okay a moment of honesty I don't think I'm gonna post this but I'm losing my
battle to control my drinking it's like essentially all I think about
these days what is up everybody this is Chris from the rewired soul where we
talk about the problem by focus on the solution and today I'm doing something a
little bit different so I want to preface this by saying I started my
channel originally to just help as many people as possible with mental health
issues as well as addiction issues I myself have been clean and sober since
June 23rd 2012 and my mission is just to help as many people as possible so that
clip you just saw was from another youtuber named big no-no his name is
Noah and just to give you a little bit of background I stumble across his
channel when I first got into YouTube I was doing research I do a lot of
research whenever I get into anything and I want to see if there was anybody
else on YouTube who was talking about sobriety and recovery and things like
that and the videos that came across on his channel we're talking about sobriety
okay so in that clip obviously he's not doing well alright so in this video I
wanted to talk about the issues he's having but first and foremost I just
want to make it very clear like this is not a malicious video in any way in any
way at all I have two goals with this video two goals the first one is to help
you out I want to help you see what happens hopefully you can learn from it
and hopefully you can avoid some mistakes second goal Noah if you see
this video I've shot you a DM on Instagram I'm already feel free to reach
out if I can help in any way okay so like I said this video is not meant to
be malicious in any way I got a preface it with that because my
style of helping people who are struggling with addiction you get a lot
of tough love alright because there's a very thin line
between supporting somebody and enabling somebody so we have to be honest we have
to be blunt and we have to be truthful like we have to explain what the actual
issues are so hopefully we can get through that
thickness of the delusion that addiction causes okay
so in this video I've set it up okay with various clips to kind of show you
the progression so like I said when I found big no-nose channel I saw a lot of
stuff about recovery but the first video I saw from him that was the newest video
came from July 6 2017 and here's a clip from and I was this person and now I'm
someone else different I'm different now someone who parties with his buddies on
the weekends and I'm someone who doesn't actively struggle with depression and
anxiety anymore okay so in this step this is a very short clip just let you
know that is a 20-something minute long video there's a very short clip I just
wanted to give you some context so as soon as I saw that after I had already
subscribed to him I quickly hit the unsubscribe button because I have seen
this story play out so many times alright so in this video in the in the
overall video he talks about struggles with depression and where his life's
been at and whether or not he's gonna continue on YouTube and what his goals
are and what he wants to achieve and all sorts of stuff okay but he admits that
he's been drinking again but it's just partying he just goes out with his
friends and everything's cool and like I said I have seen this story play out far
far far too many times and I just knew that this was heading towards the
disaster I was like this is not going to end well
alright and what breaks my heart is that I've looked at have watched a bunch of
Noah's other videos and this is a man who has been clean for over a year in
the past and I won't go too far into it but he clearly has worked a program
before he speaks the lingo he's good about keeping the anonymity of the
program if you will but he understands the program okay and that's why it
breaks my heart but I see this happening I'm like this is gonna go somewhere very
very all right so this next clip okay now
we're gonna start getting into the progression of how this actually goes
all right so this next clip comes from about two months later no actually the
next month on August 14th check it out it's definitely an intense thing to say
hey I think I'm an alcoholic who's trying to control his drinking it just
sounds so stupid it's like the most moronic thing to say out loud was I
happy or sober no have I overall been happier since I got back out in the
world as a drinker yes it seems like I'm an alcoholic
I'm just not a far gone alcoholic I'm not like an extreme alcoholic but this
is something I want to do and if I can learn to control my drinking and I can
find peace with it then that's great and if I can't to make God give me the
courage to admit it and just move on to the next things I have dreams I have
goals I have responsibilities I have passions I've hobbies got things that
matter a lot more than drinking okay so this is a video titled
am I still an alcoholic now the first mistake you made Noah was you looked up
the definition of alcoholism from Wikipedia
I don't know how this 2018 and people are still looking at Wikipedia Wikipedia
is not a credible source I can go in and edit whatever I want and it's not too
hard it's like people play pranks on Wikipedia all the time so yes there is
some good information on Wikipedia not a credible source all right so by the way
stay tuned to the end of this video because I am going to give you guys
something pretty cool alright so that is first off that is a bad source of
information but this video this next video he made it just hurt it hurt me so
bad because you can see that he's admitting he's an alcoholic but he's
trying to justify and rationalize what he's doing yeah I am an alcoholic but if
this were on a spectrum I'm not a bad alcoholic
I'm the okay alcoholic I'm one who isn't too far gone but like he says at the end
is that he just hopes he hopes that he's able to get the help he needs if this is
and here's something that I teach at my rehab constantly all the time of
every day I say I hope my only hope for each person who I am trying to teach how
to live a life of sobriety is that they don't need to go back and do more
research okay I hope that they understand that they are biologically
different there is something wrong with the way that their brain processes
dopamine where you cannot turn an abnormal drinker into a normal drinker
science has not discovered a way to do that yet but Noah mentions in this video
that this is something that he's trying to do and if you're watching this you
might know this quote it says the great obsession okay the great obsession of
every alcoholic is to somehow someway drink like other people alright I might
have screwed up that quote but you get what I'm saying that is our obsession we
keep going back that is the cause of so many relapses we don't want to admit
that we are different than other people okay they're the same book that I'm
referencing it says nobody nobody likes to admit that they are different than
other people but this is something that we have to do an analogy I give all the
time is that my dad has diabetes and it has almost killed him before if my dad
does not fully surrender to the fact that he is a diabetic it will kill him
it's the same thing with an addiction to drugs or alcohol if we don't admit if we
don't understand if we don't concede to the fact not the opinion but the fact
that we are truly an alcoholic or an addict it can potentially kill us okay
now it hurts because I see that Noah says that since he's been drinking again
he's he's not as depressed he's having fun again something that most addicts
and alcoholics know is that originally the drugs in the alcohol they start as
the solution to all of our problems but eventually they become the main source
of all of our problems so while you're watching with these cliffs is the steady
progress of addiction all right so this last set
of Clips I'm gonna show you is from his most recent video which was recorded on
January 12 of this year okay a moment of honesty I don't think I'm gonna post
this but I'm losing my battle to control my drinking
it's like essentially all I think about these days
am I gonna drink tonight what time will I start drinking what time to have to
get up tomorrow how can I make it seem like I'm not drinking that much I had
like this health scare stop drinking cuz my health scare moment
I thought was okay started drinking heavy again we had like a
gastrointestinal thing stomach is hurting
stop drinking sounds like scared from my body in my life moment I started to feel
a little bit better started heavily drinking again even drinking where I
don't want to drink it's happening literally just drinking I don't even
wanna drink and there you have it okay that's only about a five minute video
and by the way I'll link to all the full videos below so you know I you don't you
don't think I'm taking anything out of context or chopping it up funny but now
he's at a place we call these things yes okay so when there's other videos he's
talking about like I saw off control medical issues my life is still
manageable and all these things we call those things yes addiction is a
progressive disease okay so people who relapse the the lie that they tell
themselves is like okay okay I still got it under control so that all
everything's gonna be fine but it progresses to a place where all
the things that we said haven't happened they haven't happened yet so his most
recent video in January that he's starting to experience the yet he's
having medical issues he can't stop he's drinking when he
doesn't want to drink so that's why I say like I really try to beat it into my
clients heads but you need to figure this out not fortunately fortunately for
Noah its alcohol but don't get it twisted thousands upon thousands of
people die each year from alcohol ISM but if you're
somebody who's an opiate and it like I was like this is killing people over a
hundred people a day or dying from this that's why it's so important to
understand that this is something that that that is wrong with me okay
and it's not necessarily wrong it's it's like an allergy you know what I mean
there's nothing wrong with being having an abnormal reaction to alcohol or drugs
it's just something we have to accept imagine somebody with a peanut allergy
who the like just think about the insanity real quick if somebody with a
peanut allergy and then them just every time they go to the store they're like
you know what I'm going to eat peanuts like a normal person this time this time
it's gonna be different this time I'm not gonna have an allergic reaction it's
gonna be okay right you would look at that person like they were nuts
but for some reason not some reason there's a lot of neurobiological
explanations for this of why we've justified that it's gonna be different
this time with alcohol or drugs so unfortunately Noah is back in the
situation that he started in you know what I mean and I really hope I really
hope that he gets some help you know and I'm always here I'm always here know if
you see this reply to my idea behind Instagram you know what I mean
I'm I'm here to help people but I really hope you all can learn lessons from this
because my fear here's my fear my fear is that people who have followed Noah
and washed his relapse they might have thought that they can do the same same
thing you know what I mean that's my fear that's my work
so like I said at the end of this video I'm gonna provide you with something if
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anyways I hope this video helps some of you out and if you want to see the
progression like I said you can check out NOAA's full videos down here ok but
anyways if any of you have experience with relapse if any of you can relate to
what know has been going through go ahead and leave your comments down below
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