I was truly living in a completely different reali
from the person I was married to, the exact words out
of his mouth, like, well you can find anything to
disprove anything on the internet. How do you argue
with that I keep thinking to myself, if social media
hadn't existed, that we would have lived the rest of
our lives so happily it took a turn when trump showed
up. There's something about Q. And on that hooks people
and it's going worldwide and before, one thing that's
very strange about being a Q. Annan spouse or in a Q.
And in family is that you you literally feel like you
are watching a person who you used to know die in front
of you because whoever they used to be whatever
personality they used to have, it doesn't exist anymore.
And you keep searching for that person who you've known
for a really, really long time and eventually just find
that they aren't there. And it really felt, it felt
like he died. For some reason my spouse started to
become obsessed with secret societies. He started
getting really into wikileaks. The DNC conspiracy
theory. The Pizza Gate conspiracy theory. That's when,
that's when his personality started to change. My real
red flag moment definitely revolved around his
increasing anti Semitism, which apparently is a very
common thing and people who are Q and on conspiracy
theorists. My dad's side of the family is jewish, so it
was difficult for me. There's nothing wrong with my
family, you know, there's nothing wrong with people
being jewish. I was hanging out with my son and all of
a sudden my son said something about jews and I was
like, excuse me, where did you hear this And my four
year old son said from dad in the car, I ran out to my
car in my pajamas. I grabbed the SD card from the dash
cam and I threw it into my computer and I started
watching in the first video. The first video I pulled
that the first video I pulled up was disgusting. He wa
listening to anti Semitic podcasts with my baby's in
the car. I've left my marriage now and I've been out
for almost two months. It's really emotional to talk
about because it's like your whole life ended. Like you
had a real actual life together and they chose the
internet over you. I keep thinking to myself, if social
media hadn't existed that we would have lived the rest
of our lives so happily if someone had told me five
years ago that I would be getting a divorce because my
husband believes in conspiracy theories and hates jews.
I never would have believed tha I did feel like I had
lost my spouse to an addiction and it really felt li
he died. I was truly living in a completely differen
reality from the person I was married to. I put a lot
of effort into trying to make sure that she just
wouldn't come up as a grew and grew this conspiracy i
his mind. It kind of took over everything. We have m
in college, we were very outdoorsy, that was kind of
our thing. We used to go backpacking and camping and
hiking. You could always make everything a little bit
better and a little bit more comfortable and it was a
lot of fun that declined around the time he got into
cube. It's a little bit more interested in conspira
theories and the average person it took a turn when
trump shut up. It wasn't that he was a trump supporter
or even a republican, so it didn't really stem from his
political affiliation at all. It really just kind of
accelerated to a point where we were not living in the
same reality anymore. We had a couple of times where
you had said that the world was coming to an end,
tonight's the night it's happening right now. We have
to pack up, you have to say about your family, Inter
is going to go down and then that's going to be our
signal from Q that the world is ending. And it was a
very it's a very scary thing to live through somebody
who has that much conviction that the world's going to
end 9 55 that night. You kind of start to lose your own
sense of your own confidence in what you believe to be
true when you're just constantly being inundated by
Cuban on stuff and you start to wonder if maybe you're
the one who's not informed. Those moments were ve
scary. I can't say it was super confident that the
world wasn't going to end. Even though logically I love
that. Yeah. Yeah I think kind of what kept me staying
is that it feels so deceptively and frustratingl
to fix. Especially once he started talking about
flatter and stuff like that and that's kind of the
sense of like oh my God I should be able to convince
him that the earth is round, I can do this right. It
can be really hard to let go. He didn't understand it
He felt that I was ending something good over poli
disagreements once you get past debating you know just
political preferences into debating what's real and
what's not, it just becomes this really draining,
really exhausting thing. He was mainstream knowledge.
Now my parents know what it is, They just asked me
about it, make those was that Q. And on. Is that what
he was in june So it kind of came late, this validat
this is the kind of thing that doesn't break up
relationships. This might be a tipping point for a lot
of people's family members. I hope that there are some
people who finally start to see a little bit more
clearly now if you're deciding to stay in a
relationship on any level with somebody who believes in
this stuff need to make sure you don't lose your own
footing in the process, your own sense of what's real
and what's not because you almost feel like you can
fight it and maybe you can. I couldn't. Mhm. Yeah. I
first became aware of it in june or july, I noticed his
disposition was angrier. I found Q. And I merchandise
um T shirt and some bumper stickers on his desk at the
time. You know, I was only marginally familiar with i
but I told him this is poison, this is fake stuff
online. This is gonna it's brainwashing, don't even
look at it, don't touch it, don't let it into our house.
And of course it fell on deaf ears. Yeah, we used to
enjoy lots of things. We both like all types of ethnic
food, eating out, has always been a big part of our
relationship, you know, movies, theater, I'm still a
member of the chorus and he come to all my shows. We
were just typical middle class gay couple, you know, we
just had fun, He was easy to talk to, he was loyal and
he was just one of the most truly kind people I've eve
met 2016. He was wildly wildly pro Bernie Sanders. I
mean, he was one of the Bernie Bro's posted on face
about him all the time. So when Bernie didn't win, he
became absolutely hateful to Hillary Clinton. I
remember one time after he had sent me some article and
I had sent him something to debunk it and I pointed
out, you know, that took me five seconds of google. You
need to check these things that you're looking at the
exact words out of his mouth, like, well you can find
anything to disprove anything on the internet. How do
you argue with that? As the election got closer and
closer, he started posting just absolutely hateful
horrible shit on facebook. Um my phone started blowing
up with friends and family saying what is going on? Has
his account been hacked? If he had posted something like that
when we were dating, it would have, we would never be
married. Uh, the day after the election since, would
have been the morning of November 4th, I left. I went
to a hotel for two days. Um, and during that time,
other than a few quick text, we did not talk and I told
him than that I wanted a divorce, that it was too much.
We had a confrontation, said a lot of things he was
crying and by the end of it, I thought maybe this is
salvageable. I said you stopping the shit posting on
facebook would be a big step in the right direction.
And he did do that. So I thought we were making
progress. Then when I came home, I asked for counseling
and he told me he would consider it in three mont
That meant after the inaugurati when he by then he
thought the storm would've happened and I'd have to
admit that he was right all along. So it was just
totally disingenuous on his part. Total manipulation.
My thought and strategy was that I was going to take
this reset period and if Biden could just get in office
peacefully, then I was going to start to programming.
But then after what happened on the sixth, uh I I spoke
with the divorce attorney on Thursday. I'm not 100%
decided. But it's too much. There's this shadow betwe
us this distance. Yeah. These people aren't going away.
You know, some of me thinks Cuban on it is a massive
hysteria, like the Salem witch trials or McCarthy's
communist scares in the 50s and all those things
eventually blow themselves out. But we've never seen a
mass hysteria that had the power of the internet behind
it. I don't know how it's gonna morph once trump is
finally out of office. I don't know what's going to
happen, but I don't think it's going to be like a light
bulb and it's just gonna flick off and go away. There's
something about Q. And um that hooks people and it's
going worldwide. Mhm.