today I've brought you a very special guest to talk about opiate addiction
withdrawal as well as recovery so make sure you stay tuned
what is everybody this is Chris from the rewired soul where we talk about the
problem but focus on the solution and if you're new to my channel my channel is
all about mental health as well as addiction recovery so if you're into
that kind of stuff make sure you subscribe and ring that notification
bell so yes special guest Roberta I'll introduce to you in just a little
bit so I just want to give you some backstory on I know Roberta and why
she's doing club with me so YouTube
addiction and mental health stuff for those of you who don't know me I am a
recovering opiate addict myself I just celebrated six years in June you know
smaller than I am you know I was really like reaching out talking to people and
just watching other people and seeing what their videos were like and like
Roberta and I we talked a little bit like in her comments and I was just
watching her with these ups and downs some withdrawal videos some like sober
videos and withdrawal videos some sober videos and I was just watching you know
I got clean that we don't do that we don't try to force anybody into doing
this but like I talked about on my channel like unsolicited advice and
interventions and just came a point where I was like I want to share a
little bit of her experience of you know what was going on in her life and what
she's been doing to stay clean for the few months someone recently asked me
what my resistance was to joining a or n/a my drug of choice is opiates
prescription painkillers I had a drinking problem I never really
considered myself an alcoholic but definitely a pain pill addict for sure I
guess for me I had been in and out of the
rooms in AAA and AAA na na a for several times in my life and 43 years old when I
became first became actively addictive to addicted to painkillers I was in my
early 20s and life goes on things happen in and out of the rooms of
AAA and na and I guess I just never really wanted to commit I knew that if I
stayed there in those rooms that I would have to do the work and I always felt
like especially in my younger years I always felt like there was more living
that I had to do I felt like living meant keep doing the things that I
questioned that we're harming me at the time I guess and so I just resisted
there's a squirrel back there chasing me
years later I started a channel on YouTube Rock and Roberta and I was
getting off the maintenance medication called suboxone and I wanted to document
it so people could see what the withdrawal was like because there wasn't
a lot online that that I found very helpful some some some channels helped
but I wanted people to see what the withdrawal was like daily so I
documented that well when I got off suboxone I really thought I was cured
because when I got out in suboxone I didn't crave anymore and I thought I
was cured did a little bit of counseling especially in the beginning I was on
suboxone for three years but I went got a suboxone it was like all of a sudden I
had to face reality again and I just I kept slipping up and relapsing and I
didn't go back into active addiction but I didn't want to and I found my channel
I was crying and I said I need help and one of my subscribers Nicole Nicole
or day she was always on me to get into the program get into the program and
actually several of my subscribers were always on my butt to do it and I was
just always resistant toward it and then the rewired soul came on one of my
subscribers and he was like I have why aren't you going to meetings and I
thought to myself as I'm laying there crying after a slip-up of doing oxy for
how many ever days I was like why why am I not so I got my butt into a a at the
for the thing I did differently this time was I got a sponsor right away and
so I just finished my fourth step I like being in the program
it's definitely work and but at this point in my life I'm ready to do the
work I had to admit that I had a problem and I had to ask for help
and so I finally finally at this stage of my life I was able to do that and so
it's difficult it's challenging changing my life is challenging I'm new to
recovery it's only been a few months but you know I'm doing it and it
I know it's I know it's worth it I know it's worth it to take care of myself
I've had a I've had a rough life some of it was bestowed upon me and some
to myself and I'm just ready for ready for the change come over and just look I
just wanted Roberta to share like what a lot of us go through and you know to to
kind of you know go back nobody did for me
everything that Roberta's done is 1,000% her you know but like we need to support
each other and whether it's addiction or mental health like the other day I
talked about something called an informal intervention pretty much just
what I did that's all I did on Roberto's Roberta saying like on her
video like when she was talking about how she was like crying and you know why
don't you just go into some meetings you know like I do not try to strong-arm
anybody into going into any meetings but at a certain point we have to have
somebody come in and tell us what we need to hear and not what we want to
hear and I could definitely relate to Roberta like I tried to do this thing my
own way for many years for many years I was trying to do things my own way I'm
like I'm gonna quit when I want to I'm gonna do this
all these other things right and none of them ever worked and it wasn't until the
point by botulin and I said you know what maybe I don't know what's best for
me maybe I need to try something new maybe I need to do something different
and luck Roberta I bounced in and out of the rooms too but I never put in the
work I never put in the work I've mentioned this in very old videos like
going to you know the rooms or even going to therapy
it's like prescription so it blows my mind
it blows my mind how many people I was
to come over here you know it's crazy like she is say this for a few months
this is all stupid and I know some of you came here for addiction recovery
stuff and like I know I kind of dive into all sorts of different mental
health topics like if you want to follow someone's addiction recovery journey
whether you are in recovery whether you're trying to get clean or if you
have a loved one who's in addiction that we're trying to get clean like check out
Roberta's channel I will have links down the description up in the info card it
will also be at the end but Roberta makes like videos a ton like a lot of
videos and she talked about her journey and she talks about her struggles and a
success and everything all right so make sure
that you go check out Roberta but let me let me hear from all of you and I know
some of you watching this you know you're you don't have a problem with
drugs or alcohol or anything like that but let me know down in the comments
below like have you ever been really resistant to something that might help
you I mean you finally did it and it actually helped like let me know down in
the comments like it's just really interesting to me how stubborn we can
all be sometimes all right anyways that's all I got for you with this video
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Roberta for coming over and sharing your story I'll see you all next time