hey guys it's Jen and I recently seen quite a lot of like chatty get ready with me so I felt
kind of fun to just put on my makeup and chitchat with you guys as I'm doing it I've been seeing so
much of these like really beautiful red eyeshadow looks I'm just starting off with little primer on
my eyes recently I think I mentioned this in a previous video but I've been watching this web
series I have been watching the Korean ones which the language is all in Korean so there
are different ones from different countries so if you don't understand Korean then you can of
course watch like Singapore Malaysia there's one for Japan beauty bound is sort of like this web
series online on YouTube it's presented by SK 2 and they're sort of competing to follow their
dreams of being the top asian beauty creator as I was watching it it was really sort of reminding me
of my whole process of getting here the primer oil has been coming my skin Sen roll dry lately just
helps just have a little bit of moisture but what I was saying is it just kind of reminds me of all
of the struggles it sort of took to get to where I am like it's really not as easy as it seems to
make all of these videos on YouTube and have like a consistent schedule and keep coming up
with ideas it's very very competitive it's very critical and I was thinking a lot about that as
I was watching first of all I find it so brave for anybody who just sort of goes after their
dreams like that for me it was it was a little bit different because you know I had a day job
and this was my hobby but it took a lot of risk to just sort of like make that big leap I just
really felt for the girls you know not not like a painting whale ago I'm sorry they're going through
this because it is fun being creative and coming up with your own ideas and presenting that in
front of people but it does take a lot of courage one thing that I think is really awesome is that
each country has sort of like a mentor I don't know if you guys follow Korean makeup artist but
there's one that really really stands out that I've been watching for years and I just admire
her work so much and it's Chung femme blur and she's actually a part of the series she is the
head mentor for Korea which I was very into seeing because whenever I watch her videos she just seems
so delicate and how she does makeup application very deliberate and how she applies everything
and I feel like I've personally learned so much from her as a Korean contestants there were a
couple that really stood out to me one of them was a girl named Byung I guess that's the Korean
way of pronouncing it the thing that kind of struck me about her is that she kept referring
to herself as you know having this dream but she's not a very beautiful girl it's kind of
hard for me to hear because for me growing up in Kansas I didn't have people around me
who looked like me at all you know I was I was definitely the odd one out and it's so strange
because when I was looking at her I was like she's a really pretty girl but I know in Korea there's
a little bit of a different beauty standard it's a lot more linear there's like a one I deal that
everybody is supposed to look like so I think it's actually really incredible that she's doing stuff
on YouTube because it's important to see more diversity and more acceptance and people just
being like oh you know like I don't look perfect I don't look like the standard but I still have
this dream that I'm going after you use a little bit of a shimmering under-eye illuminator timmi it
doesn't come off as trying to like hide anything but it just sort of brightens that area looks more
natural alright my face base is on I'm going to move on to the eye shadow gonna take this red
shade here I feel like I'm always keeping my eyes open for inspiration online and a lot of the ways
that I learn about new things is by watching other youtubers oh you know there was actually another
contestant from Korea that I really felt like I related with a lot such a pretty color it's a girl
named buting she was talking about how she isn't as young as other people who are going for this
you know she's in her 30s but that doesn't keep her back from having a really positive attitude
you know talking a lot about like just glowing and having good skincare with myself you know I
am in my 30s now and even though I started YouTube when I was in my 20s we're constantly evolving and
changing and I don't think that there is an age limit of beauty or makeup or anything like that I
feel like you can be any age and still go after your dreams I think it's really inspirational
that she's aware of it but she doesn't let that hold her back in a way I feel like you have more
experience and more confidence and you fight for things harder I actually studied industrial design
and some of my classmates some of them were going back to school and I just always found
like the people who went back they really knew that that was their dream and that's what they
wanted and so they always worked extra hard even they had families to support to like sometimes
they would do the best projects out of everyone and I try to remind myself of that every time I
feel self-conscious about saying what my ages or you know just wondering if people will still be
interested in my channel at the end of the day like I'm still me I guess it's just my
hope that if I'm still making content that I like you guys will relate to it and that's what I hope
for her I hope that her audience really embraces that fact that she isn't just the same as all of
the other girls okay so I'm just going to take a blending color now I'm just going to do a little
transitional blend I feel like it actually has been quite a long time since I have talked about
what my journey was like you know some of you guys who have followed me a super long time you
know just the kinds of struggles that I grew up with there just wasn't a lot of diversity where
I grew up and so it was really hard because I was always made fun of for how I look now people would
especially make fun of my eye shade people always said oh you should get surgery girls when I was
younger if I'd go to sleepovers and everybody's playing with each other's hair I had some girls
say oh why does your hair feel like horsehair and it just made me feel really terrible I was like
this is just what my hair feels like it doesn't I don't think it feels like horse hair but if you've
only been around people who had really fine hair that was really really soft their whole lives it
just gives you this expectation of like oh there must be something wrong with me but I think that's
the beautiful thing about YouTube the fact that we can all be exposed to something else we can
see that the world is vibrant and diverse not everybody has the same eye shape or hair color or
hair texture not everybody has the same skin color and that's okay I wish I had somebody reassuring
me of those things when I was younger to sunshine it's also been a long time since I use a frosty
air color on my brow bone highlight but I think with this bright color it's kind of working it's
actually been such an incredible thing to see the online beauty community grow the way it has
you know because I feel like when I started there wasn't every kind of person to see but now there's
somebody that looks like everyone and it feels like every country has their beauty gurus to for
me and my daughter I hope that as she gets older she's not going to feel like afraid of how to put
on makeup or the implication of what that means you know I hope that she can just play around
with it and love it and be confident and share that with others too because there's nothing
wrong with just being your true self you know all right now I'm going to put on some eyeliner and
it's just really important to remember that you're not just a product of your circumstances you know
just because of where you're from how you look if your features don't fit into society you know
mine didn't either because this is such a strong look I'm taking a black pencil and I'm going to
mention some Tomatoes over lash line thank you so very end dramatic look so one of the reasons
I wanted to do like a really bold color is because sometimes I feel like I just kind of get stuck in
a makeup rut where I do the same thing every single day and I miss the creativity of just
trying new things all the time I feel like it's really important to constantly keep experimenting
and changing and evolving so that you don't end up just identifying with yourself with one look
somebody recently they asked me oh does Aria ever my daughter you're new to the channel I
have a baby she's just almost eight months old when somebody was asking me if she's ever like
surprised or doesn't recognize me if I'm wearing a ton of makeup or no makeup and I was like no she
actually hasn't because she's always watched me put on my makeup and be around her with makeup and
no makeup constantly but I think just as it would be for a baby looking at your face it's important
to get used to your own face whether you have on a lot of makeup or no makeup if you're comfortable
with yourself at different levels of makeup I think it helps you sort of accept yourself at
all stages as well actually that's one thing that I really liked about the Korean contestants is
I feel like western style of makeup like a how I wear makeup there's so much eye shadow and there's
so much like strong eye makeup but they usually go really sort of soft and mild very natural on
the eyes sometimes it is really nice to just see really beautiful skin that's what I noticed about
all of the Korean girls is they have really lovely skin I'm sort of like ah teach me your
ways so I'm currently in the middle of growing my eyebrow hairs out to be a little bit fuller
so I've just been using my brow gel I'm gonna do a bushy brow see today my eyelids have been in this
really weird in-between state where they're not like fully monolith they have this little crease
and so when I do metallic or shimmery eyeshadow and I blink it gets all up in my eyeliner does
that ever happen to you guys if it does let me know in the comments because I feel like
it's probably a really common problem because the eyes are already red I'm gonna stick with
more like brown shades for the cheeks I like that contour I'm going to take a pinky highlighter to
go with sort of the red eyes like I said instead of blush we're just going to add a little paint
it's actually so exciting for me to have Korean Beauty just sort of like migrate around the world
like it has my mom was always into skincare when I was growing up more than makeup she also has
amazing skin it's so fun for me because I have this whole other country's makeup style to be
inspired by let's see what are we gonna do for your lips feel like I've really been into the
gradient lip thing but maybe I'm going to try something a little more extreme I'm realizing
that if you decide to do red eye shadow you have to be really careful to have lipstick match the
red of the eye shadow now I'm going to add just a little bit of powder to set some of the extra
dewy parts of my feet all right so I think that's good good ready to go for the day you guys stink
I think why are things I like is that I didn't use any blush sometimes we feel like we need to
do like every single step to the full extreme if we're doing a full makeup look but sometimes it's
nice to just kind of like skip one section and just analyze how everything looks since we're so
bold on the lips and the eyes I just sort of went very neutral on the cheeks and I think it balances
it out really well so I guess this is the final look I really hope you guys enjoyed watching and
I do want to say one more time no matter what your dream is even if you feel like you're not
perfectly beautiful or if you feel like you're too old or you just don't fit in you know don't
let that hold you back really anything is possible and you won't ever know until you try so I hope
you guys enjoyed watching if you did then don't forget to hit that thumbs up button specially
if you want to see more of these chitchat e get ready with me and I will see you in my next video