you guys look what just got here!! oh my gaaaaaad
my ukulele is here :D
So I got a uke :D
I'm so excited, it wasn't supposed to arrive for a few more days,
and it got here two days early!! and now this is all I'm going to... do let's open it!
Let's see what's inside of it: a bunch of accessories, but most importantly
iz the uke <3
It comes with a little case... I just find it really funny that--
I find it really funny that the logo is "horse"... like it's just horse... *horse*
Okay, it feels like a pretty sturdy and padded one [the case].
Here is the bad beeeeesh ~
*awk silence*
*horse*
I'm ready to hear the first little strum, you ready?
It's obviously not in tune..
I got a tanner uke, which is the biggest one. This is 26 inches and it has like
the deepest sound... so I like the uke sound, but the smaller ones are like too high for me.
HORSE
I think all I know is that this is "c"??
okay so let's go and try and tune it
So it's been like a week since the last clip because....
I'm me -_-
and I gotta tune this thing again..
So I have a very addictive personality okay? I cannot count how many different like. things I've
tried to get into over the past, I don't know, 24 years... that's how old I am. I've wanted to have
a hobby since I was little and I just cannot stick to anything. I'll get like almost manic, like,
I'll get into something and I go crazy over it and I'll lose sleep thinking about it and normally I'm
pretty good with money but when it comes to like these little-- little obsession sessions I will
just like click, click and buy, click and buy. I decided that I needed this uke that day and that
day I placed an order on amazon, just like that I was in. I've done this with so many other things,
for example, polymer clay: I decided I wanted to make clay earrings and that I was going to sell
clay earrings. Spent like $200 on supplies and clay, made like three pairs, and decided I suck.
And then I put all those supplies and polymer clay in a box to die... Um, language! I love languages:
wanted to learn a bunch, spent a whole bunch of money on a language learning app,
I was obsessed with it for like a wee,k and then [now] every night at 8 pm it sends me a notif
to tell me to come practice, and every night I'm like nope, that is none of my business (:
And like, I didn't sign up to be this way but for some reason, unless I become a genius at
something that I just started it's like I'm not-- I suck, and I'm not worthy of doing it. And then
I lose complete interest and then that's it, I just don't do it anymore because apparently,
I have to be perfect at something in order for it to be worthy which I know is not true...
This is what I managed to learn that one day, the first day that I got it:
*sings/plays I'm Yours by Jason Mraz painfully*
I spent like hours playing it, my fingertips were busted.
I also cut my nails completely to like the bone, whatever, and then it's been so long
that they grew back lol and now I have a hard time doing some of the cords so...
I will not give up on you.... but I will probably.
*horse*
Anyway, does anyone else experience this whole addictive? obsessive? personality and how do
you deal with stuff like this? because I would like to have a hobby, I would like
to learn skills without beating myself up and without spending money on dumb sh*t...
{well not dumb, it's not dumb,
it's just that I make it dumb because I never touch it again so it becomes useless}
Any tips and tricks on how to not be me? I mean, okay, let me just spin this back into
society because I feel like there's something there, there's got to be something there
where society messed me up. Like I feel like with a lot of things when I was little, there wasn't a
lot of things that I did just for me, like, even when I was forced to play piano it was about...
you had to show it off, like, you had to do well for the little performances that we put on where--
I'm gonna make another video talking about this because this pisses me off, but like
they force these kids into taking music lessons and they start them off with like these boring
ass songs, there's nothing in it for the kids, it's just boring, and then they force you to
keep playing them, they don't really teach you enough to figure it out on your own,
and play your own songs, you just spend all this time being bored, and hating it instead
of actually enjoying what you're doing, and it has to be performance, like, you have to go and
get awards, and it's like it has to be this whole thing.. why can't it just be me having
a guitar and playing in my room for fun, why does it have to be me fooking learning mozart..
how would...
imagine playing mozart on a guitar LOL has somebody
done that that would be really funny to hear
okay maybe I can't blame society but I'm also really done with trying to blame myself too
because I feel such a lack of sense of control about stuff like this, and I'm constantly looking
for explanations that maybe will help me stop being like this. but I'm tired of being like
"oh you're just lazy, oh blah blah" because I feel like this is reached way beyond lazy
right? like, there isn't anything in this that I can be lazy about
you know what I mean? like I feel like you use lazy for things that you have to do but you
don't want to do, but this is not something I HAVE to do, this is purely meant for my
own enjoyment and for the joy of learning a new skill and I still can't do it..so... >:(
how do people sing and play stuff at the same time just *applause*
~the talent ~ okay because it feels like my brain is splitting into like three
no but for real, why is it that everything that I do I have to be immediately good at,
otherwise I just lose interest, why can't I suck and also enjoy it.. like
singing, I suck at singing but it's fun
I wish I could say that I was a jack of all trades and a master of none but,
I'm not... I'm not a jack of sh*t, I'm like a dip-my-toe-in-a-bunch-of-different-things
and be like never mind....
I'm... I don't know if I have a point
lol