Hey YouTube world. It's me, Evelyn. Welcome to another video. I am ... I sound so sad, but --
(Kenyan accent) ♪ Happy Birthday to me. Happy Birthday to me. Happy Birthday,
dear me. Happy Birthday, de-aaar me! ♪ Thank you everybody.
(American accent) I thought I would do a little birthday, talk about getting older, Get Ready with Me. Okay. It's been
a while since I've gotten ready. I can't ... I can't even lie. But we're excited to be moisturized.
Okay. Oh! Oh, oh oh! Lookin' like a pinto bean. (laughing). I used some La Roche-Posay
to wash my face. And so now I'm going to just use this rose warter facial toner. It's sweltering
outside. I already been outside. It's too much. It's giving me too much. Alright. So,
COVID, right? What COVID did was, it kinda made everything feel kinda pointless. Oh,
yeah. You gotta get behind the ears. It's refreshing. I had big plans to be on the beach.
In another country. Gotta get the back of the neck. In another country. I had plans
to just get black. (Laughs). And just celebrate being alive, you know what I'm saying? Shout-out
to all my Leos. You know what I mean, people wanna dim our light, but we teach people how
to love themselves, loudly. Okay. Shout-out to all my fellow Leo internet cousins. We
in this thang. Even though we're inside. Tone the face. I just like to also spray rose water
on my face. Drench it. Drench it! The opposite of dry is drenched. So, I feel like when I
was younger, I had thought up until maybe 23, I thought up until 23 ... I assumed I
was gonna be a grown-up. Or feel like a grown-up. By 25, 26 ... 27 for sure. That's not what
I want. Now I got the Bliss niacinamide hyaluronic acid serum. And then we're gonna add some
moisturizer. I never really thought to this point. I always assumed I would be old. But
I never thought about this (laughs) stage of life. Let alone middle age. I haven't thought
about that yet, but. Ionreally know what I'm pose to be doing. (Laughs). I guess I'm supposed
to be doing whatever it is I'm doing. What I'm doing is the right path. But every once
in a while I be like, dang. I make YouTube videos. You know what I'm saying? Is that
a good thing? Is that a bad thing? I don't know. This is the Bolden sunscreen. My hands
are slippery. I made a video about what it feels like to be 29. I made that for my 29th
birthday. I'm just really carrying that energy into 30. This idea of, "Oh. Life is actually
what you make it." You don't have to pay attention to or be swayed by what you assume adulthood
is going to look like, or feel like. I thought I would hit my late 20s or hit 30 and just
become boring. Become ... lose my creativity. I don't know what I thought would happen.
But I just thought I would not value the things I valued anymore. Now we're gonna use the
Laneige lip sleeping mask. (Kenyan) Which my baby blo got me as a gift. (Laughing).
(American) By the way, in the comments say happy birthday to baby blo. His birthday is
a week before mine. So, yeah we double Leos. Okay. You know? (Laughing). We got the skin
care done. Okay, we're feeling good, we're feeling greased to the maximum. Now we're
gonna take care of this hair. I would like to say that my edges, just one edge, actually.
My edge, my right edge was snatched by some Congolese hair braiders back 20 ... 2015.
And I have never recovered. My hair is officially our of the awkward stage. I don't feel the
need to chop it off like I did before. That's just some aloe vera juice. Okay. I'm at this
point where I feel like I need to expand. I feel like I need to make a change and just
do things. Make a true and honest effort. You know what I mean? Just make an honest
effort and give it my all. Iono if it's a Leo thing. Iono what it is. But, I actually
haven't really given my all. (Laughs). My "not all" is stellar. I feel like we be spoiled
because people are so impressed with our, like, 45%. It be scarin' me to be like, "Dang,
y'all thought that was actually good? That was my throw away idea. Oh no." But then what
ends up happening is I get attached to positive (laughs) feedback. So much so that I don't
want to give it my honest effort because what if I give 100 and it's a whack-ington. It
falls flat, and then you know, I feel ridic-alis, and I feel ashamed. But I feel really good
about the fact that, okay, I'm still here. I'm still creative. I'm still ... I wouldn't
call myself bubbly. But I'm still (laughs) I'm still silly. I still have a personality.
There was a part of me that assumed that life grinds you down (laughs) so hard at a certain
point that you just lose your personality. Or you have to shift your personality to things
that are quote unquote more important. And that's not true. It's not true when I even
look at my own parents. You know what I'm saying? By the way, which I just realized
that they are human beings (laughs) before they were parents. I have no idea what I look
like, but I feel like it's fine. We're gonna put this back on. Aw! Do I look cute? Alright.
We're switching to makeups. Yeah, so, what I wanna do in my 30th year of life. I think
in my 30th year of life I want to give more effort, put in more effort. But I also wanna
learn how to chill a little bit better. Because here's the thing. The thing is I also wanna
be lazy. I wanna enjoy life. You know what I'm saying? I feel like if I made it this
far. What I wanna do is I wanna work smarter, not necessarily harder. Okay. And that's just
putting in more effort in all facets of life. You know? In my home life. In my inner, (Kenyan)
my inner workings. (American) In my family. In my friendships. And just being like, "Oh,
dang! We are ... we're grown, grown. You know what I mean?" It means something different
for everybody. I got friends who got kids. I got friends who are married. I got friends
who are married and have kids. It's ... (Kenyan) it's intelesting. (Laughs). (American) I would
like to not be so ... timid or scared to try new things. Whether that means moving to another
city or (laughs) not now. Or it means like trying something creatively that I've never
tried before. Just the concept of exploring, and not falling into the trap of needing it
to make you money, or ... needing to monetize it. Or needing it to be for someone else's
viewing pleasure. Just give things a whirl. Try things out. Real G's move in silence like
gnocchi. (Laughs). Yeah, we got brows. Yup. Yup, yup, yup. In my 30s, I would love to
learn how to do my own hair. As in, actually give myself box braids. I'm tryna ... I wanna
do some faux locs. But parting your hair? Oh my god. I almost shaved my head all over
again. And y'all know I'm a little bald head. So, it's precious. Every hair on my head is
precious. Also, turning 30 is about moving into for real, for real the role of being
an adult child. I am someone's child, but I am also an adult. It's the first time I'm
starting to get buck a little bit with the parental units on various things. It's solidifying
the change in dynamic, family dynamic. This responsibility especially as the first-born,
this responsibility to have more knowledge of things whether it relates to them and their
health. My parents and their health, or just the day to day. Their plans for the future.
Those are tough conversations. I haven't had them yet. But I feel like I have to now. Little
bit of highlight, little bit of highlight. People do it here. Don't know why. For me,
the shift in my thinking was really around when I turned ... it was 27. When I turned
27 I was like, "Oh. Unless life stops, life keeps going." (Laughs). Your life is just
the sum of your decisions a lot of the time. That's a tough pill to swallow. You know what
I mean? Because you just assumed things would come to you. Life experiences will fall in
your lap. But you have to be intentional about things. So, since I have been feeling that
way since around 27, 30 doesn't really hit me. Also, shout-out to everybody who got a
flat nose. Where's the bridge of my nose? (Laughs) On my face. I'm grateful that. I
had that change of mindset, or change of heart still in my 20s. I didn't have to wait 'til
turning 30 to realize it was okay to get older. It's really solidifying that, okay, time's
irrelevant. For a lot of things. For some things, time is very much of the essence (laughs)
but what I have noticed, though, is in my mind (laughs) I'm still a girl. When I talk
about meeting another lady, I say, "Oh, yeah, I met this girl." Clearly they're a grownup.
They're an adult, because I am an adult. But I still say girl. At what point will I call
myself a woman? I don't know. And then baby blo made me realize that, "Oh. For men, there
is the word "guy."" In which, okay, so you don't say "boy," you don't say a "man." You
can say "guy." And for women, I guess there's "lady." But that can sound a little rude.
(laughs). Ey, miss. I definitely feel younger than I actually am because whenever I hear
somebody got pregnant, I'm like, "Oh!" Then I'm like, "Oh, wait." (Laughs).
(Kenyan) It's okay. (American) It's okay. You mighta, you mighta, you mighta even planned it (laughs)
shoot! I think it also has to do with, if you come from a culture that doesn't have
a coming of age ceremony, or age, or some sort of marker, you're kind of just floating
in the wind (laughs) wondering when you, in other people's eyes, are considered an adult.
You know what I'm saying? If you got a quinceañera, you got a bat mitzvah. (laughs). I feel like
sweet 16s are about being 16. It's not saying you're an adult. You know what I mean? because
of that, I feel like a lot of people are kind of swirling in the wind. And then you end
up being somebody's parent still feeling like, "Where's my youth?" And it's like, you had
it though. You had your whole youth. I'm not excited to turn 30. I'm grateful to turn another
year older. You know what I mean? It's gonna take a while for me to remember that I am,
I can say I'm in my 30s. (laughs). And then every time my parents try to tell me what
to do, I'll be like, "Say. I'm in my 30s. How bout you fall back?" I won't say that.
I'll be like, "Yes, ma'am." Now I'm going to hit you with the nude lip. We have NYX
in the color Maison, which is. So, yeah. Your girl is 30. By the time you see this, your
girl gon' be 30. I'm thinkin' about how I'm going to move forward with life a little differently.
A lot of ... not a lot. YouTuber's be lyin', man. Not a lot of people told me this. Some
of y'all have reached out to me in, whether it's a comment or a DM, about a previous bullet
journal video that I did where I talked about the concept of "don't be afraid to be seen
trying." I think that definitely a motto and a life force that I'm trying to move forward
with more, and more. Especially as I enter into my 30s. That there's nothing wrong with
making an attempt. And making that attempt publicly. Putting yourself out there and saying,
"Hey, this is what I'm going for. And I need you to know this is what I'm going for, in
case you're able to help me." I think a lot of the times, we don't want to be that vulnerable.
Okay. But the truth of the matter is, no one can help us if they don't know what we're
trying to do. That's what I'm tryna move wit. Okay. That's what I'm tryna move wit. But
now, turning 30. It's a pandemic. Okay, I'ma be in the house. Um. (Kenyan) But we thank
God (American) because so many people, so many people, don't get the chance to make
it this far. So, for that, I am supremely grateful. We're just going to finish it off
with a setting mist. Oh, yes. It's a vibe. It's a vibe. You want to vibe. It's a vibe.
Yeah. This is the finished look. I'm giving you fresh-faced. I'm giving you ready to take
on the 3rd decade of my life. I'm not giving you laid, laid anything. Because we're trying
to love ourselves. Okay? We're gonna love ourselves through it. Maybe my edges will
come back one of these years. But I want to thank y'all so much for watching. For growing
up with me. Oh my God. A lot of y'all have been in your college dorm room while I'm in
my college dorm room. (Kenyan) And we have just grown together. Become adults together.
(American) Thanks for entertaining my shenanigans all these years. I'm excited to move forward
in life with more intentionality, more self-awareness. And everything's a learning experience. And
just have more fun. Have more fun. Thanks so much for watching and I will see you on
the internet somewhere. Bye!
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