What's up beautiful people it's your homegirl Miss Shameless
all up in your building and she's back.
Her hair is growing, her home is showing,
I mean, she's not really showing, but she's boho.
She's living that boho life.
Where have I been, where (speaks gibberish).
What have I been doing?
I've been getting my life, getting my accounts in order,
getting my taxes paid, getting out of debt,
getting my trick back, organizing my home, cleaning.
Just getting my life, getting updated,
getting the foundation laid.
2018 for me was all about clean the mess from 2017.
I was so messy in 2017 boo, 2018 laying that foundation
because 2019, listen, there is no stopping in this trick
from getting to her dreams, okay?
Some updates.
I updated my website.
I know, I just did my site and now I'm updating it.
And that's the beauty of being able
to design your own websites.
So thank you Wix for this amazing opportunity.
Here, I'll show you what I'm doing.
So this is the backend of my site, I use Wix to edit.
It's super quick, simple, easy,
and I really want to do an update on this image.
She cute, but I just want something more express.
So I'm gonna update this.
So I just go into my Dropbox, I use Dropbox, yes.
Done.
There.
That's kinda cute.
If you want to know how I made this site,
I have a video in the info box below and it is very simple.
I'm getting so emotional.
So I did my website and all of that
and then now I'm going through my Dropbox
'cause I'm like, my Dropbox is so full.
And I'm looking at all these images
of all the things I've done.
Why am I crying?
I think I'm crying because I'm just like,
wow, I did all of that and I am not doing that.
But I also don't want to, I mean...
it's an experience I had and I want to leave it there
and I just want to move forward and create new ones.
But it's just, I never stop to look back.
And now that I am.
It's just... (sighs)
It's just really emotional.
Well, that's that.
Enough crying, enough tears.
My brother designed my website two years ago
and I hadn't updated since he did it
and I just didn't want to ask him for any favors
'cause he already did me a huge solid, thank you brodskies.
Major also, because I've been doing so much work
'cause my hobby went from hobby,
like, YouTube started off as a hobby,
then it turned into work.
And how do you find inspiration
and creativity when you're now working?
You have to find inspiration and creativity elsewhere.
For me as an artist, it's so important
to just continue to evolve.
I've really had to sit down in the stillness
and the quietness of not being on social media
to ask myself what is it that I really want.
And I really want to create shows.
And my excuse that I've been using for so long
was I don't know how to write, I can't find writers.
And the amount of time it took for me to complain,
I could have learned and been writing.
So, I finally said "F it, start today, it doesn't matter.
"You're six years, six years post."
I made this video talking about what I want.
(upbeat music)
What I was thinking...
if I can come up with a web series concept
and upload it here.
Are there any writers out there?
Six years later, I'm in class, I'm learning.
I've taken like three classes, writing classes
and I'm excited about it.
So now that I'm excited about this new hobby,
I can come back and be inspired
by the work I'm doing outside.
It's really hard to keep going
when you don't have inspiration.
So, that I'm here, that's all that matters, okay?
I'm here and you're here, so thank you so much, thank you.
What else have I been doing?
(gasps) I went back home to Toronto.
(upbeat music)
Okay, I am here at my cousin's house
and I'm here because my mom is packing
and moving out of my childhood home.
My mom has been there for 24 years, okay?
And there's a lot of boxes happening so I'm gonna stay here.
I'm gonna finish getting rid of stuff, crap in my bedroom
and help my mom start this new journey
and really let go of my past, of my home.
This is my house.
Here's my dog.
Old lady, old lady,
are you just going to sleep there, huh?
Really?
You're not going to run to the door, say "hello"?
Say hello to your little friend.
She's coming back with me, yes she is.
So that was my brother's room.
This was my room.
It's messy.
She's organized.
She's organizing.
Look at this.
This is what I wrote, well, printed, as a teenager.
"I'm a millionaire." (laughs)
Who thinks that when they're in this little shoe box room?
I do.
What do you ask?
Why does she have royalty brown Jesus?
He brown.
There's white Jesus.
I found these.
What y'all know about the pattern? (laughs)
Silk blouses with the drawstring.
This was my contact sheet.
Do you know about that?
Okay, let's get some work done in Maya.
(upbeat music)
Look what I found, tell us.
First of all, yo, this is the sweet burner phone still.
This is very telling. (laughs)
What does she think she is?
(speaks in foreign language)
She has been a business woman from time.
Business plan.
So back in the day, I used to be a photographer
for new face divisions at model agencies.
Anyways, found all of these as well as my photography.
I took these, (laughs) this was all done on film.
I used to work at a photo lab and I developed these.
But wait, there's more.
This was an exhibit I was a part of.
It was women by women.
So Canada's top female photographers.
And your girl was here.
I styled, art directed and photographed this.
I was so lonely here in LA.
I was feeling sorry for myself
like, "Oh my God, she's old, she's lonely.
"She ain't even got her trick with her."
I had to ask myself a serious question
when I was in Toronto.
I was seriously considering moving back home to Toronto.
I'm like, Toronto is dope, like seriously.
Maybe 'cause I've been gone for so long, but it is so dope.
That city is so lit.
So much is happening there.
My family is there, my support system's there, my friends.
And it's really because I don't feel like my mission
is done here and I usually move when things are calling me
or the city literally kicks me out.
Like, New York literally kicked me out.
Vancouver kicked me out.
LA hasn't kicked me out yet.
We still thriving, so I'm here and I'm creating shows
and we'll see what happens once I do that.
I will say this, in the past year,
year, year, it's been a year.
It's time is the most valuable gift you have.
Time, not money.
Money is important, but the time you have is valuable.
So, if you really want to change where you're at,
you gotta change this,
but you got to manage your time well too.
When I was in New York, I did not sleep
because I was so busy hustling
but I was hustling on one thing.
Now, I'm learning a new craft.
And for me to do that, I really have to be zoned
in the zone writing, which is why my interaction online
has been up and down.
And I feel like most artists, myself included,
just go with the vibes.
But if you try to chase more than one thing,
scheduling time management is essential.
So, let me know what you guys are working on
in the comments below.
And what are you doing to get there?
What sacrifices are you making?
Are you cutting out social media?
Are you cutting out dating?
Like, where is it that you're making adjustments?
Let me know in the comments below and until next time boos
remember to do you, be you and stay true.
Be Shameless.
Come here, come here.
Come here. (hands applauds)
Come here.
You don't wanna come here?
No?
You don't wanna come here?
Bud, look at that.