You engage others in really combative exchanges,
but I don't engage that way.
CPS, that I have worked with for 45 years,
does not take a child from their mother
because of someone else's conduct.
CPS did not do that, they do.
Okay, your child's not with you,
because they make a determination
that he's better off somewhere else.
That's not a CPS decision.
It's their decision, and they will not follow a court order.
Shaela that's not true.
Let me tell you I'm...
I'm the least judgemental person I've ever met.
I don't know, maybe there's somebody out there--
Awesome.
That's different than that,
but I've formed some opinions of you
based on reading your pre interviews,
watching video tape, and listening to you right now.
And I'll tell you what I think and see.
You're obviously very intelligent.
You have a really big vocabulary,
and you're obviously very well educated,
so that means you have some great assets in life.
Absolutely.
You can be self sustaining and you can do well.
Absolutely.
I think...
Based on what I've seen so far,
that you're getting in your own way,
and I think that you're seeing the world
in a way that's made you be real combative.
You kinda go through like you're expecting to be attacked,
and I asked you what your accountability was,
and because I'm interested in your level of insight.
And insight is really critical here,
and you know that it is, right?
And it has to do with my children.
I know.
I've spent five years continuing being combative
over these people that truly were not,
did not need to be in my life.
I supported my family,
even the father of my son did not work.
Okay, okay, alright.
Okay, but hang on a second, hang on a second.
It truly has to do with my children.
No no no, stay with me, stay with me for a second.
Read this right here, read that for me,
read that out loud for me.
The ability to see and understand
why you do the things you do.
The ability to see oneself without distortion.
And I think that you're really lacking in that right now,
you're not really understanding
why you do the things you do,
because I think you did get sick, right?
I was very sick.
And I don't know what happened,
and I don't think you do either,
you have theories, but you don't know.
I look back at your history,
and I see that there's this longitudinal history
back before 2013 when you got a bad burger,
and it wound up with gallbladder surgery,
but I know before that there were some ups and downs.
Now they've become radical.
You have this R.V. that you were provided
for temporary housing, I mean that was a gift, right?
It's a FEMA trailer, the space is so small,
that I wanted to remove the doors.
I had some curtains hanging up.
This is actually pictures of right before I left,
it's looked much better than this,
this is the worst.
I hope so.
Tell me what tearing this panel out of the wall,
how does that give you more room?
It's paint.
I didn't tear anything out, it's paint.
And I had wanted that stove removed
because it doesn't even work, they won't remove it.
And you've got tape on crevices,
and you've removed light bulbs,
and you've removed switch plates,
and things because you felt that you were being monitored.