all right everybody I don't want to make this video but I made a promise to all
of you that I'm going to try to be more vulnerable and share some of my own
experience and what I'm currently going through and stuff like that on this
channel and I really hope in doing so that it can help some people out there
who might be struggling with weight issues what's up everybody
this is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the problem but
focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is all about
mental health and sometimes what I do is pull different topics from the YouTube
community and try to see what we can learn from them the successes the
mistakes and all that kind of stuff but the goal is to see what we can learn to
improve our own mental and emotional well-being so if any of that stuff make
sure you subscribe and bring that notification bell and those of you who
don't know this morning I posted a brand new video it's like a minute or two long
but I announced the next Shane Dawson palette giveaway alright so make sure
you go watch that video find out how to enter and I also said how you can get 3
entries instead of 1 into this next giveaway alright
and surprise surprise and I don't even know why I'm doing this if you want
another entry another entry into the giveaway retweet my tweet of this video
the one that you're watching right now it'll be my pinned video until the next
video comes out so retweet it alright but if you retweet it any time between
now and the end of the week you'll get an extra entry but I don't know why I'm
having people retweet it because this video is kind of embarrassing for me
because I'm going to be talking about weight issues which I don't like to talk
about but whatever you get some extra entries and like I said one of the
things that I try to do is like I try to get over my own BS to hopefully help
others alright so anyways yeah as you saw from the title on I'm gonna be
talking about amberlynn reid just briefly okay and I want to show more of
my experience but when I talk about ambolyn
all of you who dislike ambulant read okay I'm sure you have valid reasons
like in this video for the purpose of this video we're gonna separate all the
other stuff all the other things all right everything else right now and
we're specifically going to talk about her weight loss journey alright that is
all we're talking about right now okay so something I try to do with my channel
is you know I try to let you know what I'm doing like that talked about going
to therapy I'm very open and honest about that I talked about my own mental
health issues my anxiety my depression my medications
whatever it is my addiction my addiction recovery you know all these things I
talked about all this stuff but man when it comes to my weight loss journey like
I get afraid to talk about it on YouTube and be open and honest about it and one
of the reasons is because of ambolyn read and here's what I mean by that like
I've had so many requests to make videos about Amblin read I did a while back I
haven't in a long time but here's here's what breaks my heart like when people
are like calling her a liar and everything for saying that she's going
to try to lose weight and then doesn't like that just kills me like just
calling her a liar because of that I'm like oh my god like I can relate like
I'll talk more about weight in a second but let's compare this to drug addiction
and alcoholism that's something that I have a lot of experience with I got
sober seven years ago okay but here's the thing all right like there were so
many days that some of you who are in recovery from addiction you can relate
to this or even if you're an active addiction you can relate to this but
there were so many days when I woke up in the morning or I got in trouble with
my son's mom or with my friends or my family members and I told them I said
I'm not going to drink anymore I'm not gonna use drugs anymore I'm not going to
I promise you and I meant it 1,000% with the fiber of
my being I was not going to drink or use ever again for how bad I screwed up but
the next thing you knew I was getting drunk and high again
alright the disease of addiction is a mother effer
alright and you know I can make entire other videos and I have actually about
dealing with loved ones who are struggling with addiction but like I see
this kind of the same way as we see someone like ambolyn Reid saying like
I'm gonna try to lose weight and then next thing you know she's doing a mutt
bong you know what I mean and people say lawyer you know like it is an issue like
it is a problem and you know that's one of the reasons I'm worried about being
open about my weight loss you know on here or my weight struggles and stuff
I'm like people gonna call me a liar if I fall off and everything like that but
I just want to talk about it in part of one part of the reason I'm doing this is
for some accountability alright so I am gonna talk about it and if anybody if I
do fall off or you know whatever or I don't know what I'm gonna do yet because
I have some plans so stay tuned because I want you guys to get involved too um
I'm just gonna brush that off right people are gonna be dumb and idiots but
I just want you guys to think about that for a little bit well I say like oh you
lied look at your eating again like or eating like crap again like it sucks man
it sucks a lot of people fall off on diets but anyways so as all of you know
like I've been reading a ton of books this year and the other day I kind of
made a commitment to myself that I'm going to read at least three books on
like food and psychology and therapy around just eating right and
relationships with food I was like I'm gonna do three books on that specific
subject by the end of the year okay and I just picked up my first book it's
called the food therapist it's excellent so far I'm about halfway done with it
the audio books only like four and a half hours right but it's
it's amazing like it's talking about you know my relationship food and all these
things and different small little strategies that I can do and part of the
reason I wanted to do this is because I just finished that other book
SuperBetter and I've been doing little small changes things as simple as just
trying not to drink other stuff and just drinking more water and everything like
that and I I like it is so weird and difficult to talk about but I psych
myself out like I love learning about mental health I'll learn about mental
health all day long but then like learning about like weight loss and
physical health and like you know what I mean I'm like oh you're gonna talk me
out of you know doing this like I've been a vegetarian for two years now and
obviously weight issues but you know one of the things is that I've been noticing
lately like I go back and I check some wild videos for various reasons I don't
really watch them but sometimes I need to like grab something from home or a
clip or you know whatever and I noticed that earlier this year and even last
year at this time my face was slimmer and everything and if I'm just gonna be
honest with you and some of you guys can relate to this like like I fell off
pretty hard this year because it's been a rough year and yeah a lot of it was I
brought it on myself you know and things like that
but I am I'm somebody who eats like crap when I'm emotional um I get a case of
the f it's right well I'm just like screw everything you know whatever and
like the one thing I don't do is drink or use drugs and something this book has
helped me me realize too is why I do it right but understanding why isn't gonna
mean a damn thing unless I take action you know but now that I'm feeling better
and I'm getting back into like mental health videos and trying to help people
and everything like that like I'm getting in a better mental state as well
and I'm caring more about my body again you know like last year I lost like 50
pounds you know like within that year I'm frame and now like I'm afraid to
even step on the scale because I know I've put a lot of weight back on so
there's just different things that I'm doing and one of the things is some of
you have seen me post on Instagram and Twitter some like little things about
I'm working on this really big mental health project and this is something
that I'm kind of experimenting with it with this weight loss journey myself
real quick for the coming weeks to kind of see how certain things work out but I
will be starting a discord server and a Facebook group and it's not specifically
for weight loss it is anybody who is trying to accomplish something or get
through something or get past something you know like anybody who needs support
right I'm just working out some details now I'm gonna launch this thing but
we're gonna have different sections of the discord like you know if you're
working on achieving certain goals maybe that's with school or if it's with you
know weight loss or if it's with your mental health or whatever it is like
we're gonna have a bunch of different channels in discord just stay tuned to
make sure you're following me on social media but anyways so the last couple of
days just to catch you up to speed with what I've personally been doing I've
been trying to be a lot more mindful with what I'm eating and how mainly how
I'm eating alright like I am the type of person where I will just gobble my food
down mindlessly and something like those of you who are like old school rewired
soldiers like I don't know if you've noticed this I definitely have and I
feel awful about it but I used to talk about mindfulness all the time all the
time you know why I haven't talked about it lately because part of this year is I
fell off the mindfulness wagon - and I haven't been practicing as much I
haven't been meditating as much so this book and some of the other books I've
read have talked about slowing down right and being more mindful so today
just quick store because I don't want this video to be forever but today for
example stressful day at work I was working on this project and it was just
driving me nuts and those right before lunch and I just got that case
the efforts right so even though I'm vegetarian I'm like I'm gonna go get
some fast food you know even though I'm telling myself I'm gonna eat better and
do better and stuff so I just start driving to Burger King and they have the
impossible whopper and I'm just going there like screw and I'm gonna get a
burger me get a large fry all this other stuff and I was just I'm just in just
total screw at mood right by the way if you can relate to this like if you get
angry and eat let me know in the comments so I don't feel so crazy
anyways as I'm going there upset like the logical part of my voice my brain
the prefrontal cortex was tuning in it's like Chris if you're gonna do it
get a small fry alright get a small fry no screw you right I'm all doing with
myself in the car about this and I eventually got there and I got small
fries because something else that I'm learning about myself too is I am a very
all-or-nothing type of person and it talks about that in this book
like I'm the tank person where I'm like I'm gonna go on this weight-loss journey
and if I screw up just a little I just say screw it and I will just do so many
unhealthy things right and this is another reason why I'm trying to get
back into mindfulness not only to get back in the moment and let go of the
past and quit future tripping and everything like that but a huge part of
mindfulness to is self compassion and forgiveness like you know while also
having accountability you know like one of the reasons like I've noticed a lot
lately is I actually I haven't even noticed it a lot lately I've been
getting called out on this a lot lately I beat myself up okay
like I like no matter what comments I get online and everything like the
things my brain says to me are a million times worse and my therapist called me
out on it the other day my coworker called me out on it I think Tristan
called me out on it but yeah so I'm grateful that people are calling me out
on it because I need to get back into practicing self compassion one of the
last books I just finished was talking about how it creates this cycle when we
beat ourselves up and everything like that but I this weird
thing in my brain and maybe that'll be in my next therapy appointment tomorrow
where I try to figure out like why I feel the need to beat myself up like the
way I rationalize it is like if I don't beat myself up then I won't do it if I'm
too soft fun too easy on myself then I'll just coast and
not get anything done you know and I know I know that's not true because I
I've been kind to myself in the past you know what I mean so I don't know it's
been a crazy year and I want to end this year with a bang
last thing I just remembered like oh wait it's November so it's the holiday
season where I don't know what it is this is like a million times I've like
oh I'm gonna get healthy and it's right at the holiday season where it's like
the most challenging but anyways anyways I just want to hop on here and talk
about it and hopefully some of you can relate and you want to go on this
journey with me I'm planning on creating a gym schedule and I have a nutritionist
type person I'm gonna be talking to you and everything like that I just wanna
figure this stuff out but hey anyways be nice be nice to people like I just
wouldn't call them a liar it's like quitting things are hard like imagine
you saying that you weren't gonna use your cell phone for a week and then you
snuck and you check your Facebook or Twitter or something and someone's like
liar no yeah you slipped up you know what I mean let it go it's alright
anyways um feel good talking about this so yeah retweet this video for an extra
entry in the Shane Dawson palette giveaway I have some more videos planned
out for the rest of this week and make sure you're just staying tuned because
I'm gonna throw your little little tips on how you can get more entries into the
giveaway and stuff like that alright anyways that's all I got for this video
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