*bacon sizzling*
*egg cracking*
*cracking pepper*
ou this is my favourite
okay minus the bun
this is my favourite breakfast to have
i got my vitamin C
we got some broccoli, i don't know why we got some broccoli
we got some tomato and cucumber
and we got cute mommy!
we're having breakfast - brunch together
and then we're running some errands today
yay
i'm gonna bring you along
this is my makeup today. i actually tried for once
i actually put on makeup
and then we got our...
70's glasses
*mom talking to herself in the background*
yeah, it's fine
mom's like talking in the background
this is our little OOTD
simple, basic
vintage vibes, but not super super vintage
we got a little... maybe 70's? maybe 60's?
skirt's kinda 60's
this is like 80's/90's
boots are like, what? 90's.
glasses are like 80's
we just got a blend of a lot of different time periods
*jamming to typical radio station pop music*
*breathin' by ariana grande plays*
"I keep on drinkin"
hahaha
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it's so nice out, guys
it is december in toronto
and when it's above freezing, you're wearing nothing basically
like you're wearing bikinis outside in the winter when it's not snowing
it's literally 10 degrees celsius
and i was like "hey, i'm gonna wear fall clothing because that's fall weather"
for canada
Mom - look at this guy in the middle of the street, girl in the middle of the street on the bicycle Keara - so i'm wearing a leather jacket
Mom - pick a side! with that nose up in the air!!!
Mom - did you see her nose?
no!
she had this...
the snarly nose going on!
i could see up her nostrils into her brain!
YOU'RE a snarly nose!
i could see up her - she
and i could see right in, up to her brain
i don't know why she was like this, on her -
judgemental, much?
but why are you in my way?
Keara - true Mom - don't post that!!
hahahahaha
people!
people, everywhere
i love people
she clearly does
where am i going? oh.
where are we going now?
Mom - the big carrot!
THE BIG CARROT!
well they have a juice bar there so i'm gonna get a juice
that's why i'm coming, that's literally the only reason i'm coming
Mom - i'm getting a bean sprouter!
health.
folks. health.
i just got off the phone with my friend ryley
he's a photographer, he takes like all of my pictures for instagram
but um, yeah he's in LA right now just doing his thing, i'm really proud of him
and i love how often he calls me to like
just update me on what's going on
cuz i feel like some of my friends don't really do that. i don't really do that.
but it's so sweet that he's always keeping me in the loop on what's going on
shoutout to ryley, i love you ah!
i'm just sitting here
drinking health, because life is important.
this is avocado, date, macha, spinach, coconut water, and then i added MCT oil
which is like a healthy fat
it helps in energy, and digestion, it's really good for you
i feel like everyone's listening to me right now
actually, no, people are doing their own thing
i'm fairly new to vlogging so it's still very awkward for me to vlog in public
because people are looking at me like "what the hell are you doing?"
just talking to your phone
i feel obnoxious sometimes, but
i'll get over it
aw!
i love all the christmas lights!
*That I Miss You by Vansire playing*
*PLASTIC by sakehands playing*
ohhhh! this is a banger!
*Hot Hands by Darius playing*
do you ever just have dance parties by yourself though, in your house alone?
i do every single day
it's so fun
except i need to focus!
i was supposed to record like 3 videos today
and i did not do 1 single one
well, i did this video
but i kinda want sushi first
- hello! - thank you!
- you're welcome, have a good night - you too
ha ha ha haaaa!
okay i just filmed my first video
do you wanna see how i do my thumbnails?
so
i don't have anyone to take the picture for me
so i have my camera here. i focus it
i focus it on myself
and then i put it on a self timer
*beeping*
and then i just have to stay in the exact same position
and then do the thumbnail
ready?
*camera shutter*
yass!
i'm frustrated
my mic keeps popping
like, or it'll crackle
in the middle of the take, and sometimes it'll crackle a lot
and then i can't use the take
and i don't know what i'm doing wrong
if you guys know how to fix mics, or if you might know what's going on here
can you comment below? because
this has been happening for like a couple months now
and sometimes i'm lucky and it doesn't pop and sometimes it does pop
and it's not like a pop as in, i need a pop filter
it like - it's almost like static
or little like *click noises* clicks, ya know?
it's really frustrating so i'm hoping i can do this cover without it clicking
i'm gonna call sarah and see if she knows how to fix my mic
cuz i really wanna be productive!
"pretty mama sews..."
"stitches into all your b*tches broken hearts... you can pretend you don't -- "
*sigh*
i wish i didn't have anxiety
like
i know i'm a lot better than i was last year or two years ago
and i don't have an ongoing disorder anymore...
it's not gone
like i don't think it's ever gonna be gone
cuz like right when i think i'm doing really well
i have like, a relapse almost
also i feel like there's something about this weather change that is not good for my depression
i used to get depression in the winter
and i haven't for the past - last winter, i didn't last winter
and sometimes i get really scared that i'm gonna have it again
this winter
but i'm just gonna keep...
keep checking in on myself, making sure that i'm not getting stuck in any more bad brain habits, you know?
i think you just have to check in with yourself
sometimes i catch my heart beating really fast and i'm like "what's going on? like why is this happening right now?"
like everything seems to be fine, but my brain --
just the littlest things trigger me
like as much as i'm getting a lot better in terms of my mental health,
it doesn't mean it's always gonna be gone and it's always gonna be perfect
it comes back
from time to time, and recently it's been coming back often, but...
like i said, i feel like
i'm grateful that this is the thing i struggle with because a lot of people struggle with much worse things
like much worse, chronic things
so, you gotta count your blessings even though it's frustrating
sometimes cuz it's just like, why can't i just be in a good headspace right now?
why do i have to be freaking out about something that's not even happening?
today was a good day
i hung out with my mom, i got sushi
i vlogged
i got some covers - some videos done for YouTube
my cover ended up sounding okay, like there was a couple crackles in it but
it's not that bad
i hope you don't notice it
anyway
that's it for tonight
i'm just gonna maybe
edit one video
and then maybe watch netflix, or read, or meditate
or all of the above
and then go to bed
goodnight :)