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bull alright anyways see pH strength here last day of September 2017 and this
was my month of positivity I'm a chronic negative thinker for my whole life I've
thought negatively and it really got me nowhere to live inside my brain is is
hell well I'll just put it that way I just I'll just put it that way yesterday
at the gym My partner was like you know we're talking about my my body and stuff
I was like yeah I was blessed with a nice body with a real fucked up brain
like so what I'm working on it and everything and so September 2017 the
month of positivity we are at September 30th now and this is just what I think
of my month of positivity I would suggest you try it out I just suggest
you try it out why not what do you have to lose
how much doesn't how much money is it going to cost you absolutely nothing
this is gonna cost you absolutely nothing and it's not one of those things
where I don't have time well yeah you have time and you're gonna
find you're gonna find it's gonna be great if if you're a chronic negative
thinker or whatever just you know this video was really hard for me to make
just because for so many years I wouldn't see they the motivational
speakers to Tony Robbins the that's the only one I knew of I just thought it was
total fuckin just crap and just I feel a little weird as a 40 year old person who
thought negatively for as long as you don't fall forty years and I guess I
always just thought that like every every single day is just hell it's just
like just like everything sucks I wish I was dead I hate everybody I hate
everything so that was me and so I had to make a very very very conscious
effort this month and you know I've been working on that and and some points my
depressions been worse than others but I
just I don't know I don't know I don't remember right now what gave me the idea
of one to be positive for a month like like how I don't really know I think I
eventually started listening to Tony Robbins and the change of attitude and
what you would receive and such anyways I did I did a month I even had to
because I'm so chronically negative even like the last week of August I was like
trying to and so you know like I would have I would try to do like a couple
hours of positive thinking anyways so September came around the
negative thoughts would be coming now think of something anything anything
however trivial it might seem whatever would make me happy and then I would say
like okay like my youtube channel doing really good that's gonna make me happy
you know I just got a 28 and subscribers that makes me very happy
I don't even care about the other part of my brain says out stupid I should
know that makes me happy it makes me happy that makes me happy you're doing
good twenty twenty thousand subscribers you're doing good you're doing good
what about this you fucking loser no twenty thousand so I just fight it off
like that fight it off like that and it uh it helped me I would say this and
then and then see I was open see I was open to things I was open to the
positivity I was open to positivity so one of one of my viewers left to comment
and said have you ever heard of a gratitude list he sounds like you're in
a gratitude race and I've never been to any well I had no idea what I gratitude
list was and so I wrote and now I have it I wrote one down and it's right it's
right here I actually wrote it wrote my gratitude
list down and so I have that to look at and I've used it I wrote that quite a
week or two ago and I've used it a couple times like more than a couple
times I just look at that I know like you want to talk about it but I really
liked it the gratitude list because the setup in my head I gotta think what
makes you happy and then he'd say no that's stupid and this is and then you
know here it's written down and and there's so many things it's
overwhelmingly like hey you've got a great life just September 2017 when it
was I was making a conscious effort to be positive it has been possibly the
best month of my life like or one of them or just it was just a great month
money-wise it was a good month my money is really doing good or you know
friendship wise like relationships with people it's doing good like I Oh am I
going back am i going back like this is a month trial run I was kind of very
skeptical was like it's this kind of stupid idea I feel hope you're talking
about it right now but it has to my life so much that I decided to
make this video because maybe someone else can try it for a month and I'm
telling you I don't see how it can't be the way to go but am I going back no I'm
not going back this was a month trial run and I'm just I'm gonna you know
whenever I started thinking negative and I gave everything the negative thought
pattern I'm looking at my gratitude list or I'm thinking of something that makes
me positive and I'm not wasting my mental energy on that I wanna wait I
want to spend my mental energy on I'm in veer towards things that make me happy
and you know that's why I talk about flow stay a lot because if you can get
you know what makes you happy I don't know me being in the flow state makes me
happy when you think about when you think about positive things overnight
negative things it just seems so much better and this is funny the last day at
last day of the month and right now I'm item 8 a hip hop I
made a hip hop or like an artist thing I did three different artists didn't I
didn't do good numbers it got like a pretty high liked dislike ratio I think
mainly cuz it was new and it's like not anything to the county and but I love
hip-hop one of the people I featured Frank Linney like his his manager like
I'm friends with his manager on Facebook and his manager share shared my video on
his Facebook and was like oh my look at this well educated gentleman a real a
real true Franklin II fan and I was like holy shit his manager knows me holy shit
Franklin he might know me like hey I don't know so I mean to have like one of
your top three favorite artists who you are I imagine that you think of
that may your favorite artist your favorite
musical artist he knows who you are maybe well I think you know because I
was just like that was the end of the month also you know I had hurricane
armor this month and it was super it was super hard to stay positive but I think
it was like almost like a test because when hurricane arm was started I had her
when September started and I said it's gonna be the month of positivity you can
check some of the late August videos I I say that I keep saying some of the
positivity I had no idea that the hurricane was coming so I was like I'll
just test or something and I could say you know I got for the hurricane so much
better because I was just positive about it and by the 9th or 10th day I think I
was home by myself in the heat and I kind of I I might have cried for wine
for a second I was like be positive to me is being nice be nice to so I have to
be nice to people and I guess being positive is nice to my nice to myself
mainly because I'm so hard on myself and I like hate myself for so long and but I
guess being positive is how can you be negative towards other people or mean to
other people and I don't know for me there's always like one person or a
couple people in my life usually people who are close to me that I just can't
stand for whatever reason but I have to be around them and sometimes you have to
be nice you have to be nice to those people too and it seems like the harder
it is for me to be nice I just suck it up and do it and ma I feel so much
better afterwards or that I can stay positive and it feels
like the harder that is to stay positive it'd be nice to someone the bigger
blessings come this is CP a strength till next time like share subscribe and
you have a great day be nice to selphie nice to everyone else and stay
positive please it opens all the doors in the world I'm never going back to
that negative lifestyle fuck negativity it's all about the positivity deuces