Always knew one day I'd end up here.
Just never thought it would be like this.
WOMAN YELLS
Is it even mine?
Probably best I give her a minute, eh?
Four weeks prem.
This is one delivery that caught me unawares.
But now I'm here.
We're here, about to...
This is nuts.
The more I think about it, it's just nuts.
I mean, me...
..a father?
What could I possibly know about it?
Coming from where I come from, like, every man that you see walking past
on the street, every black man,
you're wondering if that could be him.
When I was ten, my mum sat me down and she made me promise
that if I ever had a child, never to abandon it.
So I did. I promised.
I told Lisa that I don't think I'm ready.
The timing ain't right.
Sleepless nights start from then.
To have her next to me so close
but at the same time just distant...
..that's when a new fear sets in.
I couldn't lose her.
I'd be mad to give up on that.
She saved my life.
She laughs when I say it, but straight.
Ain't no future for a man on road.
Not a good one, anyway.
Then she came.
Showed me a new way to be.
Provided me with a purpose.
A smile I never earned before.
Seeing that baby for the first time up on that scan was like...
tiny. Like a little blueberry.
Man...
Nothing prepares you.
Soon after, we started playing the name game.
She vetoes anything that sounds like it could be a rapper.
Lisa's got jokes, except for when I tell her I want a girl.
Tells me that for parents, fathers in particular...
"Girls are a headache that last a lifetime."
I said, "Cool, that's a price I'm willing to pay."
But she just harasses me and harasses me until I cave and say...
"If it's a girl, then there's less of a chance
"of her ending up like me."
Me and mine.
WOMAN CRIES
One last push.
SHE YELLS
SHE MOANS
I can see the head.
Push, Lisa, push!
I can see it!
Lisa... Lisa, you did it!
You did it.
Why's there no sound?
There should be crying.
Shouldn't there?
A sadness of life.
It's only when we fear we might lose something,
we finally realise how much we really wanted it in the first place.
BABY CRIES
My little boy, Blue.