I think from the time I hit the floor I knew that I would never walk again
I couldn't see my legs I couldn't feel them I just thought that I'd actually been cut in half.
It was just a terrible, terrible feeling.
When I first was asked to go and see a psychologist
I was actually scared because I thought I was going nuts.
I couldn't understand why I couldn't stop crying
but he explained that I was suffering from post traumatic stress
When I talk like this
about my accident
it's like talking about somebody else
I know it was me, but I find it very hard to understand.
It is as if you're a part player in a play the main character in it
but you just don't understand the part you're playing
I can understand some people how it might change your life but
it doesn't for me because
that's the way I am
Well I miss work yes defiantly but
Yes I do miss work a lot
Moving about
Mending thins and such like
yes
As the words come out of the persons mouth that is telling you it
you don't really believe what he's saying
and you think you're going to come out of a dream or they're only joking, they're going to break into a smile and go no I'm only joking
for a split second I mean then suddenly it dawns on you what they're saying
the full reality of what they're saying is hitting you.
It's terminal
There's no medical cure for it
I just couldn't believe it
because he was so strong
he was just invincible
and
if he'd been in this room with us
he would have filled it with his personality
and you think someone that strong you couldn't snap it out
you couldn't just snuff it out like that
I can't describe the loss of him
because I cared for him so much
and I know he cared for me
I'll always remember that it was a beautify, beautiful sunny day
My daughter had visited with the grandchildren
and I just though I couldn't be happier.
And even now I remember that feeling of total happiness
Until the phone call
that Scott had a fall
on site
I phoned the hospital
they eventually phoned me back and told me the bad news
and it's something you'll never forget your life will never ever be the same again
never be as happy as I was that Friday morning
He was a shining star
he used to make me laugh
and you just miss the joy
Martin and people like him are the backbone of this country
they don't take anything from anybody for nothing
They just go out and try and earn a living
and look after their families the best they can
and they deserve more it shouldn't be happening
and I wish I could undo it.