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So today is the day, you guys, we got to get to Amsterdam and we have to pack!
I am so, like, I don't even know what to put. I'm terrible at this and it's gonna take me a little while,
but look I've got so far, heey! Uh, socks, jeans and pyjamas!
Sooo, half dressed! Okay let's get into it!
So we officially made it to LAX. We're here. We have three bags, you guys, three bags of stuff!
And now we're just waiting in this huge line to get on the airplane
and sleep and eat and prep for my panels.
So, here we go!
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You guys, we made it to Paris! Super sleepy.
I didn't get tired until, like, the last hour
I think because it was, you know, like 2:00 a.m. our time.
Guys, I just did something silly
I tried to call my mom because I was forgetting about the time difference.
Well, not really forgetting about the time difference but thinking that it was, like, the reverse of what it is
so I just called her house and left a message at 3:00 in the morning.
So I guess that's what sleep deprivation does so make sure you sleep, you know, cause being up...
cause to me it's like 3:30 in the morning and I haven't slept at all, and clearly I'm not making good decisions!
So, last leg of the trip, we're on our way from Paris to Amsterdam. It's just like a little over an hour, thank god!
And I couldn't be more tired. I've never pulled an all-nighter,
and I know I was in school for a long time, but you know me, I'm super organised!
*music*
Good morning, everybody! We did our best, we stayed up to like 8:30, I think
tried to sleep in as much as we could. It's weird because I, like, didn't sleep,
I essentially pulled an all-nighter, and didn't sleep at all
and so you think you'd be like "Oh my god, sleep so deep for ever and ever!"
But, no, you like wake up a few times, your body's like all confused
and I woke up and was like "Breakfast?!" and it was like 3:00 in the morning
and so now it's like 7:00 in the morning which is the more, you know
normal time to get breakfast, but all of you know that I don't like mornings,
so now I feel, like, super productive! Our hotel is awesome!
Everybody's super nice and super helpful.
Also it's a little too high-tech for us, and so Sean and I both woke each other up
turning all of the lights on and opening the blinds
because they're all connected to the same, like, it's the edge of the bathroom, like
all we're trying to do is go pee in the middle of the night!
So we're gonna have to call them or at least go down and ask them like
"Hey how do we just turn on, like, a toilet light?"
And if we can just leave that on like a nightlight, that would be helpful.
Because otherwise it, like, opens the blinds and turns on all the lights!
It's called 'the welcome light package'
Oh, look! This is where we are going! How do I zoom in on this?
(Sean) You can really zoom in on this one, too.
You guys, that's what I'm going to meet all of your beautiful faces!
*a lot of inaudible overlapping*
(Tyler) Thank you so much!
(VidCon guy) Do you know about Grace?
(Kati) Yeah!
(VidCon guy) She got sick.
(Tyler) She's no longer with us.
*a lot of inaudible overlapping*
*Something about sponsors*
(Tyler) Audible?
(Kati) I know!
(John) That's such a great idea!
(Kati) It is a really great idea!
(Tyler) It's on camera!
(John) I mean I.. yeah.. that's..
(Tyler) This old brain..!
(John) We need a sponsor!
(Tyler) Sponsored by Comedy Central!
(Kati) Yeeeees!
(Tyler) The Comedy Central VidCon roast!
(John) The Comedy Central VidCon roast of Tyler Oakley. Do you volunteer?
(Tyler) I just got chills!
*Music, crowd cheering*
(Tyler) Bonjour!
(Kati) Good morning! Thanks for getting up and having us!
(Kati) Does your community have a name?
(John) Our community does have a name, and I think it's probably an artifact of when we started on YouTube.
Although the initial naming of the community was done by members of the community.
I was playing a video game that I said was called "Nerdfighters",
and a bunch of people in comments were like: "A nerdfighter! That sounds like me!"
(Tyler) I don't have a name for my people, I always just call them my people!
I never had a name, and that was, like, a thing that some youtubers were, like, starting to do.
I was like: "Comment below if you have an idea!"
And everything was ... not right!
It was like 'The Oaklianators!" I'm like: "Let's not do that!"
Then I just ended up saying, well, these are my people!
Because to me, like, these are the people that get me, that's what I've always said.
(Kati) I have mental health channel, so I'm a licensed therapist
*Crowd cheers*
And my viewers call themselves the kinions, and it was kind of a combination of things.
It was the fact that they wanted a name, and I did the same, like, "Well, what would we call you?"
I would say "I'm sorry I can't get to all your questions, I don't have minions!"
It's when 'Despicable Me' came out (Tyler) I love minions!
(Kati) I love them! And they're like *makes weird minion noises*
(Tyler) Yeah! We'll talk! (Kati) Yes, we'll totally talk!
And so I was like "I don't have a bunch of minions!", and so they're like Kati's minions - the kinions!
(Tyler) That's cute! (Kati) Yeah! I really, it's, grown on me!
(Tyler) I approve! (Kati) Yaaay!
VidCon Europe is off to a wonderful start, and now I'm gonna head over to the meet and greet
But first: coffee! You know important coffee is and how much I love it!
*music, inaudible speaking*
Are you guys having a good VidCon?
*crowd cheers*
Thank you guys so much, have a good VidCon! Do what you like to do! Don't give up!
*crowd cheers*
(Mamrie) That's the Dillionaire, baby! (Hannah) Sticky Ricky, tricky Ricky!
*crowd laughs*
(Hannah) Quickie Ricky.. (Mamrie) Okay, save your bedroom talk!
(Hannah) Og my god! I'm actually really, really excited about out next speaker
(Mamrie) Me, too!
(Hannah) Yeah, our next speaker is someone who is a personal friend
(Mamrie) Yes.
(Hannah) Kati has a mental health channel that I think is an incredible resource for a lot of people.
I think that she's gifted at sharing what she does in a way that's approachable, personable and delightful,
so please give it up to meet the one and only Kati Morton!
*crowd cheers*
Each night before you go to bed I want you to tell yourself five positive things.
Because, trust me, it has the power to change your mood and to change your life. Thank you so much!
*crowd and Sean cheers*
(Hannah) Kati Morton!
*music, crowd cheers*
Are you enjoying VidCon this far?
*crowd cheers*
Me, too! Amsterdam is so cool, my first time! *gasps* My kinions are right in the front!
And the really cool thing is that we have the power to change how those who struggle
get the and receive help that they so desperately need and deserve.
No one - I want you to hear this part - No one ever deserves to embarrassed or ashamed
for theirs or someone they love's mental health issue. We don't have to hide in the shadows anymore.
*crowd and Sean cheers*
So, I'm just gonna say it. I'm depressed.
So, I'm just gonna come out and say it. I have, for a large chunk of my life, struggled with eating disorders
You talked about kind of personal stuff in your video yesterday, Hank, so I guess I'l do the same.
I have a mental illness called obsessive-compulsive disorder
which is often associated with anxiety and depression problems.
I wanna dedicate this award to every kid out there who has mental illness.
I have bipolar depression and I was in rehab for an addiction.
And it told me to stop every day, but I kept fighting. And it told me that I was worthless, but I never gave up!
I have struggled with eating disorders, which feels so weird to say out loud, cause I don't say that out loud ever
Dealing with my alcoholic parent, it's an ongoing thing.
But I have a pretty severe case of body dysmorphia.
Now, I know what you're thinking: "Shane, why are you talking about this?"
And what a lot of you may not know is that I have suffered with anxiety
and panic attacks really, really badly since I was 14.
That problem is not that I want to die, it's just that I didn't slash don't care about being alive anymore.
But the doctor very quickly came to the assessment that: "Hey, you have severe depression!"
And that was pretty tough to swallow
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*crowd cheers*
It makes me tear up every time I watch that, because I want each and every one of you
to continue talking about it, because if we keep sharing our voice and we keep speaking up,
the stigma will be removed! Thank you so much!
*crowd cheers*
Wow, you guys, that was amazing! Thank you so much for those you who were able to come,
and I heard your cheers and I saw some of my kinions in the front row!
I'm still, like, coming down from it. I was really nervous and I know that it probably kind of showed,
but I really think the message resonated, and that's what I was really hoping for.
So I hope that you enjoyed it I hope you found it inspirational, gave you all the feels,
because you could tell it definitely gave me the feels. I was like:
"Pull it together, Kati! You gotta finish! You have a few things to say!"
And I kinda wished that I could just slink off and, like, cry on my own,
but I think it resonated, I think it landed with people, and that's all that really matters!
*laughing and talking*
Play it cool, play it cool!
*more laughing and talking*
I've had two panels this morning! One was a conversation about mental health.
It went really well. I got to reconnect with Tom you know Tom: Tomska!
We're going to film later, stay tuned for those, super excited!
(Tom) Oooh yeah. *Kati laughs* I'm really sad I can't make it to that Instagram boat ride.
(Kati) I don't like that they're trapping us on a boat. (Tom) Sure wish I was on that Instagram boat ride!
Instagram boat ride, Instagram.. *laughs*
Also then I had a panel about dealing with trolls and bullies online,
and then I have another panel later about controlling your career as a female creator,
and I get to be on with a lot of my friends and I'm excited and it'll be cool just to connect with people.
I'm having a really good time. I think something about coming to conventions...
Dodie said in our last panel, I thought it was really a great thing she's like:
You know, coming to these things is just really, like, recharging,
because you get to meet with your own people.
So I'm going to hop over grab some lunch real quick and then head on back
to the RAI Contention Center for my last, my very last panel of VidCon Amsterdam!
We've had such a good time here, and Sean and I are gonna stick around for a little while longer..
Sorry, I'm making sure I don't get killed by bikes. SO many bikes here, you guys! *Sean laughs*
And they give you, like, no warning! It's like *ding ding*, you're like:
"Shit! Omg, how did I end up in the bike lane? I thought I was on the walking part lane!"
It doesn't matter. Bikes rule.
We get to relax, right? Maybe I'll get a massage, maybe I'll get in the sauna. I don't know!
So many things to do to relax and recharge!
(Sean) How to speak Dutch with Kati Morton!
You will learn... absolutely nothing! Stay tuned!
*speaks.. Dutch? I guess?*
And we are making our way down to the boat, because they have a way to go
from our hotel to the convention center via boat!
And they are taking us on three boats, and they're taking us across... ooh there's even champagne I just noticed!!
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You guys, we're in the tallest... Europe's highest swing, and we're getting ready to go on it!
We just went up this crazy elevator, an we just took a boat tour, it's been a really amazing day, so far so good!
So, let's see who's gonna go first, who wants to do it!
(Kati) Are you gonna go? (Sean) Yeah!
Are you doing it? Are you gonna do it? *laughs* Diane, are you gonna do it?
(Diane) Oh, I can't even walk towards the fence! (Kati) Tyler, are you gonna do it?
*music, laughter, wind, general chatter*
(Tyler) Good luck!
Don't flip!
Wear seatbelt!
Oh, my god!
I feel fine!
*music, laughter*
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So that's a wrap on Amsterdam! We're catching the train back to the airport. *sobs*
Back to reality! Although I'm actually kind of ready to come back.
Sean and I have taken a few vacations like our honeymoon for two weeks.
I always feel like two weeks is the best amount of time for me. Because it takes me about a week
just to unplug and then, you know, the next week I get to relax and just recharge!
I think it's important to take breaks. If you don't take vacation, how are you going to come up with new ideas?
Because I'm excited, I have some new video ideas, I have some collaborations that I filmed while I was here,
so I'm just excited to get back into it and show you all what we created and what we're gonna create!
Cannot wait! And now we wait for the train and then we take an 11 hour flight home.
It's gonna be warm there I'm sure. If you can't tell, you can see my breath!
*Sean laughs*
Sean's ready to go to home, too!
*music, train noises*
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(Someone) ... two, one!
(John) Oh my god, Tyler! For.. for the men! Make it happen!
(Tyler) Wooow... let's unpack that!
*laughter*
(Tyler) See, like... (John) Tyler! Tyler! GO!
*concentration, laughter*
(John) Tyler... Jesus! OH MY GOD!
*cheering*
(Tyler) Men are over!
*laughter*
(John) That's it! We're done! Yeah... cancel it!
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