Rupert I have a recurring question that keeps coming back so I thought I would ask it it's
in regards to the similar thing about awareness I mean I have the words quite right I hope I do
but so awareness turning its back on itself in order for this self the illusory self to come
into existence of mind and then its body it just doesn't feel right that it would turn it turning
it but maybe I'm misinterpreting what turning its back on it means I mean that's like the parents
saying okay just get out of here you're gone I want nothing more to do with you it means more
ceasing to know itself as it is and seeming as a result to know something other than it is such as
an object other all world now how can awareness seem to overlook itself and as a result no that's
something that is not itself such as an object to do so it must become a separate subject and
it does this by identifying itself with a body pure consciousness actually doesn't identify
itself with a body it has to rise in the form of thought and it is that thought that identifies
awareness with the body and as a result awareness seems to become finite a finite subject and it is
that apparent finite subject that can then know something that is other than infinite awareness
that is a finite object now all this happens in the imagination awareness never truly ceases to
know or be itself alone you're right it never truly turns its back on itself what forgets
itself or overlooks itself but it takes the shape of a thought and feeling which seems to overlook
it just as the screen takes the shape of the image that seems to veil it but that you're
right at an absolute level there is no real veiling or ignoring or forgetting of awareness
just as there is no real veiling of the screen well it feels like the forgetting is more on the
illusory side exactly the exact I'll recommend of the world that's why in India they don't talk
about ignorance they talk about the illusion of ignorance there is no real ignorance why is
there duality there isn't why is there duality with the very Y question we create the duality
whose cause we are seeking when I say weak with the thought why is there duality with that very
thought we imagine the duality whose cause we are seeking duality is created in that moment
with the thought that but that believes it is real why are there pink elephants with that thought you
imagine that there are you simultaneously imagine that there are pink elephants and at the same time
ask why why are there pink elephants because you ask about them why is there duality because
thought thinks it there isn't duality but that there isn't full for consciousness there isn't
infinite consciousness only ever knows itself it is only it is that infinite consciousness
that rises as the finite mind by identifying itself with a temporary body but seems to know
something other than itself but it that is an illusion there is no finite consciousness there
is no mind there is no real mind the finite mind is made out of infinite consciousness another
way of saying that is that the finite mind is only a finite mind from the illusory point of
view of a finite mind that is why I say to them the finite mind gives birth to itself we cannot
blame infinite consciousness for giving birth to duality in consciousness is innocent God is
not responsible for the suffering of the world it's another way of saying it that that is why
this image of a mother giving birth to herself it's the finite mind that gives birth to the
finite mind within its own imagination it is not consciousness is fault this is the answer to the
question that has perplexed religious people for centuries why does God allow suffering
this is the this is the deep answer to that question God doesn't know suffering this of
course is intolerable to most people to hear this because it strikes so profoundly at the roots of
our beliefs about our self and about God but but it's the true answer God doesn't know suffering
God doesn't know a separate self or a separate world I mean that does fit seem to fit and away
with my own experience of suffering and peeling away the layers by looking at the
pain and allowing that to rise and feelings dissolving over a period of time and yes what
do you find it if you do that what do you find at the heart of the suffering I find
that I was the cause of my own suffering me this illusory self yes but underneath that
underneath that what is there and underneath that illusionary eye which is at the heart of
the suffering or what's underneath that eye where is the suffering then underneath that
illusory eye I don't know it's not there although crying and what do we call the
absence of suffering what's the common name for it happiness or wellness exactly you go
deeply into any suffering including your deepest depression if you go deeply into it you go all
the way down through it you go down and down and you'll find happiness at its origin that it's true
all feelings are happiness manifesting in some form or another even hatred is
a manifestation of love if you trace the hatred back all the way beyond
the I thought you'll find love as its origin
thank you you