I was in an emotional, spiritual upheaval.
Breaking down.
Crying uncontrollably.
My mind telling me I'm worthless and my heart telling me that I deserve it.
So many people go through feelings of worthlessness.
I want them to know they're not alone in that and to remind myself I'm not alone.
I like to work with people like Mr. Hudson, Charlie Wilson.
People who can really fucking sing.
Mr. Hudson is just an enigma.
He's just one of my favorite people on the planet man.
I liked when he said if you're not ready to die.
And feels good to be alive.
I really appreciated those lyrics because going from a whole song about self worth and
feelings of deserving, to remember at the end how blessed we are to be alive.
It ain't how much I make, what chain I could buy, what car I drive.
That's the game they playing on you to keep you sleep, is to make you think that it's
all about money.
Things that are important to me are truth, honesty, loyalty, revolution.
I think music is like the rest of society, man.
It's just segregated and it's got so many limitations and boundaries.
They'd be like, this is white music, that's black music.
I don't operate like that.
I could be inspired by Joni Mitchell today and then be inspired by Psychodrama tomorrow.
I was doing a twelve step program this year.
That was a lot of work.
A whole lot of mother fucking work.
Notebooks full of writing and questions and reading it to a sponsor.
Doing a lot of meditation and a lot of therapy
That's the way that these things work.
Depression and anxiety make you think about all the negative things and not give credence
and shed light on the positive.
When I fell off this bridge when I was 17 years old, got shocked by 15,000 volts of
electricity, fell 30 feet and walked away.
Easily could have been killed by far less electricity.
That really made me feel like I had a purpose.
That's why I've got "still alive" on my stomach.
I was in the studio all night.
I still had to get my OG her car back by 7 a.m.
I fell asleep, hit the light pole, spun backwards, wrapped around a tree in the center.
I was unscathed.
I'm not even a religious person.
I just got out and I started praying to God.
Canceling.
People think that they can just end you over some petty internet beef.
Where I come from, man, on the South Side of Chicago, can't no internet beef for nothing
like that ever really phase me.
Because I know what it sounds like when them guns going, and I know what it feels like
when niggas dying.
That's canceled for real.
Being alive, still alive.
That's my biggest W. have some resources and being able to take care of my family.
It's just dope, for people that know what a 12-step is.
Yeah, I have done a 12-step.
I do it currently.
My people down in Florida, the dream defenders.
This is a chant that they do that I heard one time when I was at one of their events.
The kid was like, "Power.
Transformation.
I want it.
I need it.
I gots to have it.
I really, really want it."
I just thought it was so fresh, so I throw it into my meditations as a little mantra.
Power transformation and miracles.
My grandma, man, I got it tatted on my hand.
This is Mina my paternal grandmother.
Never left Ghana. she didn't speak English, and I didn't speak Twi.
I made her my higher power, actually.
When I was doing the 12-step program.
Like hit a point in time when it's like you thought you was coming up, you thought you
done came up.
Then damn.
I gotta move back with my OG?
Then Kanye called me to come and work with him I'm January.
Right before that I was feeling like fuck.
I'm moving backwards.
I'm feeling like a failure.
Just being introduced to and being able to learn from Kanye and work with Kanye, I feel
like it's kind of like...
It's definitely a validation.
It's like okay I'm dope.
I'm doing the right thing.
Meeting so many people in the process definitely changed my position in this shit.
I wanted to turn it around and speak to the listener and tell them that you deserve it.
You don't have to just live through me.
You're human.
Just for that reason you're perfect, you deserve it.