I've been thinking a lot about this concept of aging.
Probably because I'm turning 30 this year.
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I've been thinking a lot about aging, and getting older, and what does that mean?
I mean, obviously, physically I know what that means.
But, I think it's finally caught up with me mentally.
When you've just been around long enough to be able to reflect on how far you've come.
And then, can see where you could potentially go.
Or, now that you've hit a certain age, maybe how far you potentially can't go.
Aging is weird, because I turn 30 this year, but mentally I feel like I've been 30 since
25.
I have no desire to live forever, but I do have a desire to have more time.
Even at 25, I already feel like making it to 80 is not enough time.
You know, once you hit like 65, 70 you're hella tired.
I'm 25 and I'm already tired.
I'm 25, y'all, and I'm already tired.
I remember, I asked my mom, "How does it feel to turn 60?
Like, how do you feel?"
And she was just like, "You know, mentally, I still feel 30.
It's just I look in the mirror, and I'm not 30."
[laughs] "There's gray hair.
There's ... my face is different."
I feel like my body is catching up to where I am mentally, right now.
And that's interesting, because I got used to a "25" body, or a "20" body.
As I approach 30, obviously I am not incredibly unhealthy or anything like that.
But, there is this change.
This shift that you have physically as you get older that is really interesting.
And everyone's gonna experience it in a different way, in their own way.
And it's not bad, but I'm just not used to it.
What does it mean to age gracefully?
I don't know.
I have no idea.
I mean, I think I'm doin' it.
I definitely am not trying to look younger.
Not by any stretch of the imagination.
There is still a level of vanity that I think comes with this idea of "aging gracefully."
And I definitely, I'm gonna be the first one to say that, I be out here tryin' the things.
I be tryin' all the things.
And I think part of it is because I'm on camera a lot, and I don't like wearing make up.
So ... [laughs] I make it difficult for myself.
All that to say, in this video, I just wanna talk about aging gracefully and continue that
conversation in the comments below.
Especially with women, 'cause I think, for us, it hits a little differently.
But obviously, it's YouTube, so I have to have some tangible takeaways in each video.
So, here is how I've been minimizing my hyperpigmentation scars along my face from when I did have pretty
bad hormonal acne and it's working pretty well.
I have been doing this since February of this year.
So, earlier this year I put out a skincare regimen video.
And right after I did that video, I started doing micro needling pretty, pretty religiously.
Like, every week I do this.
And I feel like it's really evened out the overall tone of my face.
I feel like it's really minimized my hyperpigmentation scars, and really has started to get rid of
them, reduce them a lot.
And yeah, I feel like there is a vitality, a warmth to my face now, on camera.
I think a lot of y'all have noticed.
A lot of y'all have commented in the comments section like, "Your skin's glowin'.
Watchu doin'?"
No, I'm not pregnant.
I'm just actually caring about my skin.
So, thank you for noticing.
There is no baby.
Trying to see if I can, not necessarily turn back the clock because that's pointless but
... I always, I think I always wanna have this look of when I say my age to someone
they can be like, "Yeah, you're a healthy," that number.
You know?
So, when I say to you, "I'm 30."
You can be like, "Yeah, that's a healthy 30."
You know I'm sayin?
To me, I think that's what aging gracefully is.
Maybe.
I don't know.
That's why I'm makin' a video.
I don't know.
I want y'all to tell me.
I thin part of this whole aging gracefully thing, too, is that I'm not quite sure ... I'm
okay with where I'm at right now.
I think I would be a lot more okay with turning 30 if I was in a different place.
Don't get me wrong, I'm grateful for where I'm at, because I know where I've been.
But if ... I think if I pulled by 21-year-old self into the frame and asked her, "Where
do you think you'll be when you're my age?"
And didn't tell her where I was at, she'd be like, "Really?
That's where you are?"
And in some aspects of where I'm at right now, she'd be like, "Cool.
This is cool.
You cool."
And other aspects of where I'm at right now, she'd be like, "........... Okay."
In the comments below, I definitely wanna keep this conversation going about aging gracefully
and what does that even mean?
Like, how do we do this?
How do we get older?
What does it mean to you to "age gracefully?"
If you had to define it for yourself, what does it mean for you?
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And, um, yeah.
I'll see you when I see you.
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