constantly not in a way oh my god they
are now enjoying their relationship
because they're questioning ourselves
constantly no it's not that the case
it's just that being aware is what makes
something anything to grow and to evolve
somebody else is asking what were the
reasons your relationship and did you
still love each other so romance ended
or a sexual attraction ended so let's
clarify this we stopped being engaged
but we continued as a couple so we're
still a couple and were involved
romantically and in any way on any level
so yeah that's what we are now and the
reason why we broke up the engagement
it's all explained in that video I think
this will explain it and I think we just
confused everybody a lot a lot yeah with
that because we broke thing I said that
we broke the engagement but we are
keeping the connection for me the
connection being still being a couple I
think you said we broke the relationship
but we're keeping the connection so
that's what confuses a while okay I'm
sorry
anyway it's okay somebody else is also
asking what's going on with your
relationship yes you look a lot of
people are confused yeah and you know
where it could yeah what is the status
of your relationship love from Australia
are you guys back together I really love
you two back together we've never been
apart that's my answer
it's kind of difficult to be apart from
this one why are you guys scared of a
relationship label you know when you
have to change words in order not to
have everything that you learn that it
was not good attached to that word or
some kind of definition so that's what
it happened basically the previous
experiences you've had under the
relationship label yes we're like
traumatizing enough that now it feels
scary yeah kind of thing like that
yeah it has a negative connotation yeah
Sadie do you want to be with P or does
she keep pushing you away I think that
it's perceived this way because of what
we were just talking about yeah it looks
like maybe you're pushing me away but
it's not that you're pushing me away
you're just afraid of the labels and the
negative connotation that comes with
that for you yeah so I do want to be
with P I don't think she's pushing me
away I think she was trying really hard
not to push
another person says now that you're not
in a relationship are you still living
together if someone wants to meet
someone else how do you do it if you
live together
yes so okay so we are together and we're
a couple we live together there was a
moment where we were keeping things open
as we can I came back when we released
the video bla bla bla where we are you
know we're not engaged anymore and so on
and there was that period of time when
we were keeping things open then what
happened
CD was on tinder I saw her she said are
you comfortable with that
and I said no really I'm not comfortable
I don't think I'm ready for that I'm
still very attached emotionally and I
still this so much that I want to
develop in this relationship yeah so she
she agreed and what was your take on
that that period well now we were
keeping an open and you were on tinder
you know say something about it no it's
not very I know it's painful for me why
tell me Jessie it get them
okay okay
it wasn't easy thinking about breaking
up I know I didn't really want to break
up but it was like okay so okay I want
to get there maybe I should look for
some other people because I feel lonely
this is one of the reasons why Italy was
not the greatest cuz there was nobody
else I could interact with nobody spoke
English I had no friends and nothing
like the only person I could speak to
with you and when Artemisia was visiting
her so we came back here and we said
we're breaking up I went on the dating
app because I thought okay let me find
some people to connect with because
believe it or not I don't really have
friends here either I'm pretty much a
loner and it's not entirely by choice
but I just have a difficult time like
connecting with people in real life it's
always been like difficult for me to
make friends usually I would only have
like one friend and that was like plenty
for me because even that the fact that I
have one friend was like a miracle to me
like ever since I was young
so now kinda you're like that one friend
and then I was trying to look to connect
with other people that's why I went on
tinder then I saw you and then you said
you care you comfortable with this I
need to look looking for friends and I
said okay well it's good you're looking
for friends then you show me the posting
it was not mentioned they were looking
for friends and of course people you
know I mean I wasn't just looking for
friends I was like open yep if it gets
to become more I was
so that made me understand that I didn't
want that when it was happening made me
realize I'm not ready for this breaking
up isn't it was not good for me either
like it didn't make any sense it's play
it didn't make any sense because I had I
still have a lot of lot of feelings
strong connection and I don't want to
lose it you're the first person that
I've ever lived with for me yes and no
no I really like it so yeah
and I like it too I love being around
you when we're not connecting on a daily
basis I miss you meet you up and I
didn't want I don't want to lose that
personally yeah I feel like we have very
precious okay answer that request move
along have you got any tips on what to
do when your mental health is weighing
you down and you don't feel like doing
anything this is a very timely question
so my mental health is weighing me down
like mostly all the time what I find
that works for me is not fighting it I
don't know I kind of feel like we live
in a society that really makes it wrong
to stop and just rest and not do
anything not engage with reality some
people are just not as useful to society
as other people there's plenty of people
who couldn't do what other people do and
right and nobody blames them for that
and somebody's in a wheelchair nobody's
gonna say why don't you get up and walk
around and we'd do some work and be
contributed yeah we're like working
construction or something like that
that's a physical thing so we wouldn't
can see it when it's mental other people
can't see it so it's not obvious and
people say you're making it up you're
just being lazy
you're just being this and that you're
just trying to get out of it but I feel
like some people really are kind of
well I don't want to say disabled but
like mentally different than other
people and the threshold of what we can
deal with is less than other people and
it shows like you get physical symptoms
like all the symptoms of depression I
guess as a person who's been dealing
with that since I was like 15 and I've
gone to therapy I've tried a lot of
things you know it's not something that
I find is gonna change I kind of just
sort of had to make peace with the fact
that I have a limit of how much I can
contribute to society in the normal way
I'm just wired differently if that makes
sense and I I really feel like if you're
also suffering from a depression are you
feeling like you can't keep up with this
world
maybe it's because you were made a
little bit different you know you were
wired a little bit differently and you
know you're supposed to be this way I
don't know why I still yet to figure out
why like what I'm good at
with things like that you want to pick
one no no just go go through all of them
just think somebody asks a bit raunchy
question and you want to answer it which
one who is dominant and who's submissive
like who initiates intimacy Sadie really
yeah both of us look I feel that ways
and I feel like it really depends on who
you're with because I feel like if I was
with somebody who likes me being
dominant I would be like totally
dominant and if I'm with somebody who
likes me being raw submissive then I'll
play more submissive but at the end like
it's a game like what do you like
playing me yeah I feel like you don't
like playing submissive but anyway
dominant yeah do you think it has
anything to do with you being with a man
for the first half of your life I think
so yeah
Sadie are you both afraid of losing each
other and that's why you took a decision
about my relationship I don't think
we're in an open relationship actually
we went back to exclusive relationship
because we're afraid of losing each
other