Higehiro!
Why did Sayu run away?
What dark secret is she hiding under that smile?
Is it as horrible as you’ve heard?
Get ready for the truth her dark past is anything but wholesome.
So go ahead and colossal smash that like for Sayu.
I've been catching out with the Japanese light novel for this and let's dive into her past
demons.
Naturally this will have spoilers although keep in mind who knows if the anime is actually
gonna get to this stuff.
Also a warning depressing stuff coming up.
Diving into Higahiro volume four.
I'm going to give you this stuff as Sayu told this stuff to people close to her. The quick
abridged version.
In the story you actually have Sayu’s brother that shows up to pick her up.
He was actually the one keeping tabs at her at the 7-eleven all this time.
The brother tried to explain that mother is worried about Sayu.
To which Sayu quickly claimed that's a damn lie.
With all of this going on Yoshida actually called in sick for the first time to deal
with this.
He considered Sayu a higher priority than his job.
He wanted to protect Sayu smile from that fake smile she used to always force.
Apparently something had happened back where Sayu lived.
Sayu was now the one being suspected since she ran away from her parents to which it
felt like they wanted Sayu back to really clear up the whole mess that was now being
blamed on the family.
For this Yoshida asked to delay going back home for a while to which the brother accepted.
All of this is leading up to Sayu finally opening up to Yoshida and Asami. She had been
tight-lipped about anything before this point.
Sayu begins her story in middle school.
She was always alone.
Sayu couldn't recall the last time she was encouraged to push herself in school. After
all her mom didn't like her so it didn't matter she tried or not.
All the praise always went to her older brother which is why she decided there was no reason
to try harder than the bare minimum.
Still Sayu ended up getting into a decent high school.
When she entered high school Sayu realized there was a difference in vibe between her
and the other kids.
Despite this she didn't let it bother her. Sayu had lost any reason to be happy and in
general she didn't worry about whether someone liked her or hated her.
She ideally continued in school throughout her first year.
She couldn't make any friends but at the same time no one hated her.
In some ways Sayu was actually quite positive over this.
She kept herself instead of worrying where she stood within a group.
Trouble for Sayu began in the second year.
One of the popular guys in the school took an interest in her.
He was popular among the girls for being in the baseball team.
The guy confessed to Sayu saying he liked her ever since the first year to which she
was really shocked.
She was certain no one ever noticed she was even there in school.
At the thought of romance she thought it would only be a burden.
Unfortunately rumors of this romantic fling spread like wildfire.
All of a sudden it seemed like everyone was talking about it.
She even heard the popular girl dissing her for being stupid if she didn't agree to date
the guy.
Still this was all bs rumors to Sayu. She didn't think it was a big deal.
Dating in high school involved this weird hierarchy between people.
She thought it was better not to get involved in all of this drama anyway.
After a little bit of time Sayu declined the guy's confession and feelings.
Not really understanding love and not wanting to stand out where the two main reasons Sayu
rejected him.
Soon after one of the popular girls and two of her friends asked to talk to Sayu alone.
The popular one was crushing on Mr baseball so she wanted to know what was really going
on.
In reality they didn't like someone so popular confessing to someone like Sayu.
The concern here was a damaged reputation for the baseball dude.
Sayu just told them everything that happened to which they got pissed off .
This is when she realized the change with her classmates. She previously felt isolated
but now people were intentionally avoiding her.
She was certain it was due to some unknown rumors about her.
She simply continued solo for months and months.
At a high level Sayu’s situation had gone from her being a loner by choice to being
alone against her wishes.
Still she couldn't say it was painful to her. She felt it was a common situation seen in
manga or anime. One of the things she did have on her mind was to keep good grades. That
way her mother wouldn't bother her about going to school.
This is around the time that a certain girl appeared before Sayu. Her name is Yuzuki.
Yuzuki noticed Sayu always alone just like her so she asked if she wanted to be friends.
Sayu said sure! Congratulations this is Sayu’s first friend.
This really made Sayu really happy.
They spent every day together during the breaks, during lunch on the rooftop talking about
whatever and going home to get after school.
Getting into Sayu’s family situation she realized she almost never smiled at home.
She never saw her father.
She was never loved by her mother.
No matter how hard she tried her mother would not accept Sayu. Her brother might have been
the only person who ever cared about her but even then the brother was always busy with
his father's company.
Unfortunately Sayu's mother was really strict.
She forbid Sayu from leaving home after school and it sucks I actually knew a girl like this
in high school.
All of this really just meant Sayu could only see her best friend during school time.
Slowly Sayu noticed a change within Yuzuki. She sensed that her classmates were avoiding
them or mocking them behind their backs.
They were known as the two girls without friends.
What really tipped off something wrong was how Yuzuki behaved.
The amount of time the two spent at lunch together gradually decreased.
When the two did spend time together Yuzuki almost looked like she was afraid of something
and she often looked away.
Eventually Sayu caught on to what was going on.
Turns out Yuzuki was getting harassed by that previously popular girl that had confronted
Sayu. She was constantly getting insulted when going to the bathroom. They referred to
her as Sayu's shadow.
You even had people messing with her textbook and book supplies.
Yuzuki told her she wasn't strong like Sayu. That this bullying was making her feel depressed
or even outright scared her.
The sad part about this is that Yuzuki actually agreed with what they were saying.
In response Sayu told her that they would fight.
That they wouldn't be broken.
Fast forward a little later one day the two buddies were having lunch on the rooftop as
always.
Yuzuki then said she had to go to the toilet.
20 minutes later.
It must have been a big one since she wasn't back.
Sayu once again found the popular girl messing with Yuzuki in the bathroom.
She didn't hear what they were talking about but she got Yuzuki out of there.
Before they got out Sayu got told to ditch that loser and join their group.
This just made her blood boil.
A little bit later Yuzuki actually told Sayu it'd be best to join their group instead of
being with her.
She couldn't stand the thought of Sayu getting bullied too to which Sayu quickly cut her
off.
She thought she had to be the one to protect Yuzuki. she reassured her they would be fine
together.
All they needed to do was push themselves together till graduation.
Unfortunately after this the bullying only got worse.
The harder Sayu tried the worse Yuzuki got it.
For example her books and other stuff like hygiene products disappeared.
Keep in mind Sayu did confront the teacher about this but the teacher just acted like
a dumbass refusing to do anything.
Sayu just got annoyed clearly the teacher was on their side.
at one point Sayu noticed all of this harassment was getting to her too.
she wanted to skip class but her mom did not let her but even as she did she couldn't leave
Yuzuki alone not even for a day.
For Yuzuki despite all the abuse she did get she never skipped school which is why when
she didn't come Sayu was surprised.
at the same time she actually felt a little bit relieved.
perhaps Yuzuki was just resting her mind and body something that they both needed.
except a little bit later Sayu ran into Yuzuki she wanted to have an important talk on the
roof.
you had Yuzuki apologizing saying she had only been a burden to Sayu.
that it was her fault say was being harassed now.
Sayu was able to shine and thrive alone which is why she had always admired her except in
comparison Yuzuki was a failure.
Sayu now no longer smiled she looked troubled and sad so she was always trying to think
of how to protect Yuzuki instead.
Yuzuki finally told Sayu to keep on smiling.
Sayu saw what was going on she screamed but she was too late.
Yuzuki had jumped over into the concrete below.
keep in mind Sayu threw up twice telling the story.
Once on Asami’s skirt by the way.
continuing this sad tale Yuzuki dying left Sayu drowning in despair they both wanted
to run away together but unfortunately Yuzuki left first in the worst way possible.
she felt frustrated that she was completely oblivious to the extent that Yuzuki was suffering.
since Sayu was there it was natural that the police questioned her about what happened.
at the same time she felt like she was unfairly suspected which made her pain much worse.
Sayu couldn’t sleep
Yuzuki was engraved in her head.
a few days after the incident the media gathered at her place asking questions.
you had reporters and other adults there when she left for school and when she returned
i mean god damn it.
her mother just got pissed off.
Sayu was already in this terrible terrible state.
she desperately tried to explain what happened to the mother.
her mother was like oh i'd expect nothing less from you and she even dared to try to
reconfirm that Sayu didn't actually kill that friend.
she eventually got tired of seeing the meeting outside their home so she eventually stopped
going to school completely . Sayu didn't know the details but it turns
out her father divorced her mother before she was born due to these unknown details
her mother never loved her.
the mother loved the brother since he was being successful in his father's company.
on the flip side everything Sayu did only cost her trouble in her eyes.
One morning Sayu found her mother crying she moaned and bitched that this was all Sayu’s
fault.
Gomen nasai.
unfortunately this was a common occurrence for Sayu she knew that if she kept apologizing
eventually her mother would settle down but then she heard this.
“You must have been the one that killed your friend on purpose didn't you?”.
And this was probably the final straw for Sayu.
Sayu ran up to her room crying she put on a uniform and packed some minimal stuff.
Thankfully her beloved onni-chan was on her side.
he took her to the station.
from the atm he withdrew and gave her around 300 000 yen which is about three thousand
dollars.
so get there she actually had the brother encouraging her to take some alone time which
caught Sayu completely by surprise.
she thought he would be against it.
Sayu was glad she felt like her brother was like a father at times.
deep down inside she wondered whether parents were naturally supposed to care about their
kids cause hers didn’t.
I was actually wondering how long could she survive with that amount of money.
for a really cheap hotel in japan it would cost you anywhere from thirty to fifty dollars
which means roughly a hundred days and then on that cafe which is coming up around 15
for a full day.
keep in mind none of this is counting food.
Anyway getting into Sayu’s saga alone being by herself in a hotel Sayu felt like she was
truly alone.
She questioned who she even was.
Sayu had a mother who never loved her.
she had a brother who was kind to her although she found he was taking pity on her.
she never had any friends and when she finally made one she quickly disappeared too.
At this rock bottom point in her life Sayu felt like trying some bad things.
at the same time she didn't have the courage to try drinking or smoking so Sayu stripped.
she then started diddling herself.
she felt horrible and miserable with herself after finishing but she couldn't stop.
she kept on playing with herself daily in the hotel.
to which guys are like first time?
Slowly but surely her money was running out which is why Sayu switched over to a net cafe.
during this time her brother contacted Sayu. he asked her to return so she did promise
him.
besides she should be running out of funds by now but in the end Sayu ended up breaking
her promise to go back.
she tossed her phone in the garbage.
she felt bad about lying about the promise but she didn't want to go back to that place
with that mother.
you had Sayu walking around late at night time until a guy with the suit approached
her.
the shady individual asked that she needed a place to stay and the rest was history.
Sayu claims she doesn't even recall the first guy's name or face.
she kept offering her body for a place to stay until she ran into Yoshida. she thought
to herself that she could do it once it didn't matter she did it more times.
next up some of Yoshida's perspective he wished that Sayu was able to be with her family and
living happily, for her to go to school and have this normal school girl life.
he wanted Sayu to genuinely smile.
As to what Sayu thinks of Yoshida she thinks of their relationship as father and daughter
that she found the family she was missing.
a little bit later you do have Yoshida and Yuzuha chatting about Sayu’s situation.
that Sayu is going to be 18 soon but she had already missed the second half of the year.
Sayu would have problems passing at this rate.
at this point recall Sayu is set to go back home soon with her brother.
both of them thought that Sayu is in this pretty confused state right now.
that if they were to separate it’d probably do more damage than good for her.
next up Yoshida and Sayu's brother meeting for lunch so now you're actually getting from
the brother the mother's backstory.
Sayu's father is the president of this huge food company in Hokkaido.
Sayu's mother worked in that company.
somewhere along the way both of them met and then got married.
she got pregnant with a brother and then she became a stay-at-home mother after giving
birth.
Apparently this was the happiest time of her life.
trouble then came crawling years later apparently Sayu’s father liked sleeping around.
Gradually papa lost interest in the mother.
the guy was almost never home except sometimes to sleep with her and that's how the accident
happened.
the mother got knocked up with Sayu but get this her Papa wanted to reject Sayu.
However their mother objected to her Sayu was the last thing keeping them together so
it's no surprise when Sayu was born the father completely left the picture.
their father even remarried to another woman.
so why does mother hate Sayu so much?
Sayu was supposed to be the bond between these two figures the mother and father but instead
she ended up becoming this symbol of the opposite.
a lack of love for the mother.
The brother admitted he felt Sayu's loneliness growing up. at the same time he knew a brother's
love wasn't enough that a girl needs love from both of her parents.
before taking off the brother gave thanks to Yoshida that maybe for the first time in
Sayu's life she actually had a father figure.
Next up some thoughts from Sayu she thought that she wanted to stay in this place forever
but she couldn’t.
staying would mean avoiding confronting her past that she'd be running away forever.
it would have meant meeting Yoshida was for nothing.
Somewhere along the way you saw Sayu had a quick chat with Goto apparently she used to
run away when she was young too.
Anyway getting into their last night together Asami and Sayu made sure they had each other's
contact info.
You had Sayu hugging Yoshida while in bed burying her head within his chest.
she said she was afraid to leave such a great place and Yoshida hugged her back.
a little bit later Sayu fell asleep there.
Yoshida slowly put Sayu back in her own bed when she fell asleep.
You then heard Yoshida's final thoughts on this.
he was determined to see this through i mean after all he was taking time to go there with
her so pretty long if you enjoyed hit that like.
If this gets enough love maybe i'll do a follow up and here's some important stuff remaining
with that cliffhanger.
The final volume for this will be number 5 that's coming up.
you could only imagine the drama that's going to explode with the mother perhaps even the
father is going to come into the picture.
i'm hoping that Yoshida doesn't get locked up.
what's that line about good deeds don't go unpunished?
The mother could totally pull that card.
i mean he's pretty much going to admit guilt by going with Sayu.
i'm really just hoping Sayu makes it out of this in a better place.
i think we're all wishing that for her so let me know what do you hope happens?
maybe the brother or the other people she's made a connection with can like let her money
to stay in a different spot.
transfer to the high school over with Asami.
for some other fun who do you think Yoshida will end up with?
do you got a preference?
Yuzuha or Goto are the prime contenders.
i think i prefer the blonde one but the bigger question is will the anime even get to this?
technically the final volume will come a month before the anime ends but keep in mind the
anime is moving pretty slowly.
unless they a bridge or skip some stuff the anime will barely cover what i just talked
about.
i'm already predicting a good chunk of this will be abridged.
Is it possible for them to have an ova special or movie conclusion?
Unfortunately i can tell you this series and anime isn't that popular in japan.
a movie route would be surprising although i guess not completely impossible.
i have a bad feeling it's either gonna be rushed or it's gonna have this open ending
ending for you to read the light novel which do you prefer?
But anyway let me know your hopes and wishes for Sayu's ending below.
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