Hi, friend.
How are you feeling lately?
Is winter still cold and numbing
where you are?
Or are you the lucky one who lives
in the warmth of mild, sunny days?
Are your days still and restful,
or are you running constantly
after changing currents of life?
I am living on the border of quiet stillness
and restless rush that comes with the beginning
of everything new.
I feel as though my body, my mind
and my soul are all in need
of a deep restoration.
But this type of change
really roots
in the silence of my ever busy
overthinking mind.
The sky cleared up,
and even though it's still quite often
gray and cloudy,
we haven't had much rain lately.
Floods have subsided
and I've been going on many countryside
walks, exploring new places.
I've been hearing the sounds of
birds chirping cheerfully,
signifying that spring indeed
is almost at our doorstep.
On my walks I spot bunnies,
pheasants and deer
who seem to be enjoying
mild temperatures after
weeks of freezing winter.
Life seems to be picking up pace again
and I am too very much ready to witness
the Earth burst into many wonderful colors.
I often talk about
living in the moment,
paying attention to the little things,
staying still,
to really see the beauty of life.
It may seem foolish
as life is real
and difficult most of the time,
but if it wasn't for these
little tiny details
which I choose to focus on instead,
I think I would drown in the depth
of my persistent worries.
I'm the type of person who thinks
and debates everything,
and I see others
talk about romanticizing life,
and I talk about it myself, sometimes
only to question
the same ideas minutes later.
But, you know,
I always come to a conclusion
that showing appreciation
to little things, doesn't take away
and blur over the real issues,
goals and focus in life.
You can still be a serious and collected person
and enjoy frolicking through meadows
and putting colorful flowers
around your house.
You can work to pay bills
and find pleasure in baking or knitting
or reading fiction in the evenings.
Perhaps too often we feel like
it should be one or the other
that we need to decide
who we are and stick to that one idea.
But then I question
Are we meant to be so singular,
or did we come here to live
as many lives as possible
every second of our being?
I wonder...
Oh, well,
I didn't mean for this
video to be so serious
or tell you something
philosophical at all.
In reality,
I'm finding it hard to put my
words into sentences today.
All I keep thinking about this afternoon
is the book that I want to read
and the embroidery project
I decided to embark on,
which I might show you soon as well.
Silly things like that.
But after hours of work,
days of staring at the screen and countless
migraines and shoulder aches
it caused me,
I keep looking forward
to those little joyous moments
every evening.
Days are growing longer,
and I'm looking forward to the warmth
and long golden evenings
to enjoy outside of my own four walls.
It's been over a year
since I moved to the countryside
from a big city,
and I am constantly surprised
by how much my life
and my priorities have changed
since then.
But I will leave these thoughts
for another time.
I hope you have a lovely day or morning
or evening,
wherever you are,
and I will see you next time.