silence shared in words
presents
The Fear of Knowing Oneself Satyam, Shivam, Sunderam #16
My talking to you has not the ordinary purpose that talking serves: indoctrination -- that is not the purpose of my talks.
I don't have any doctrine; my talking is really a process of dehypnosis.
Just listening to me, slowly, slowly you will be free of all the programs that the society has forced you to believe in."
Why am I always running so fast?
Is there something that I don't want to see?
Prem Amita,
it is not only you;
but almost everybody
is running
as fast as he can
from himself.
And the problem is,
you cannot run away from yourself.
Wherever you go
you will be yourself.
The fear is
of knowing oneself.
It is the greatest fear in the world.
It is because you have been
so immensely condemned
by everybody
for the smallest things,
for the smallest mistakes
which are absolutely human
that you have become afraid of yourself.
You know
that you are not worthy.
That idea has sunk very deep into your unconscious
that you are not deserving,
that you are utterly worthless.
Naturally, the best way is to get away from yourself.
Everybody is doing it in different ways:
somebody is
running for money,
somebody is running for power,
somebody is running for respectability,
somebody is running for
virtue, saintliness.
But if you look deep down,
they are not running for anything, they are running from.