>>>
>>> OUR
>>> OUR FRONT AND COWORKER, BRIAN, TAKES A PRETTY BASE
BRAVE STEP.
BRAVE STEP. >> I FEEL LIKE I WAS PLAYING A
CHARACTER EVERY TIME I STEPPED
IN FRONT OF A CAMERA.
>> HE IS HOPING HIS EXPERIENCE
WITH OCD WILL HELP OTHER
PEOPLE.
PEOPLE.
PEOPLE. >>> MOVING ON TO HOUSING, IF
YOU HAVE BEEN IN THE MARKET FOR
A STARTER HOME, CHANCES ARE, IT
IS GOING TO BE SWOOPED UP
BEFORE YOU CAN EVEN SCHEDULE A
SHOWING.>> WHY DON'T YOU JUST
BUILD THEM?>> CHRIS DIGS INTO
WHAT IS BEHIND THE HOUSING
MARKET.
MARKET.
MARKET. >>> FAMILIES ARE BANDING
TOGETHER IN HOPES OF SAVING THE
WYNONNA AREA PUBLIC SCHOOLS
ORCHESTRA PROGRAM.>> I FEEL SAD
BECAUSE I WAS REALLY HOPING TO
PLAY HERE.
PLAY HERE. >> HOW YOU CAN HELP, BEFORE
TIME RUNS
>>>
>>> TONIGHT, WE ARE GOING TO SHARE THE STORY OF ONE OF OUR
OWN, OUR COLLEAGUE IS READY TO
TELL YOU WHY HE IS NO LONGER
BEHIND THE ANCHOR DESK HERE AT
KARE11.
KARE11.
KARE11. HIS IS A STORY OF COURAGE,
STRUGGLE AND PERSEVERANCE.
>> BRIAN REALIZED THE DREAM
WHEN HE WAS 26 YEARS OLD, THAT
IS WHEN HE STARTED BRINGING YOU
THE NEWS ON KARE11.
>> 3 YEARS OUT OF COLLEGE, I
LITERALLY HAD TO PINCH MYSELF
EVERY TIME I STEPPED INTO THE
DOOR.
DOOR.
DOOR. >>
DOOR. >> THIS IS WHERE ALL THE ACTION
IS GOING TO HAPPENING ON SUNDAY.
>> I HIT A POINT LAST SUMMER,
WHERE I KIND OF COULDN'T DO IT
ANYMORE.
ANYMORE.
ANYMORE. STEPPING IN FRONT OF THE CAMERA
AND DOING THE NEWS THING,
TRYING TO READ THE HEADLINES
AND PERFORM IN THAT WAY, AND,
IT JUST GOT TO BE A LOT, I HAVE
BEEN SUFFERING WITH PANIC
ATTACKS ON THE AIR FOR QUITE
SOME TIME, I HAD TO PLAY IT OFF
LIKE I WAS COUGHING.
LIKE I HAD SOMETHING IN MY
THROAT.>> THIS IS THE BIGGEST
TROUBLE SPOT RIGHT NOW, IT IS
THAT SOUTH ST. PAUL AREA, SO,
EXCUSE ME --
>> THE REALITY WAS, MY BREATH
WAS SO SHORT THAT I COULDN'T
EVEN GET THE WORDS OUT ANYMORE.
>> THIS WAS YOUR DREAM JOB.
BUT THAT IT BECAME ALMOST LIKE
A NIGHTMARE.
A NIGHTMARE. >> YEAH, IT DID.
>> BRIAN LEFT THE SHOWS HE
HELPED HOST, AND HAS TAKEN AN
UNFAIR ROLE FOR THE TIME BEING
HERE AT KARE11, BUT HIS
STRUGGLES DIDN'T BEGIN IN A
TELEVISION STUDIO, THE FIRST
TIME HE REMEMBERS HAVING A
MENTAL HEALTH BREAK WAS WHEN
HE WAS IN MIDDLE SCHOOL.
THAT IS WHEN HE HAD HIS FIRST
PANIC ATTACK.>> I WAS SCARED.
>> THERE WAS SOMETHING
DIFFERENT ABOUT YOU.>> YES, BUT
I DIDN'T REALLY KNOW WHAT IT
WAS.>> YOU SAID WRONG, NOT
DIFFERENT.
DIFFERENT. >> THAT IS HOW IT FELT, I
CARRIED A LOT IN MY LIFE, THIS
DEEP SENSE OF THERE IS SOMETHING
REALLY WRONG WITH ME.
THERE IS SOMETHING DEFECTIVE
ABOUT ME, AND IF PEOPLE ONLY
KNEW.
KNEW.
KNEW. >>
KNEW. >> WHAT HE DIDN'T KNOW THEN IS
THAT HE WAS AND IS LIVING WITH
OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER,
OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER, HIS PARTICULAR STRUGGLE IS WITH
HIS THOUGHTS.>> THESE THOUGHTS
SEEM TO BE VERY TABOO
OBSESSIONS, BECAUSE GENERALLY
THINGS THAT STICK ARE LIKE, I'M
SCARED THAT I MIGHT BE A SERIAL
KILLER, I MIGHT BE REALLY
SCARED THAT I'M GOING TO
SEXUALLY ABUSE SOMEBODY, I'M
REALLY SCARED THAT I MIGHT HURT
SOMEBODY.
SOMEBODY.
SOMEBODY. THINGS, THE LAST THING IN THE
WORLD, THAT YOU WOULD WANT
GOING ON IN YOUR BRAIN ON A
DAILY BASIS IS GENERALLY WHAT
OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER
OBSESSIVE-COMPULSIVE DISORDER LATCHES ONTO.
LATCHES ONTO. >> THE ONE EXAMPLE HE SHARES IS
HARD TO HEAR.>> I WAS IN THE
KITCHEN, AND I REMEMBER SEEING
A KNIFE ON THE COUNTER AND I
REMEMBER MY MOM WAS IN THE
KITCHEN, AND THE THOUGHT
ENTERED MY NUMBING MIND, WHAT
IF I GRABBED THAT KNIFE AND
STABBED MY MOM?
I REMEMBER, THAT HIT ME LIKE,
OH, MY GOD, DOES THIS MEAN THAT
I WANT TO DO THAT?>> THAT IS
THE CRUELTY OF OCD, BRIAN'S
BRAIN COULDN'T SHAKE THOUGHTS,
THE BRIAN OF COURSE NEVER WOULD
ACT UPON, BUT BECAUSE VAULTS
WERE SO AWFUL, HE KEPT THEM A
SECRET, INTO LAST SUMMER WHEN
HE COULDN'T ANYMORE.
THAT IS WHEN HE ASKED FOR HELP
AT WORK AND SOUGHT MORE HELP
PROFESSIONALLY.
PROFESSIONALLY. NOW, A YEAR LATER, HE IS TAKING
THAT NEXT STEP, OF SHARING HIS
STORY, NOT FOR HIM, BUT FOR ANY
OF YOU WHO MIGHT NEED TO HEAR
IT.
IT.
IT. >>
IT. >> THE PERSON OUT THERE THAT
DOESN'T UNDERSTAND WHAT IS
GOING ON, THEY ARE THINKING
THEY ARE A TERRIBLE HUMAN
BEING, WHEN THE REALITY IS,
YOUR MIND IS JUST STICKY.
IF ONE THING I SAY RESONATES
FOR SOMEBODY OUT THERE, IT IS
WORTH HAVING THIS UNCOMFORTABLE
CONVERSATION.
CONVERSATION. >> DO YOU WISH YOU WERE
DIFFERENT?>> IF I HADN'T GOTTEN
THROUGH EVERYTHING THAT I'VE
BEEN GOING THROUGH, I WOULDN'T
BE ABLE TO TALK ABOUT IT NOW,
AND HOPEFULLY HELP SOME PEOPLE
IN THE PROCESS.
YOU KNOW?
YOU KNOW?
YOU KNOW? I GUESS THAT MAKES IT A LITTLE
BIT WORTH IT.>> I'M SO PROUD OF
MY FRIEND FOR SITTING WITH US
TODAY AND TELLING HIS STORY.
AS YOU KNOW, IF YOU OR SOMEONE
YOU KNOW NEEDS HELP WITH
ANYTHING, IN MENTAL HEALTH,
REMEMBER, YOU CAN REACH OUT AND
ASK.
ASK.
ASK. I
ASK. I KNOW THAT FIRST STEP IS SCARY
BUT THERE ARE RESOURCES RIGHT
AT HOME THAT