The ego is a master at making up a crystal ball of a world
in which there are many perceived problems.
There's not only a body and bodies, but there are all these problems
that are made with one reason, and that's so you won't turn to the light
that you won't go within and go to the light.
I was watching Jiska
You're just enjoying watching us all here, and you're over in the Netherlands
and you're sitting there with your butterfly wings in your beautiful hammock
and smiling and laughing and everything.
And meanwhile, on the other side of the planet
there's Helena Elias, who's also joining in with us too.
And what's going on with Helena and Jiska is both of them are feeling called by God
into this deep journey into Oneness.
And Jiska has children, and Helena has children.
And the mind of Jiska is thinking
Yeah, I'd really love to wake up to God and follow my heart and go for it and everything,
but I have these children.
And I know that if there is going to be a plan for waking up
I don't know how this is going to go.
Because with children, I have a lot of beliefs
in the crystal ball, in the mind,
that I'm a mother
that children need their mother, and so on and so forth.
And Helena is over there too.
Most of the people on the screen you're looking at
you're thinking: they're not going through the same thing.
They're being called by God, but they don't have children
that they're responsible for.
Jiska has written in a beautiful long prayer
where she's like: Please, Holy Spirit
You know I want to come home to you, but I don't know how.
You're going to have to guide me because I don't know
how I'm going to unwind from this self-concept that I made up.
You're saying to the Holy Spirit
Yeah, some of these other ones that are in community
They're following their guidance, and good for them.
Yeah, good for them, they don't have children, you know.
You're saying my degree of difficulty is much greater than these other ones.
It's like, wow, I've got to really perform some kind of maneuver here
with the Holy Spirit's help to get me out of what I perceive I am.
And remember, the first principle of the Course in Miracles is
there's no order of difficulty in miracles.
One miracle is not harder than another.
And you are beginning to feel this like
Wow, I'm called by God, and it can't be that the circumstances
that the ego invented have put me in a more difficult trap
than other people. It can't be that way.
Why? It is because the crystal ball is just a crystal ball
and you have to see it for what it is, no matter what you believe.
Construction worker, father, mother, sister, brother.
Whatever you believe you are in time and space is really irrelevant to the Holy Spirit and Jesus.
Because they're representing God
and God is saying: You are a perfect child of God
and you're only going to be happy in your environment, which is Heaven.
This is a wake-up call and regardless of how you perceive yourself in that crystal ball
I am calling you out of the world.
There are no harder or more difficult circumstances to realize who you are
because God didn't generate or create any of those circumstances
and God loves you so dearly that if you even came close to this light
you would just weep in gratitude
and say: Oh my God I can't believe I thought those thoughts about me
and I can't believe that I was this... whatever that was,
I don't even know what that crystal ball is anymore.
You would just cry and weep as you got closer to that Light.
And what Jesus is telling us
He's saying: No, no, no. don't look to that darkened glass, don't
Don't keep thinking these thoughts and believing these beliefs.
In fact, just today, Lynn Robin Miller from the United States
she wrote this poem called 'Over the Abyss'.
This abyss is the crystal ball of time and space.
I walked to the edge of the abyss
Ego bid me look down,
See!
a vast, vast nothingness stretching out to eternity.
Ego said, this is what you'll encounter.
If you take one more step.
The end of the world, as you've known it, of your separate identity.
The complete dis-illusion of all you've come to be.
My breath quickened as terror struck like a blade.
And I trembled as I contemplated the end of what I thought of as me.
Ego screamed:
It's time to step back.
Don't fall.
But in my right ear
I did hear a call.
That sounded like music of a grand symphony.
And I floated over the abyss
on its holy melody.