A year after I found my grandmother,
I was diagnosed with PTSD.
I'm lazy, I don't like to clean, I don't follow through
with a lot of things.
The problem that's going on
does have to do with being diagnosed with PTSD.
I can't find peace and the anger is almost constant.
I'll throw things, fight, scream,
anything just to feel like I'm being heard.
(bleeps) you!
You only care about my health when, what?
You don't do something I ask you to do.
Some people might view the way I speak to my parents
to be verbal abuse, but it's usually just how I talk
with my best friends.
I feel like my family really doesn't want to help me
the way I need the help.
My parents feel like I should be responsible,
be able to pay my own bills and have my own place,
but it's not that easy for me
with everything I've been through.
My mom can be overbearing and naggy.
Rick can be an (bleeps)
My temper since my grandmother's death towards my family
has gotten way worse.
They don't support me.
They don't come around.
And I feel like I'm left alone and locked away.
A month after my grandmother's death
I was dating someone, and got in an argument
and then busted out the front windshield of her car
with a baseball bat and got a vandalism charge.
I smoke pot everyday because it does help me.
It's that instant gratification when (bleeps) gets bad,
just to take a few drags, relax.
I'm a great father, when I get mad I yell, curse,
throw things, pick up your toys you little (bleeps)
He'll be like, I'm not that.
And we'll laugh and you know,
he'll start picking up his toys
and he gets it that Dad's pissed.
The reason I am so angry and feel volatile all the time
is 'cause I feel like I don't have family
and that support that I need.
Okay, good to meet you.
You too sir, yes.
So you say that you have the anger your have
and feel frustrated because you don't have
the family support that you need.
Yeah, I don't feel like I'm around them enough.
And also with the PTSD, I was diagnosed with IED.
Intermittent Explosive Disorder.
Right.
I'd like to admit that, it's probably why I get volatile
and the language, not the PTSD, 'cause those don't add up.
You know, the way I act and whatnot.
But for the Intermittent Explosive Disorder, it does.
And I think that also has to go with history
even further back than my grandmother.
You say you've had about a dozen jobs,
but nothing really stuck.
Right.
But you're 32.
Yes sir.
And, you're not self sustaining.
You're not self supporting.
Yeah, very not self motivated,
very get depressed real easy, yeah.
I mean yeah, I admit everything that going on here,
and everything that was said, yeah.
You acknowledge that they do provide particularly,
your mother provides a lot of support with your son.
Yeah.
Buys groceries.
Yeah, she does everything that I need,
she does do for me, yes, I do.
And I am happy for that.
But there are some things, you know like,
that whole ice cream bit and candy,
and same things as usual, that part, let me explain that.
Archer all day had heard the ice cream truck
and I had missed it.
So I asked her those specific things,
well the regular stuff,
chicken nuggets or whatever
and can you please get some ice cream or candy for Archer.
Well I said oh yeah, Mimi's gonna get it for you.
And you know, I promised my son that.
So him not having that, I felt so bad I couldn't get that,
you know what I promised him to have.
And that's what set me off with that situation.
Well Elaine says she's fed up
with AJ's constant verbal abuse.
Let's listen to one of these many voicemails.
This is just picked one, here's one of the voicemails.
You stupid bitch.
Archer's been asking for ice cream and candy
for two (bleeps) days now.
And don't ask me well give me a list of what you want
if you're not gonna (bleeps) bring the things I do put down.
Just bring whatever the (bleeps) you want
and don't ask me what do I want next time, okay?
It makes (bleeps) a whole lot easier.
The reason (bleeps) is never good enough, Mom,
is 'cause you don't listen and do what I ask.
Pretty much, yeah, I'll admit
that is the situation I'm talking about exactly.
Okay, now this is somebody doing you--
A favor, exactly.
A favor.
But when she asks me what do I want,
can you write me a list, I expect,
you know, she's asking me what I want.
So here it is on the list.
I was expecting--
But you say you don't feel bad
about her doing these things or your family
doing these things 'cause you say
this should be your primary level of support.
Well you would think so, with everything that's going on.
You're talking about your grandmother.
Well, my grandmother, yes.
By the way, I'm very sorry for your loss.
Oh, that's gonna make me cry.
Well I'm very sorry.
She was apparently a great lady.
Incredible woman.
Yes.
Incredible.
And I'm sorry that that happened.
Hang on, hang on.
Can we take those off?
Yeah, we'll take 'em away.