So pretty!
Wow!
It's so wide and open and amazingly beautiful.
This makes everything,
all the suffering – to have this and to see this
– so worth it. I'm really impressed. It's beautiful.
So many times I wasn't moved by things that used to move me.
And things that gave me joy didn't give me joy any more.
I'm so moved.
I'm happy that I'm moved.
I feel like it's still there.
I've been invited by Visit Norway to do a two-week pilgrimage.
At the starting point here in Oslo
I feel a bit nervous about the 643 km path to Trondheim.
I wonder what all these kilometres are going to bring me
and what I'm going to feel with all of it.
Two years ago I got diagnosed with cancer.
It was very unclear whether I would make it or not.
I nearly died at the operating table.
You have a clear purpose when you get ill:
get through it.
You work and you fight.
You get all these treatments that make you lose your hair and energy.
It was absolute hell.
It's very good for me to walk, to be in nature and to be alone.
But it really scares me too.
I'm afraid to be alone with my thoughts.
It will be a physical challenge. I'm not sure I can walk every day
for God knows how many kilometres.
I have to do a shortened version of the trip.
But my goal is to walk as much as I can manage.
I really want to challenge myself.
I don't really know what I want with my life at the moment.
I've been working for this career in acting since I was 14.
Morning!
Hi!
And I don't know whether I still want that.
In January 2018 I had my last chemo,
and it looks like I don't have cancer.
But from that time I feel like I've changed in the core.
I doubt whether I'm able to be in a relationship.
I doubt about where I want to live.
I doubt whether I can trust my body. I doubt whether I have a future.
Somewhere in me
there's still a voice that says: "You don't have a future."
The upcoming days will be surprising in so many ways.
Giant blue ant.
The grand nature.
This is pretty different from the Netherlands.
And "pretty different" is a huge understatement.
The friendly people.
Please come inside. It's a local fish from a mountain lake.
Wow!
The way of living.
How cool is it to be in a building that's 700 years old?
Under a blanket of sheep.
And most of all: how much this trip could change me.
I've been sort of shaken: "Wake up!"
And this is me waking up.