It actually is, ultimately, the spiritual impulse within every single human being
which is the
another impulse
which is for existence
to be completely conscious of itself.
Your spiritual
yearning is
belongs to
the deepest nature of reality,
its desire to become fully conscious of itself,
that's the spiritual impulse.
That impulse transcends the impulse to be or to exist!
It is deeper than that!
And although for all of us,
certainly initially and for quite some time usually
we all have our own or what we think of as personal desires, personal reasons to be involved in our spiritual search,
ultimately the spiritual search does not belong
to our personal agenda,
it belongs to Life, Life's desire to become fully conscious of itself.
And it will do whatever it takes in order to accomplish that! Have you noticed?
That's why that impulse or that desire sometimes will lead you in places that you really like,
and sometimes it will lead you through things you really don't like.
Really nice graces and really fierce graces (?)
Because it will do whatever it has to do
to become conscious of itself.
Enlightenment is when the absolute nature of reality
is conscious of itself.
That's what it is.
All the almost infinite variety of spiritual experiences notwithstanding
because our consciousness can produce an almost infinite variety of inner experiences,
in fact, your consciousness is producing this experience right here.
This experience right here has been produced by your consciousness.
The consciousness is manufacturing in a certain sense this experience.
But beyond its infinite capacity to
have infinite variety of states of being, of states of experiences
the ultimate aim of the spiritual impulse is not to have any particular experience,
it is for existence to become fully conscious of itself.
If you have a couple of mind-bending experiences along the way, well and good, OK.
If you don't it doesn't really matter!
Existence simply wants to be conscious of itself!
And that's what everybody experiences.
By the way, it's doing that in everybody.
It's not doing that in just like spiritual people on the spiritual path. It's doing it in everybody.
Every single one of us.
And
there is only temporary rest
you know, like those rest stops on the highway
there are temporary rests only until existence is conscious of itself.
Then it rests, then you don't feel the push and the drive anymore.
Because it has accomplished what it set up to accomplish.
It doesn't mean therefore for you to sit back on your chair and don't have anything else to do in life
or there is no more understanding to come in life or anything like that
or you've sort of attained some heavenly state.
It simply means that life
or the absolute nature of reality has become conscious of itself
therefore the drive to do so is no longer necessary and it drops away.
And what drops away with it, of course, is the desire also to exist, to be.
And so in a way life uses all of these things,
the desire to be, the desire to exist, and the deeper desire to be ...
life to be fully conscious of itself, it uses all of this to accomplish
its primary
function
to become fully conscious.