(air plane sounds)
I've been in the Air Force for 12 years now.
History was there right from the start.
My brother's in, dad is still in, so it's definitely a family thing.
It's just something, I guess, I was maybe a destined to do.
As soon as I joined, yeah recruit course it was definitely my thing.
I'm Megan Marshall
and I'm a logistics specialist in the Air Force.
I'm an MRP controller and I am responsible for buying the
consumable spares for the P3 Orion
so that involves buying nuts, bolts, washers,
the real little bits and pieces that hold all the bigger pieces on onto the frame
which are very crucial.
I can't think of anywhere else that I would rather be or work.
I really enjoy my job.
Early 2009, my right hand essentially just stopped working.
It started off by being numb
and then eventually I couldn't use my fingers properly,
I couldn't hold things
and I had a second relapse in September that year.
I started lisping and I couldn't speak properly,
and yeah that was the diagnosis after that
that I have MS.
They didn't put me on anything so I had to I had to go it on my own
basically and just try and manage it as best as I could but I wasn't managing it
because I wasn't facing it.
Being around people that just didn't know or didn't understand
that was a frustration of mine even though I wasn't their fault obviously,
but going through that was, it was really hard, yeah.
On a day-to-day basis, it's up and down.
I can't plan what it's going to be.
Mentally I struggle with it, I get quite down when I'm not feeling the best.
I beat myself up about it quite a lot, so that's a big thing for me to try and
overcome is the mental struggle.
I wouldn't talk to my friends, I wouldn't tell them how I was feeling
or anything like that
and I was shutting them out which wasn't good.
Me this year to previous me, I feel has changed massively
mentally yes, I still struggle every now and again
but it is so much better
and I put it down to being part of the Invictus team.
I was terrified to apply,
I was nervous, I spoke to my husband
a number of times saying, do you think I should do this?
I don't know if I'm gonna be good enough.
It was the fear of the - of rejection
and being told sorry you're not sick enough, we won't take you.
but I did it and (laughs) and here I am today
part of the team, loving it.
I love being in the gym.
I forget that I have MS.
I zone out of it completely
and I'm just so focused on what I'm doing
and how I'm feeling.
To be part of the event and to go to Toronto
and experience it all for the first time,
is so, so exciting.
To go over and to get behind the team
and to support everybody else
is the part that means the most to me.