I liked them for four years and they did not like me back at all, which was really awesome.
And it made me feel super good about myself.
But the whole time all four of those years I was like, "I know you like me back.
You're not fooling anyone.
You do all these things, you show up at my house all the time, you call me all the time,
you're like obsessed with me.
I know you like me.
Can you just say it?
But no.
Four years.
They waited four years to tell me.
And then they told me right before I moved.
And I was like, "Well, too late."
The first thing that I came up with was "Babe's always flirting away, getting every number"
and then got kind of like, the whole song kind of came out of that.
When I have a song idea, it kind of just throws up, it's like "blegh" and just like, all kind
of spills out at once.
Usually melody comes first and I'll sing it into my phone.
And try to get it all down while I still have it, 'cause I forget it pretty quickly.
And then usually I finish it out on guitar.
But I'm not a super incredible guitar player, I just kind of know chords, so that's how
I write every single one of my songs, is usually just kind of, into the air.
I think unreciprocated love sucks a lot.
I remember in the muck of those four years, I really felt like I just like had nothing.
Like I was just like I guess I just suck or something.
Every single time that they ended up breaking up with one of their people, I always had
like a little glimmer of hope.
I was like yes.
I was like, "Oh, you broke up with your girlfriend?
I'm so sorry.
That sucks.
I feel so bad for you."
Just like watching it all happen, and them going through all these people, all these
people getting thrown out of their life, made me see like oh, obviously this person can't
find the right one.
And like, they would always text me like, "Oh, I can't, like this sucks.
I can't find anyone who's perfect.
I need someone with curly brown hair and is half-White, half-Asian, and sings songs."
They always came back to me as like a consolation prize, which isn't the greatest feeling in
the world.
And they were always like, "Leave me alone," da, da, da, da.
Just trying to act like they didn't like me, but there was proof at the very end that they
did, so I wasn't being silly.
I was right.
We became like a unit.
So we were there for each other all the time, and we became super, super close.
I had to be there to let them cry on my shoulder, and be like, "Ugh, I broke up with another
one."
I'm like," I know, maybe if you didn't date a bunch of losers, and maybe you wouldn't
be crying all the time."
I knew that I liked this person right from the second that I saw them.
They were in my Geometry class, and I was like I love you.
It was very sudden.
I think this person just had a bunch of other people on their mind.
But then towards the end, it really like kind of just became an obsession for both of us,
like we were both just super obsessed with each other, and we were always on each other's
mind all the time, and I was like I'm right here if you need me.
Like I'll be here for a really long time.
I've been here for a really long time.
And we could be super adorable, and be in love if you wanted to, but I guess not, so
I'm just gonna write a whole bunch of passive aggressive songs about you, and release them
on an EP called Sunset Season.
I think that the king is the best example of major overcompensation.
The chorus is a lot of me just being like oh yeah, I'm great.
Like I'm so cool.
Why aren't you in love with me.
Like I'm the best.
When in reality, I was like yeah, I kind of suck, like I kind of see why you don't like
me, like it makes sense, I'm a loser, da da da da.
By writing this song, I wanted to kind of trick myself into thinking I was the shit,
when really, I'm not the shit.
I'm the shits.
I remember that the person's main complaint with like all the people that they broke up
with was like, oh, it just doesn't feel right.
It just doesn't feel right.
And I'm like, it feels right with us.
I know it feels right because you spend all of your time with me.
So like I'm gonna be here when all of the chemistry fades with everyone else and I will
always be here, which is why you should choose me, you know, and you'll see eventually I'm
the one.
I'm obsessed with like really cheesy movies, like really cheesy 90's movies and I just
love like a really disgustingly cliche line.
Like, oh, I love it.
They gave me it, like I went through it with them, you know, that they were really, really,
really, really good to me, which made it harder for me to not be in love with them because
I was like, you're perfect and I love you so much because you like, there's nothing
wrong with you.
You always just respond back right away.
You're super adorable, you're really smart and pretty and perfect and it made it really
hard for me to just leave.
I feel like I knew that we were meant to be and I knew it would have worked, but we were
stupid.
We were kids and it just didn't work out.
But like I knew I was the one, like I knew it.
I think gimme the throne really means like, give me your heart, give it to me.
I want it.
Give.
Hand.
There are totally times when I wish I could just like go back and just like kiss them
or have actually done something, but I don't think I would have ended up doing any of the
things that I've done.
I don't think I would have released an EP or like toured or anything if it wasn't for
me just kind of having like this super miserable high school experience.