- The song was kinda based on just being stuck
in this, like, toxic limbo of,
just like staying in a lose-lose situation, basically.
And the song is all about
that moment of acknowledgement
where you first say it out loud
and kind of admit it that you know what, we keep losing.
"Lose" is super cool because it was a one-take wonder,
and basically towards the tail-end of this session.
It was like, it was about 1 a.m. I think,
and everybody was packing up and getting ready to go home.
And then it just was kinda that last-minute decision
to be like, "Hey, do you wanna just record this for fun?"
And I was super tired, but I was like,
"Yeah, sure, let's just do it,
see where it goes."
And so Bēkon, who produced it,
he played the piano.
He sat at the piano, I sat at the mic,
and literally one take later,
I was like, "All right, everybody go home.
We're done.
We're not doing it again.
Because it was just one of those moments that was so magical
that I felt like that take was kind of irreplaceable.
We ended up just using that.
And we kept all the flows, all the breaths,
all the timing flows and everything.
And that's what you'll hear in the final recording today.
This ties back to the situation that I was in.
Thank God, I'm not in that anymore.
But, you know, I think
sometimes what's familiar is what's comfortable,
and no matter how toxic or how bad it is,
you just don't really care.
You know what I mean?
It's just like,
you want it to work so bad
that you're just kinda, like,
even if you don't really like me for me, you know,
even if you don't fuck with me like that, it's fine.
Like, I don't mind.
I just kinda want to continue on,
which is a really toxic way to think about things
by the way.
So I don't recommend that.
But yeah, that's just kind of human, I think,
to stick to what's familiar.
I actually really love that line
because it reminds me
of Katy Perry's "The One That Got Away"
which was a bomb by the way, I love that song.
It was so well-written.
Sometimes, I catch myself,
and I'm sure a lot of people can relate to this,
just thinking of like,
"Oh, you know, maybe in another world,
in another life, you know things can be different."
When you get so fixated on that,
I think that becomes your goal
is to like fixate and can kind of veer the situation
towards that as much as you can basically.
But, you know, more often than not,
you learn that you can't really fix anybody
and you just have to work on yourself
and they need to work on themselves.
And then you can, you know...
When that happens, then there's room for growth.
Initially, it was about, you know,
the situation that I was in with somebody else.
But what's so beautiful about music, I think,
is that over time it can take on different meanings
and different lives.
And over time I feel
like the meaning has completely morphed for me.
And now I feel like it's more so a lament to myself.
It kinda represents the internal dialogue that I have
with myself, you know?
'Cause you can be your own biggest cheerleader
or your own biggest critic at the same time.
That's one of my favorite parts of the whole song
because I love when syllables and rhythms
like perfectly match up.
And when I came up with that,
I was like, "Ah, that's so, so satisfying."
'Cause it's like, "I know,
"we know better so,
we'd both better go."
As simple as it is,
I feel like it just conveys pretty much the core
of the message, which is, like,
we should just peace out, see you later, you know?
So, yeah, I love that line.
I wanted to title it "Lose" because it just,
I think it beautifully kind of
encapsulates the whole message of just like
we can't win.
You know what I mean?
And I think, like, I also like the word lose,
because I think this whole song is kind of rooted in loss
and just like admitting
or bracing yourself for imminent loss, basically.
Over the course of my 21 years of age,
which is not (laughs),
I still have a long way to go,
but I just feel like I've learned so far that
closure is honestly like a luxury to be honest.
Like, sometimes you just,
it's just not there and it's not available to you.
And, like, I think part of growing up is just like realizing
that, you know, as much as you really want closure,
sometimes that's just not an option
and sometimes it may not even be on you.
It might be completely on them.
I think part of self growth is just like,
you need to learn to be okay with things
not having closure sometimes,
you know, for things ending abruptly
or things ending how you don't want it to end.
Sometimes that's just what, you know,
how life is with people.
You know, people are just,
people can disappoint you.
You know that it's not love when,
you know, you're dealing with
a very take, take, take, take situation on both parts.
You know what I mean?
If you're continuously taking,
and if they're continuously taking,
and there's no giving and there's no patience,
and there is not understanding,
then I don't think that that's love,
because love is putting somebody else before yourself.
I've said this before in a previous Verified
but I just love dichotomy and lyricism
when there's, you know,
there's win, lose, there's light, dark,
there's hell, heaven.
You know what I mean?
I just love, I love duality like that.
And so I think win just is a great word,
like it's literally the antonym of lose.
And so I wanted to incorporate that, but I think what I mean
by win is more so just like that I can like attain
or kinda secure this stupid thing called love.
In any music video,
I think you just have to get out of your head
and, like, be in the moment and perform
as though you're, you know, you're singing it
for the first time and you're singing it
as though nobody's there.
So that was really weird,
just, like, having people watch me make sad faces.
I thought that was like a really vulnerable experience,
but you know what?
I loved how it turned out, yeah.