-W
you know what I mean, hungry, kind of like my body
is kind of weak, so much going on, so much noise.
You know what I mean? And again, who's there to control it?
Nobody's in there to control it but us, right?
Think about it, man. If you get into a one dude,
you might have to get into a six or seven.
You get what I mean?
So how you going to sleep comfortable?
Man, your safety is definitely at risk because like I said,
it's nobody that's monitoring you.
And it would only take 3 seconds to get stabbed.
It's mentally exhausting. You know what I mean?
As a former CO, man,
I definitely can't believe the [BLEEP] I'm seeing.
Do you want to leave the program?
Yeah. Yeah, I'm ready.
Man, I think I'm ready. I'm ready to go home.
You going to go back, and within about 45 minutes,
your name is going to get called to pack it up.
Okay.
And that's when you've made bond.
Okay.
Thompson ... Thompson ...
-Yeah. -Pack it up.
[ Chatter ]
Y'all boys be smooth, man.
[ Chatter ]
After I gave the signal, I'm trying to distract myself.
[Indistinct] bro.
[ Chatter ]
There's always going to be a element of threat.
[ Chatter ]
You are not going to get the adequate ...
the help that you really, really need.
Next thing is, I'm going to start having chest pains.
[ Chatter ]
I got to go.
-[ Chatter ]
Hey, take it [Indistinct].
It's getting cold in here.
[ Chatter ]
It's getting cold in here.
[ Chatter ]
Lemann.
-Who?
-Lemann. -Lemann.
[ Chatter ]
-How you doing? -Man, I thought I ...
I don't know. I thought it would be easy, man.
All them 20 years that I did don't mean nothing
when it comes down to being in this environment.
Do you want to leave the program?
Man, I just feel like I'm
letting a lot of people down
because I've done all these years,
and I was this badass when I was on the line.
I ain't him no more. I'm not him.
Yes. I want to leave the program.
-Okay.
-Hi.
-How are you? I'm Sara.
-Brittany. -Nice to meet you.
-How long are you here. -I'm here for 75 days.
Now, I got maybe 60, 67 or something.
Sara is bubbly, very charming and just a sweet girl ...
Where you from?
I'm from Minnesota. What about you?
-I'm from Atlanta. -You are, Atlanta?
-Atlanta, Georgia. -Atlanta, Georgia.
... kind of out of place. She was just so ...
which is pleasant. It's pleasant, and it's needed.
I'm telling you. They are so cool.
The girls love her here because she's a sweet girl.
Gosh, I love that.
But I didn't feel as if she was an inmate.
The rice that I like, it's like Spanish rice.
Yeah, yeah, and ...
They got good cabbage. Wait until you have the cabbage.
Do y'all like my flower? [ Chatter ]
Good night. Good night. Good night.
Yeah, Sara does definitely seem a little too happy
to be in jail,
a lot of things that lead me to believe
that she's definitely a participant in the program.
[ Chatter ]
Goodnight, Sara.
[ Chatter ]
Sara, I got you figured out.
Jamil, now his just story won't make no sense.
I don't try to sugarcoat [BLEEP].
You know what I'm saying?
He stays in his bunk. He stays to himself.
That's someone who also
is ultimately watching and observing.
I told him. I said,
"Man, you'd better stop wearing that damned towel on your head."
He said, "It's a habit." I said, "Man, you'd better
take that damned towel off your damned head."
We ain't the same type [BLEEP], so it's like we too different.
I just felt like something wasn't right about him.
I always ...
I just felt like it was police. You know what I'm saying?
We came out to gen population,
and as soon as we come out there,
these girls are arguing, and I'm like,
"What the [BLEEP] is going on? What is going on?"
I have no idea what even sparked it.
You can't come to me and say what the [BLEEP] you said
to whoever you said it to. Then don't speak on me.
I'm grown as [BLEEP]. Can't nobody tell me
who the [BLEEP] to talk to, who not to talk to.
-[Indistinct]. -Don't be a stud!
You can't be a stud and a bitch at the same time [BLEEP]!
I do think that they are going to get overly aggressive.
-I'm not the [BLEEP] one, girl. -You [BLEEP] all the way up.
Calm down.
I don't care who you talk to, bitch!
[ Chatter ]
When RiRi and Smiley got into it
waiting for something to pop off,
I'm just waiting for somebody to throw hands, really.
[BLEEP].
Real talk, you got the wrong bitch now!
-Shut the [BLEEP] up, ho! -And I'm like,
"Girl, you know how I am. You know me from the 'hood.
You know I don't play this lip
[Indistinct] [BLEEP]. I don't do this.
You don't know who the [BLEEP] you are playing with,
ho, real talk!
And she ... I don't know what's wrong with her.
She cuckoo for Cocoa Puffs.
You are going to see me, bitch! Stay the [BLEEP] upstairs!
-Oh, no [BLEEP]! -Stay the [BLEEP] upstairs!
This place is nuts. This is crazy.
I do get a little bit like, "Oh, my gosh.
What's going to go down?"
Stay the [BLEEP] upstairs, bitch!
Have that [BLEEP] say [Indistinct]
came up running!
Bitch, get the [BLEEP] out of here!
When RiRi comes down the stairs, I'm like,
"Is she going to really beat some ass?" She was pissed.
[ Chatter ]
[BLEEP].
[Indistinct]! I'm downstairs, bro!
Who going to move me? I want to know.
Who is going to move this [BLEEP], 135 soaking wet?
No [BLEEP] body!
What the [BLEEP] you talking about?
[BLEEP] got to stop playing with me, bro!
I ain't with that [BLEEP].
[ Chatter ]
All y'all talking [BLEEP], blowing smoke. Real talk!
[ Chatter ]
Damn. These ladies need to calm down,
which, granted, some people don't have emotional control.
-She went in her room. -It took me off guard, for sure.
With all of these fights happening and disturbances,
the temperature goes from zero to 100 real quick.
I'm just letting my heart settle down.
[ Chatter ]
I'm just saying, though, gang ...
I signed the paper, but I ain't hold onto it.
I'm just saying,
[BLEEP] talking about some weird [BLEEP].
-What is it to you? -I'm just ...
But I'm just telling you like [Indistinct]
but if I'm pressing you, bro,
you would have known, bro, for real.
I would have never got me no problem.
I'm telling you, bro.
That's cool. If I was, you would have known, too.
Oh, [BLEEP].
I'm not going nowhere. I'm right here.
Damn.
You don't want to go home, my [BLEEP]?
[Indistinct] I've been in about 12, 13 fights now.
If I was on that type of time, you have known, though.
I'm not pressing. If I was pressing, you would know.
I said, "You would know, too." This is not ...
I see right through you, dude. You soft.
I understand what he saying. I understand what you saying.
-[BLEEP]. -Calm on down, brother.
-Huh? -Calm on down.
He ain't been in nobody's business,
trying to listen and being nosy
and all that [BLEEP]. Then you can press him like that.
I really don't care. It's really just some funny [BLEEP], though.
All right, then.
Go in there, and tell them to pull you out, though.
[ Chatter ]
I put myself in a dangerous situation,
and I really don't have a choice. But I have to wait
and see if he's the type of guy that will let it go
or if this is the start of something.