with all of the drama that's been surrounding me I've been doing some
self-reflection and I definitely owe an apology what is up everybody this is
Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the problem but focus on the
solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is designed for anybody who
wants to improve their mental health so if any of that kind of stuff make sure
you subscribe and bring that notification bell so yeah during this
whole self-reflection period I've been looking back at some my old
content as well as looking forward with the new content that I've been making I
hope you guys have all enjoyed that but looking back at it I've seen some videos
here and there where I definitely screwed up and there was one in
particular that I made a few months ago and I want to address that now so a few
months ago Gabby Hanna went on another channel and
he interviewed her and this was during the whole Kenza cosmetics scandal thing
for those of you who don't know about that what happened was Gabby Hanna as
well as Tana mojo they promoted kenza cosmetics and you
know it was it was free shipping no no no the brushes were free and all you had
to pay for was shipping and it turned into this big ordeal because a lot of
people bought those brushes they're promoted at like an $80 value and they
really weren't but not only that but some people were paying more for
shipping and some people weren't even get in their brushes and Kenza cosmetics
didn't really do anything about it until the backlash happened but caught in the
middle of all this was Gabby Hannah because she was an influencer promoting
this to her audience and anyways Gabby Hannah ended up making a video
addressing this and all people were too happy about that
all right so anyways I never reached out to her to see if you wanted to do an
interview and clear the air which she did do and still to this day I will say
that Fraser aka I'm a bird did an excellent job one of the best interviews
I've seen on this platform and I wish you would do more of them because he he
nailed it but anyways the first thing I want to address is I made a video
video kind of breaking it down discussing it and one of the things that
I talked about is you know Gabi Hannah's you know apology and her remorse for it
and oh my god like looking back at that like this whole experience has made me
so much more empathetic to other Creators and like I'm sitting there
looking at that and like critiquing her apology and critiquing her you know
level of remorse and I look at that I'm like Jesus Chris like who are you to
critique this woman's apology because something I've definitely learned
through this experience is that you're never going to appease everybody you
just won't especially on this platform like I come from a 12-step background
where you make amends wherever possible but it's to recommence to those people
and some people accept it some people don't
but when you're making a public apology to thousands and thousands and thousands
if not millions of Gabby Hannah's case there's obviously gonna people be like
larger groups of people who accept it and larger groups of people who don't
but what I've realized looking back on this situation is there's no right way
to do it there's no right way to do it people will pick apart like remember
when they did the surgery on the grape and how tiny it was like people will
look for just one word one thing that you said so like that's just a whole
different interesting subject about youtubers and apology videos and how we
as people pick them apart and just try to analyze whether or not this person is
actually remorseful so for that Gabby Hanna I am truly sorry but anyways I was
inspired to make this particular video because the other day on one of my
videos I got a comment which I'll put up on the screen right here and it asked me
it asked me it says Chris like what are your thoughts on you discussing Gabby
Hanna's avoidance and not watching videos about her now that you've been
through this like are you watching videos about you and I wanted to address
that so those of you who don't know when I made the video about the interview
between Gabby and I'm a ver I discussed how Gabby talked about avoidance right
and how she doesn't watch any videos about herself she talked about how she
like removes you know the videos from you know YouTube like not from YouTube
but from her specific YouTube account because those of you who know who are
you know wondering why I keep popping up in your feed like you have to tell
YouTube I do not want to watch this so Gabby Hanna talked about how she keeps
doing that it's not watching the the critique videos about her and she also
mentioned hate videos which a lot of people got pretty riled up about but
anyways I was talking about how avoidance is not necessarily a good
thing and a lot of you asked me to make a follow-up video about avoidance now I
still stand by the fact that avoidance in many situations is a bad thing but
looking at my own situation and going through it like avoidance is definitely
something that we need to do when we are working on our mental health and
something that I've learned is that I've had to avoid things until my mental
state got into a better place like I actually hired my editor Zach to go
through my youtube comment sections the first week that I was back to just go
through all the hate comments remove block do whatever you had to do right I
told him to leave in the critiques but if it was blinking hate get rid of that
person you know and that's something I'll make a video about in the future
and how I kind of determine that because you know something I mentioned about
Gabby Hanna is we need criticism we need to know where we screwed up we need to
know where we can learn where we can grow and things like that and like
something I never want to do in my life is stay stagnant or just think I'm the
best you know anything that I do there's always room to grow but one of the
things that's difficult as a creator is when so much stuff is coming in it's
kind of hard to separate the critiques from the hate when you're getting
bombarded with it so in my case when all this drama started going crazy like I'll
be honest with you right now I did not watch any of those videos like
if your Creator who made a video about me I did not watch it well actually hold
on full transparency when ryan from crimson films was in town he he suckered
me into watching one video which I did and it was exactly what I
expected so I actually made a video about this I've made a video about this
it was about Angelica olds but it was about the commentary community as a
whole as well as crowd psychology and what happens is when there's a hot topic
every single commentator and drama channel hops on it
and it's all a bunch of just repeating the same things
so when wine was in town and he had me watched this video it was exactly what I
expected it was exactly what I expected it was people using clips of me out of
context telling me who I really am so yeah that's one of the reasons why I'm
not watching those videos and I still won't watch those videos like as many
videos that come out about me in the future I'm not going to watch them and
now you're probably asking yourself but Chris if you didn't watch the videos how
do you know if they were a critique or if they're a hate video well let me tell
you let me tell you this when you get caught in the middle of a controversy
don't worry you don't need to watch the videos alright my phone was constantly
blowing up every time a video was released about me where friends are the
creators and everything like that are either texting me or DME me to tell me
everything that's going on and it was everything that I thought was happening
and and like I said like I'm not gonna sit down watching all these videos
telling me who I really am telling me what my what my morals are what my
values are what my intentions are you know what I mean it's already bad enough
that you know they're influencing thousands if not millions of people but
I don't need to watch those but when it comes to avoidance like for that Gaby I
am sorry because now I truly understand that avoidance now what I'm doing for my
own personal mental health and if any of you struggle with avoidance like I said
there are certain things that you shouldn't avoid certain things that you
should when you're in a certain mental state I am easing my way back into it
okay some of you have noticed I've been a little bit more active in the comment
sections and things like that trying to get re-engaged with you know my
community my community the people who are here to work on their mental health
and want to prove their mental and emotional
well-being for the people who come here knowing damn well that I am NOT a
licensed professional I am under educated unqualified but I have had my
own mental health journey and there are some things that I discussed that might
be able to help some of those people out so if you're one of those people that is
for you and I am trying to engage with you in the comment section and as this
gets better and as I progressed through my own mental health journey it's
becoming easier to to talk with all of you and don't get me wrong there are
still hate comments coming in regularly but not nearly as much this video right
here might have sparked it up again but hey we'll have to wait and see but I
understand now that there's a certain resilience that you have to build up but
again this whole experience has made me just so much more empathetic to creators
and I plan on making more videos in the future with public apologies to creators
because now I get it now I understand and still I was only at
a hundred thousand right but some of these creators who are getting bombarded
they had millions millions of subscribers so I was only barely put
through it compared to what they were put through you know what I mean
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